Chapter 221 - 221. Bella's Heart

"I know your love is very sincere, but the fact is that God has other plans for our hearts.. a few months ago I still really love you, a few months ago I was still short of breath when I heard your name, a few months ago my heart was still crying when you suddenly got angry to me. But only a matter of days after that, my love suddenly turned away Because you are so evil.

my love turned away because of the hatred you have, you even betrayed my confidence. I really believe, I really love. the heart is hurt very deeply" Zurich said, don't know what words will not destroy Bella's feelings right now, but she still tells the truth.

"If there's one day where I can see your sincerity and my heart beats at that time, maybe right now we can still be together. If there's one minute where we can see each other before I hold that grudge, maybe there's still a chance for our relationship..

If only there was one night where I could be in your room and see you cry missing me, maybe I would climb into your bed and hug you and then we would spend a night with beautiful stars. But sadly I never really saw it all, why? because my heart and my eyes are covered with hate." Bella bravely held Zurich's hand that used to feel so warm in her embrace, but it was still warm, only the memories were so cold.

And Bella had destroyed all that warmth, she had broken Zurich's trust. her lover.

"Yes, you have betrayed everything, you doubted my love and you are now very confidently sitting without feeling guilty. You don't even apologize, you don't really feel sorry when you see me here.

You only think of me as an insignificant person, you only think of me as someone you can easily play with. You took my whole heart and you broke it so easily." Zurich Raising Bella's cold hand, they fell silent for a moment.

"In my prayers yesterday, I did wish to hold hands with you like this. On a night with a beautiful view, And God granted it. God answered one by one my prayers that wanted you to be present in my every day.

Now on this cool night, ah no.. it's just a damp basement, but at least it's better than nothing. I want to say that. I quite miss the past, when I didn't know that you were a very dangerous female criminal. yes.. you really are such a weird and cunning villain. your beauty and kindness all along is a lie. and your love is also a lie? yes.. why do I have to ask again." Zurich laughed softly, he could only stare at the CCTV with sad eyes.

Bella immediately cried hearing all Zurich's words, the man was really feeling depressed and confused, he would definitely ask Bella to go away from here or surrender to Edwards.

"What do you want now?" Bella asked quietly.

"Nothing, just enjoy the seconds of our farewell, really farewell." Zurich said again.

"Can I hug you?" Bella asked in a low voice. very quietly, it made Zurich laugh.

"Sure, this farewell will be very pleasant." Zurich said again.

Bella immediately hugged Zurich tightly, feeling the scent of a man's body that made her heart shake so badly, feeling a real warmth, why!!! why didn't Bella realize that only Zurich's love was worth fighting for! why!!?

Zurich let Bella spill all her longing and love on their last hug, maybe this is wrong, but Zurich is only trying to appreciate Bella who will be a part of the past.

maybe everything that has happened can not be repeated, Zurich can only give a small gift in the form of a hug for Bella who is the first person he has loved so long ago

Bella wept bitterly, Zurich let go of her hug and wiped the tears with a sweet smile 

"Let go of me, like you let go of me just for revenge. I will make sure you get the punishment you deserve afterwards." Zurich said who had kissed Bella's forehead gently, then patted Bella's head with a smile.

a smile that made Bella shattered inside and out, a smile that seemed to send Bella into a dark hell...

"I will try to let go of you and forget all our memories.. I will try to do everything you ask, sorry for asking too much and making you try to fulfill it.. you have always been the best man in my entire life, you have always been a a companion who strives to fulfill all your partner's wishes.. you are always amazing in your way". Bella then smiled, they both smiled nicely.

"Then I'll go out and pretend I didn't see you, let Edwards find you. And I hope you get the punishment you deserve when you meet Edwards later." Zurich got up from her seat and walked away leaving Bella who had seen Zurich's back getting further away.

Bella wiped her tears and smiled sadly, in the end it turned out to be this sad. What did Bella expect? There's no way Zurich left the Berenices for a lowly woman like Bella.

everything Bella does will be in vain, because the fact that there is Zurich will still tell Bella to leave his life. Which man supports an evil deed? Moreover, what Bella did was destroy the Berenice family.

Bella looked at the CCTV again, she saw Zurich was out of the tree, then Bella sighed tiredly. She knew that after this her world would be very worrying.

Maybe Bella's tears had flowed endlessly, imagining all the memories that could only be memories. How will her love end? Why is Bella regretting it now? when her eyes caught sight of Zurich? when her nose smells the body of her Beloved? why.. the world feels so weird right now?

Then why did Bella regret everything? didn't she swear long ago? that would hate the Berenice family? It turns out that the oath brought great karma to Bella's life at this time.

God is fair, God gave a lesson for Bella who easily dumped people who had loved Bella for a long time, now that love can no longer be felt and she is reaching for it again.

Bella exited the room and walked towards the other room, where it was where she kept Choon-hee and Mrs. Berenice. they were both still alive, Bella didn't have the heart to kill the child and the mother. they have been given the antidote and are currently sleeping soundly.

Bella looked at Choon-hee, who had opened her eyes and sat quietly, no fear on her face. Because Choon-Hee knows Bella is not a really bad woman.

