Chapter 71 - 71. The Lies Of Me

Edwards let go of his arms from me, he gently stroked my hair and looked into my eyes with such deep gaze.

"You know? Everyone around me only wants my wealth, only what I have. They are only good to me because I have everything, they bow down respectfully because I only have the crown of money and power. Nothing is right - really want to be beside me, really want to be near me and love me with great affection.

I've been used to it all since I was a kid. since I can memorize and learn many things, since then I know everyone who show me a fake sweet smile. everyone who lowered their head, all only saw the Crown behind my name. Everyone just saw that, didn't really see me as I was.

I'm asking you because I want to know what you really think, what do you really want? is it the same as those out there? If I give up my last name, will everyone still love me and respect me?

Choon-hee, will you be by my side? if my last name doesn't exist?." Edwards question is tricked, he really got me all wrong and confused. what does he really want? does he want to honestly say everything? But what about his heart, Edwards is fragile. I don't want to make it worse. down more than this.

I held his hand and looked into his eyes intently, I was looking for what's wrong behind of all this. But all I got from Edwards' eyes was hope. he wished me, wished I was a different person. But what can i do now? if it turns out that I'm beside him just want something, something that keeps me going..

something that makes me want to be around him, and all because of what? because of his last name.

I'm close to Edwards because of his last name.

But I don't want to be honest, he must know that what I do is still with complete affection. I am beside him and take care of him so he can be happy too.

I want him to know that I'm just a person who hopes that he opens his mind and his heart.. Know that in this world there are no people who are truly sincere, we all do this for each other's interests and certainly want profit.

"What does your last name mean? If you're here enough for me?" One lie escaped my lips, one lie that made me quite sorry. but I persevered, I endured the lie then smiled gently at him.

"In your heart? Is there another place? In your heart, is there a place for me? Can I get rid of Violet and ask for your heart? Can I ask for one favor from you? Edwards? Can I love you? can i Give all my love and can make sure you are happ to be the one I love?" I let go of all the lies after the lies, I let go of all the traps of Sweet to trap Edwards.

The smile on my lips is so soft, The voice from my mouth is so beautiful it sounds. I held Edwards' fingers and stroked them gently, making sure Edwards was complacent and willing to accept myself in his heart. when I got all that attention, when I got all that love. then I could easily hug Edwards and not let him go.

I want Edwards to know that I will hold his hand tightly. although I don't know, how bad the future in front of us will be, how damaged the ground will be. but for now, I'm starting with a sweet lie. So sweet and Edwards had to taste the sweetness.

"Are you sure about that?? Do you want to be near me and be by my side? Do you want to be someone I wish for every day Choon-hee?" Edwards asked, his eyes really filled with hope. Sick! I was so sick of seeing Edwards' eyes now.

But I've been in that hole of lies, I'm in so deep. Hoping that I never wake up and die in the dark.

"Yes, of course.. I want you to expect a lot of me. Hug me Edwards and then give me your hand. We'll do it all together, just have to trust each other and everything will be fine. Edwards, Always look me in the eye and don't worry. until you look the other way. Only my eyes, you understand? Then close your ears, and only hear what I have to say. Do you understand?" and again I asked, I wanted Edwards to know I meant it.

Even though lies are all around me, but I really want Edwards to believe me..

"But I'm afraid, I'm afraid you'll betray me like the others." Edwards said.

"The others? Like who?" I asked confused, anything else? are the people in this Mansion?

But Edwards was silent for a moment, he looked in all directions then he looked into my eyes again.

"What? Who? is there somethin do you wanna say?" I asked again.

"My family.. all of them actually betrayed me." Edwards's eyes were so sad, I was about to ask who. But Edwards had fallen asleep beside me, his eyes drifting off to sleep.

"Edwards? What are you doing? hey? You passed out? Edwards?" I tried to move his body several times, but he was getting weaker and not moving.

"God damn it... Should I call a doctor?" I said to myself, but I just realized one thing.

Why did he suddenly fall asleep? was it because of the drugs?

what medication does Edwards take? I took the bottle of medicine that Edwards was drinking. when I saw the reading around the medicine bottle, I immediately opened my eyes in surprise.

What's this?

Why?

I looked back at Edwards who was snoring slowly, I stroked his hair and swallowed hard.

We are being spied on by Edwards..

You're right, many have betrayed you. Including me, I'm sorry Edwards.

But I promise, I promise I will help you as best I can. I will repay all your kindness, although in the end I will still hurt your heart too.

"Go to sleep Edwards, you really need to rest a lot and don't think about anything. You are so handsome when you sleep like this." I lifted Edwards' legs from hanging by the bed.

Then I covered her with a thick blanket, stroked her hair again and patted her head lightly.

I wish you sweet dreams Edwards, no matter how hard your life is right now. I believe you will be very strong, be strong for yourself and for your future.

I know Edwards, I know that there are many secrets you keep. and Everything must be related to this Mansion.

I'll try to help you, I'll try my best. But sorry if later you will be a little disappointed. disappointed that I'm here because of an agreement with your family.

but you know Edwards, I love you as my best friend. as a farmer who loves his plants.. I will take good care of you, as best I can.