Chapter 85 - 85. Looks Like My Mom

"Edwards may I ask? why do you believe me?" I asked Edwards, after a while we fell silent with one another.

"Why? Because you saved my life when we were little." Edwards replied casually, but that wasn't what I really wanted Edwards to say. I want to know something else..

"I mean, why do you believe? Get rid of the fact that I was your little helper in the past. Is there anything else that makes you believe in me?" I'm still forcing Edwards to say something else.

"Oh about that, actually I have believed in you from the start. because honestly your attitude and personality is very similar to my mother's. That's why I always feel comfortable and at home beside you." Edwards's words surprised me enough, I could only nod slowly.

I once read an article on an online website, which contained a research. Researchers in Finland conducted a study involving 70 heterosexual couples. Then, compare the faces of the couple with their respective parents.

As a result, the husband's face has absolutely no resemblance to the wife's father. However, the wife's face has several similarities with the face of the male mother, as stated by the University of Turku evolutionary psychologist, Urszula Marcinkowska.

"Evolution and natural selection have programmed men to look for partners belonging to the same group of species. Well, since birth, men are in close contact with the mother, so he has a place he is always looking for. So, he also looks for a mate who is similar to his mother," he said. Urszula was quoted as saying on the Men's Health page.

Not just more physically attracted, men also tend to 'click' with a partner who has a personality and even a sense of humor like his mother.

"Mothers have a strong influence on their sons. Mothers not only provide clues as to what kind of woman is worth dating, they can also influence the child's view of how a woman is," said psychologist from the United States, Joyce Brothers as quoted by the Marie Claire page.

when the mother raises her children with great warmth and affection, it makes the son think that woman is like that. So he will be attracted to a partner with a personality like his mother. This boy will also grow up to be a warm and cooperative person in the house.

If a son is raised by a mother who is temperamental and depressed but at other times kind, it is likely that the son will fear his mother's love. As he grows up, he may be afraid of commitment in a relationship. If you have a strong, tough, and independent mother, this will make boys look for women who are also tough like their mothers.

That's what I read from the article, so I quite understand why Edwards felt comfortable with me. Because he sees me as the same woman as his mother.

"I didn't know that I did have a personality similar to your mother." My words tugged at Edwards' heart a little. I want to know what personality traits make me look like her mother.

"I also just realized, after what we've been through together all this time. No wonder I feel familiar with all your attention, all your love and it's only right that I always want to be near you. Because you really have the characteristics of my mother's character and nature You're just like him, full of honesty and compassion." Edwards stroked my hair again, I was stunned by what he said.

everything he said came out from the bottom of his heart, he said it all without a reason and preamble.

But what if it turns out that what Edwards is feeling right now, will one day disappoint me? what if Edwards felt that I had been lying to him all along? will he really regret for equating me with his mother?

God, how come the more I get to know Edwards. the more I felt that Edwards was an incredibly kind and sincere person. how can someone as sincere as Edwards be played by so many people? by Violet, The people around her, and even her family seemed to have other intentions towards Edwards.

Can't they see the good side of Edwards' heart and mind? He never even badmouthed his family at all in front of me, he did tell when Mr Douglas remarried. But from the story he told. He didn't say anything bad to express his feelings.

He always kept everything to himself, to the point where he had mental problems. That's why if you have a problem or hurt someone, it's better to say it clearly. Even if you can just invite people to fight the people who hurt you. So that all the feelings that are in your heart can come out as a whole and do not accumulate into liver disease. which in the end liver disease can damage our mental health and mind.

"I'm lucky enough that you do believe in me. Because of the positive and fun things, I didn't know that your heart was so sincere, that it could make you want to be near me. Thank you Edwards, I'm quite flattered by what you just said. I don't live up to your expectations one day." I said honestly, I had even taken my hand off him. I chose to hug myself from the cold night.

"I don't have much hope in the future, what we hold tightly together can disappear and leave without saying goodbye, can hurt deep into the heart and kill to death. Then why do I have to hang on so many expectations that I shouldn't hang on? I know that every humans have their own flaws. and all these shortcomings will be obvious if we put our hopes too deep. That's why, I always keep my heart from expecting more from others. especially from you, even though I say that you are indeed similar to my mother. But I I don't want you to be completely one hundred percent like my mother. I'm not stupid to do such a thing.

I'm still a little sane to get rid of expectations that should not be expected. But I want you to just promise, to be a good mother to our child. that's all I want from you in the future. I don't know what will happen in the future, but I will trust that you will take good care of our child. That's all I believe in." Edwards told me so honestly.

"You're amazing Edwards, all the thoughts you're telling me right now. I have a lot to learn from you, you're just perfect in your own way." I said slowly, I immediately hugged him tightly. there was a part of my heart that warmed when I was near Edwards.. and I'm afraid that warmth will carry the roots of love in my heart.