The two women stared at each other for a long time. I don't know what's on their minds. They are only thinking about the current state of affairs and about life that might be worse after.

"You want a drink?" Bella asked, and Choon-hee shook her head slowly.

"You want to eat?" Bella asked again, and once again Choon-hee shook her head. She then looked at her mother who was still asleep due to the effects of the medicine, her mother's leg had also been bandaged and treated.

"What made you like this?" Choon asked back, and Bella just sighed softly.

"Many things, Hate being one of them." Bella said honestly.

"I also have hatred for this world. for circumstances that have made me unable to feel beauty for a long time. If you think my fate is very good and I have plenty of time to do many things, you are wrong. I went through all the hardships of life, I went through the world that once imprisoned me at one of the deepest points. I've been broken, very broken. I've also been hurt, humiliated, and abused. I've felt all the things you might feel." Choon-hee said.

"No, you never felt what I felt. You never knew what it was like to see your own mother die in front of your eyes." Bella said quietly, Choon-hee who heard this just swallowed hard.

"I once lost my mother, when I was young. Do you think that I lost my mother just because she was killed? For years I lived alone without any relatives or close people. I have no love, I have no money, I have no place that I can call HOME. I'm just a woman who has been circling through difficult circumstances for a long time. Only this time I feel love, from my husband, from my family, from everyone who sees me. Only this time, just because I smile wider than you. Not that I'm happier.

You know? Sometimes the world looks so beautiful and the colors are so bright. For who? For those who think that the world is indeed bright. But people who see this world gray and painful, then the world will look like that. How we look at it, that changes our lives." Choon-hee advised.

"But the world is still gray to me, even though I know how beautiful it looks." Bella still insists on thinking the world is dark.

"What do you see as gray? Is love from Zurich not enough to make you better? You know very well, his love is really sincere. He even still loves you to this day. Why did you betray his love? You also get the trust and love of my mother. Is that not enough too? you get all the happiness you didn't get in the past. Maybe, the past can't be changed. But the past can be replaced with better things. 

Bella? I know you're a good person, inside your deepest heart. you are such a beautiful person, that's why Zurich can fall in love with you. I'm sure, there is a point where Zurich sees the beauty of your heart. Until he wants to fall in love with you. love doesn't come to people who wear masks, love comes because we believe the person is worthy and looks just the way they are.

Bella? look into your heart, how you used to make Zurich crazy and always kiss you with love and warmth. you don't miss it? Are you willing to leave everything just for revenge? killing me or my mother will free you from all that hatred. then try to kill us, try to stab that knife into my heart. and we'll see if the hatred in your heart will disappear." Choon-Hee walked to Bella, she took the penknife that was on the table. Then Choon-hee put the knife into Bella's hand.

Bella was just silent, she was still looking down with a pale face. Choon-hee could feel Bella's cold palm. They were silent for a moment, not long after Choon-hee heard the sound of crying. She knew Bella was crying and regretting everything. Choon-Hee remained silent, she held Bella's hand very tightly.

"Try to stab my heart Bella and you will find the answer." Choon-hee said once more, Bella immediately looked up. Choon-hee clearly saw that Bella's gaze was currently lost, she was living in darkness. She is looking for a way out, there is no one to help her find a way out. so Choon-hee had to help her this time.

"But I can't, I'm shaking with fear. I'm really scared." She said, she was still holding the knife and Choon-Hee immediately smiled slightly at his words.

"Then, I will help. Which body do you want to hurt the most? besides my heart, if you are really afraid. Come on.. let's see, whether the blood flowing from my body can solve all the pain in your heart." Choon-Hee pointed the knife at her own body, Bella just watched. Bella looked into Choon-hee's eyes, everything felt like a dream.

Choon-hee knows that at this time he can't hope much in the situation, because somehow he doesn't know when the Angel of Death will come.

"Here.. in your heart, I want to take all the happiness that you have. I want love, I want warmth and hugs. I want Everything, everything you have I want. Your mother, your father, a lover and a husband. Am I still getting all those things?" Bella asked, she pointed at Choon-hee's chest. The woman was still crying and that touched Choon-hee.

She could see Edwards and Zurich coming at the door. But Choon-hee signaled them to stay there and not to disturb the current situation. Because Choon-Hee still wants to wake Bella in the best way.

"Sure, you want the Happiness I have? Then take it, I can assure my mom and dad that you just need love. I'll convince Zurich that you need him AS your husband, as a home, as a place to return to." Choon-Hee said very confidently.

"What if they don't want to? what if I just end up in prison?" Bella asked once more.

"I swear, the happiness I have right now is your happiness too. And I promise that they will accept you back, I promise that the world will see you in an extraordinary way. Now, all you need to do is swear and promise me too. That you will change, I will leave all that hatred and walk with me to a more beautiful place. We will end all of the past in one fell swoop. How about Bella?" I smiled as sweetly as possible, she immediately cried even louder. hugged me and threw away the knife we ​​were holding together.

I immediately hugged her back, we were involved in a conflict that was quite tiring.