Chapter 194 - 194. My Life Is Boring

I walked towards the back garden, choosing to sit on a park bench and sighed softly. Maybe I'll wait a while until things get better. My head suddenly dizzy because I heard the mother's words were a little rough, not just a little. But quite a lot.

I looked up at the sky this morning with a sad gaze, ahh .. last night meeting Edwards was like a dream to me, does Edwards really deserve to be just a dream?

"Why are you even here? Don't you want to see your mother?" One question from Bella made me look at her, I looked into her eyes that seemed a little suspicious of me. Does she know that I think a little bad about her?

"I just wanted to say hi to my mom, but she seems to be in a bad mood. So I'll just leave it at that, aren't you busy Bella?" I still asked in a casual manner, not wanting to get too involved in a situation that would lead to bad things.

I have to remember what Edwards said, don't move on anything suspicious. just watch and be quiet.

I had to act like that while I was around Bella, sometimes a calm sea could drown someone quite easily. And Bella could be that kind of person, if I wasn't wary of her.

"I really don't have anything to do. How did you sleep last night? Did you sleep well?" Once again her question left me speechless, I looked into her eyes and seemed to want to find out a lot of things. Why is she asking if I slept well last night?

"I slept well enough, how about you? was it good?" I asked back.

"Not really, I was a little tired last night. Because I couldn't sleep I chose to take a walk around the Mansion area. I saw the balcony door of your room was open, I thought you couldn't sleep too. But I didn't dare to approach you when I saw you seemed to be talking with someone. Who is he?." Once again, Bella's question was quite piercing and made me a dilemma.

Whatever answer I will say, it will lead to another question. I swallowed hard, ahhh.. why is my life always in such an unpleasant situation? whether in the Douglas Mansion, or here. At first Bella could be invited to be friends, but when she came here she looked quite strange.

"Last night? Are you sure you saw me talking to someone? I think you saw it wrong, because I didn't talk to anyone. I slept too well, after all who can enter this Mansion and enter my room? You know that the technological sophistication in this mansion is quite great. Surely if there was someone chatting with Me, my mother would have known first." I said casually, Smiling so sweetly at her. So that she knows that I am not someone she can easily suppress and look weak in front of her eyes.

"Are you sure? I think my eyes are still good enough to see in the Darkness." She said again, and I actually chuckled and lightly patted her shoulder.

"Bella, what do you really want to ask me? Is there something you want to say? I don't know if you really want to say something nice to me, or are you here wanting to know something you probably know. What's wrong? Bella? I'm getting the feeling you're a little different from our first meeting a few days ago, you're like spying on me with all the attitude that is not good enough, am I wrong?" I asked to make sure, I smiled sweetly.

She just kept silent and sighed softly, her eyes looking up at the sky above us. Then she looked at me.

"You suspect me? Why? I was just asking. Do you want to ask me something? Me?" She asked back, she was too good at talking, I don't know what she really wanted from me.

"No, why would I suspect you? You know, I don't like meddling in other people's business, I'm just asking, if you don't want to answer that's fine.. I always like people who are honest and won't stab me in the back. If I'm not being nudged, I won't nudge anyone else. I'm too lazy to look for trouble, I prefer peace and I'm happier if I have lots of friends." I said very honestly, I looked at her face from the side.

She looked at me and nodded in understanding. "Are you easy to believe and believe in something you just met? I mean, new people like myself?" She confused me, her attitude can change at one time. I try to find the right words. ahh no, maybe the words would give her some thought. But? She is very smart and I'm sure she understands enough to conclude whatever I say.

"an attitude shown by humans when they feel they know enough and conclude that they have reached the truth. Because belief is an attitude, a person's belief is not always true or belief alone is not a guarantee of truth. The relationship between belief and science is very closely intertwined. People who believe usually in argument, say that they know everything about argument. Likewise with me, I believe that you are good. then you will always be good in my eyes, all of that can last until you really make me not believe anymore .

Maybe attitude, behavior, or all the things that make you disappoint my heart that already believes so much. I've always behaved like that, I don't want to be too concerned about the situation and what other people are doing. as long as that person doesn't harm me." I said very carefully and gently, whether she understood what I was saying or not.

"You have such a great mind as a modern human being, you have a pretty good education, a perfect way of thinking and you have a pretty hard attitude to predict, sometimes people like you can't be guessed easily. You can move freely like slippery eels that are very hard to catch. I'll have to learn something else more or less with you." She said out of my mind I really don't know what else she will say Next.

"Don't praise me too much, I'm not good enough to be praised. Have you had breakfast? How about we have breakfast together? Then we can take another walk around the Mansion. Come on?" I got up from my seat and waited for her to confirm what I wanted. She got up and started walking beside me.

I do things like this because I'm lazy to talk about difficult things. My life is already hard enough. so I stay away from things that make things more difficult. We both walked towards the dining room, maybe my mother had calmed down a bit more for now, or maybe she had gone outside to take care of other things.

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Everything that happens in this Mansion feels fine, it's been days I live with a life that does feel very lonely and too quiet. My eyes stare at the moon tonight. For almost 20 days I feel like I'm trapped in a Mansion that is getting more and more making me feel something else.

Mommy Yang is too busy, and Daddy who just goes about his days with medication. Zurich, who always goes abroad, while Bella? Since our conversation that time. She seems to be avoiding me. Sometimes she uses many excuses when I ask her to accompany me somewhere. even he blatantly stated that she had no time to be my bodyguard.

What did I tell her to do? She was the one who initially offered to accompany me. Sometimes I wonder about people like that. I'm just confused when in my life I can't do anything else, just stuck in life like a princess in a fairy tale.

It's not like this is the life I want, I want a family that can take care of each other and do everything together. That's what I want, not something like this. Living alone and even Like a woman in prison.

I sighed once again, before long I chose to put on a jacket and walked out of the room. I want to get some fresh air tonight, at least a walk in the back garden can calm me down a bit..

I went out and down the stairs one by one, Mommy is going somewhere tonight she said. I don't know where, I don't dare to ask any questions.

We rarely talk, because we rarely have time together. There are times when I want to ask her, that I want to return to my husband. But I can't bear it, how can I ask for something my mother hates? although I don't know what made her hate it.

I saw a lot of Guards greeting me, I just smiled and nodded. Choose to walk back towards the back garden. In this mansion, all the guards seemed to be active day and night. No one seems careless, I don't know what they are actually guarding? I? I don't feel like I have any enemies in this world. Maybe they are used to such a life.

I opened the back door and saw again some of the bodyguards who immediately looked at me. I smiled once more, then tightened the jacket I was wearing.

"Where are you going, Miss?" a man asked me, he looked so serious looking at me. He's the man who was arguing with my mother, right? What's his name? Lee? Who wanted to kill Edwards.

"I'm going for a walk in the park, wanting to get some fresh air." I said softly, he looked at me quite deep and then he looked around.

"Let me accompany you, it's quite the night for a woman to walk alone." He said again, I don't really want to be accompanied. But what can I do, I can't refuse.. Moreover, the look on his face did not want to be denied.