I just feel excited about him. I just see him. I can't be quiet. I can't deceive myself.
Like a person, that is how sure, how clear things, do not need to doubt.
But I also know that I am your wife, your rightful wife of Linxia. I am yours, my soul and my heart, but it is not all on you. I can't deceive you or myself.
I went back just in time. The waiter delivering breakfast pushed the dining car at the door with a bitter face.
"Why don't you go in?"
"Mr. Ji told me to wait."
I knocked on the door: "Mr. Ji, your breakfast."
He said happily, "push on."
"Here, push on."
Turning to the service desk, there was a newly transferred colleague who smiled at me: "Miss Mo, the flowers are ready."
"Then send it." that is, I have to hand it over. That's it.
Naturally, the hotel will have other arrangements for me. I'm not worried.
The new colleague put in the flowers, but came out with tears.
"What's the matter?"
"Miss Mo, you'd better go by yourself. As soon as I went in to change flowers, Mr. Ji told me to wash my claws and don't touch his flowers. How can he do this?"
"Stop crying. Go to the bathroom and make up. I'll have a look."
Grab the walkie talkie and go in. The breakfast delivery people are also very timid. They are placed in the small hall outside. They are so light that they are afraid to wake up the tyrant inside.
"Mr. Ji."
I knocked on the inner door: "Mr. Ji." why was there no sound.
The door is unlocked and can be opened with a push, but how can I pass like this.
"Breakfast has been delivered and flowers have been delivered. Will Mr. Ji use it now or later?"
"Come in and change the flowers." his voice seemed so weak.
I motioned the waiter to go in, but she shook her head and refused to go in.
"Mr. Ji, we'll change fresh flowers for you as soon as it's convenient for you."
"It's convenient for me now. Come in and change."
Change it. He has to fix me like this.
He pushed the door hard. He was still lingering in bed. He was buried in the quilt and only showed his head.
When I opened the door, he struggled to pull down some quilt. It was a haggard face. No wonder he was in a bad mood.
Turned to pick up the flowers, changed the sea taro in the room, slightly opened the curtain and opened the window. The cool autumn wind blew in. The curtain brushed the sea taro and flashed water light, like a dream.
"Chihiro." he sat up and called me, "help me squeeze toothpaste."
Tears of frustration almost came down again.
It's still Xiaobei, or Ji Xiaobei, who hates squeezing toothpaste.
"Ji Xiaobei." I want to refuse him.
He said, "I'm not feeling well today. Would you please do such a thing for me?"
"OK." maybe it's the last time.
I went to the bathroom to squeeze toothpaste for him. When he came out, he still couldn't get up in bed. I gently closed the door and went out, changed the flowers outside, and then came out with a bucket.
Ji Xiaobei stayed in this hotel and was used to being so ambiguous with me. Rumors about me must have spread all over the world.
Many people know that I'm married. Lin Xia hasn't picked me up, and the ring between her fingers hasn't been taken off.
"Manager, I'd like to take a few days off."
She was a little surprised over the walkie talkie: "Er, Chihiro, is there something wrong?"
"There's nothing wrong. I'm a little uncomfortable, so I want to take a few days off."
"Well, in recent days, there has been a high incidence of influenza, and not many people come and go to the hotel."
"Thank you, manager."
"You haven't taken any annual leave. It's OK to go out and play well. It'll be better to work with full spirit."
With Lin Xia's care, how can it be difficult to ask for leave? It's just a question of opening up.
What he wants, I know.
He didn't want me to contact Ji Xiaobei. I changed my work clothes and put them in the cabinet. I went back with my bag. I didn't want to take a car or ask someone to pick me up.
It took more than an hour to walk all the way back. I still remember the craziest time when Ji Zhixian and I walked back in the rain from the cemetery in the suburbs.
I've always been sad, Ji Xiaobei. I've been fooled around by your family, but my feeling for you can't be extinguished.
I can only stay away from you, further away, where I can't see you.
There are many things in life. If you are much greedy, you will lose some things you have got and bear a lot of heavy burdens.
My son likes crisps very much. He went to the cake shop and bought him a small bag to carry back.
Walking leisurely with shoes in one hand and bags in the other.
It's good to walk alone, but if someone walks with me during the storm, he will hold my hand and I will hold his hand. That's perfect. If not, there is nothing, life has never brought anything.
Lin Yu went to the small park to play. I looked at the big wedding dress in the bedroom. Lin Xia looked at me with such satisfaction. At that time, he was still very thin. His eyes were too thick for love and happiness.
But I am so empty, so reluctant to smile.
You love me, everyone knows, I don't love you, everyone doesn't know.
"Madam, how about eating Ben's dishes at noon?"
"Just give me some noodles."
"My husband said that my wife likes to eat Ben's dishes. I wanted to cook them tonight. I never thought my wife would come back at noon."
"I've asked for several days off. Mom he, didn't you say you wanted to go back to your hometown? Go back and pack up in the afternoon. I'll buy you a ticket tomorrow. It's faster to fly back and save trouble."
She was delighted: "madam, really, really..."
"Oh, you always have to go back to see your home. No matter how far you are, you have to go back."
"Then I'll make more pickled cabbage dumplings that my wife likes to eat. Put beef dumplings in the fridge. If my wife likes to eat, order them."
"Don't bother. There are ready-made ones in the supermarket."
"That's not good. It doesn't have its own fragrance, and it's not nutritious enough."
Mrs. he is very happy. Her hometown is Sichuan. It's a long way to go back by train from Beijing. I booked her a ticket and asked her to go back by plane tomorrow. She can get to Chengdu in the afternoon and change trains to get home.
When you are idle at home, it seems that you have to do all the things you should do.
Cleaners are hourly workers who come up every morning. They don't have to pay attention to hygiene. It's just a family size meal.
The nanny just takes care of the children and doesn't care about anything.
Xiao Yu was so happy to see me at home that he was tired of pestering me and called sweetly, "Mommy, Mommy."