If I'm not afraid, if I don't care, I won't cry in front of you.
Children are my life and everything to me. I can't stand the disappearance of life any more.
I would rather be lonely all my life without a lover by my side, but I also want children.
"I'll let you go," he sighed. "Don't cry."
I looked up to wipe away my tears and looked at him in disbelief.
The cold and fierce color on his face was a little less, and there was a lot of pain on his eyebrows.
I was a little scared when I stroked my lower abdomen with one hand. I wanted to tear his hand away, but he said, "here, once was my child? I Ji Dabei, would have children?"
If it seems a little crazy, such a person, I'd better not talk to stimulate him. He doesn't seem to want to hurt me now.
"If you tell me, how good?" he whispered, "maybe I will feel the temperature of my child, maybe I will put down a lot of hatred and nurture, take care of and organize our small home with you."
After all, he thought a little too much. No matter whether the child was there or not, I wouldn't be with him.
"Chihiro, tell me, does it hurt when the child leaves?"
My fingers trembled, how painless.
"I was lying in a dark little bed, bleeding and aching all the time. The doctor announced that I might not be able to conceive again in the future. The pain at that time was ten times heavier than before."
"I know you," he said rustly, "I know the pain of losing relatives."
"Ji Dabei, will you let me go? I won't intervene in the hatred between you and Ji Xiaobei. I don't care what you do. Now I have nothing to do with him. France is my nightmare capital. I just want to go there to give birth to my child, lose it there and come back there. He doesn't love me."
"He loves you more than any of you think, but I don't want to be sorry for you anymore." when he said this, the whole person was much more sober.
"I'll take you back to France," he said.
"Thank you."
Ji Dabei, who is also a man of great promise, said to send me back, so he immediately set about arranging.
After arriving in France, I called home and told Qin Rui that I had arrived. He was greatly relieved, and then said lightly, "that's good. We have nothing here, just look for you for two days, that's good."
"Yes."
I called Dongzi. Dongzi just said, "Chihiro, see if you can receive XXX."
I looked for it on the Internet. The title was about several people hitting a nightclub and fighting.
When I opened the glass and blood everywhere, I first saw many people from bad society. They gathered in front of Ji Dabei's nightclub and began to smash, loot and hit people.
There are not vegetarians over there. Both sides are in a tight fight. There are several cars on the roadside, including Qiao Dongcheng's, Dongzi's, Qin Rui's, and... Ji Xiaobei's.
Ji Dabei rushed to the nightclub. Ji Xiaobei came out of the car and greeted him with a smile. He severely punched the unprotected Ji Dabei and shouted, "hand her over."
The two wrestled together. The bodyguards around Ji Dabei were very powerful and joined the fight. Ji Xiaobei was completely defeated.
Nosebleed came out, still pulling Ji Dabei's long hair: "give her out, give her out, you want my life, I give it to you, don't hurt her a cold hair."
My heart is sour and uncomfortable.
I thought we were passers-by from now on, but Ji Xiaobei, your behavior is not a qualified passer-by.
Didn't you say you were going to put me down? Why do you want to be like this? You clearly know that you can't afford to be so hard. It's not easy to deal with the mess in Beijing. It's not easy for you to plan carefully to make it difficult for Ji Dabei to mix in Beijing. Ji Xiaobei, why don't you calm down. You're not their opponent. You're still fighting, hitting him, but it hurts me.
I kicked Xiaobei on the head. Xiaobei vomited blood and seemed to have lost his teeth. I covered my mouth with one hand and found that my cheeks were also wet.
He was still shouting and pulling Ji Dabei: "hand her over. Don't hurt her. It's a man who rushed at me and killed me. I won't beg you for mercy."
Qiao Dongcheng came over and rescued Ji Xiaobei. The gang of fighting gangsters got into the roadside car and hurried away with a siren. The blood on the ground was messy and painful.
My heart is really uncomfortable. It's extremely painful. I can't help calling Qiao Dongcheng.
His voice was sour: "Qiao Dongcheng."
"Well," he replied faintly, "why, I see the video. Passers-by really hate it."
"Qiao Dongcheng, I'm fine."
"I'm fine too," he said.
"Can you tell me? I want to know." I admit, I can't put that bastard in my heart, even if he hurts me again and again.
Do not love a person, may be a pain, and love a person, is it not a pain?
"He just called us all. He said you must be in Ji Dabei's hand. He would hurt you. He said he invited the underworld from other places to clean up Ji Dabei and give him a good look. When he was lack of skills, he looked for you in every dens in Beijing."
"... Xiao Bei, you are really crazy. You are really irrational.
"That boy, he still needs to clean up. That's all. Now he's lying in the hospital with two broken ribs and shallow fainting. According to his condition, there should be nothing wrong."
"I'm sorry, I'm the one who worries you."
He pondered for a moment before he said, "Chihiro, are you in France?"
"OK."
"Then don't go back to Beijing, have a baby there, and go to another place to live. I found Ji boy a little unusual, and there have been some big movements in Beijing recently, so you're not suitable to go back to China, you know."
"OK. I see."
"Chihiro, don't worry about us or him. Be happy over there. He misses you from beginning to end."
After hanging up, I still can't turn around.
He sat for a long time before sighing. He really wanted me. He probably wanted me to leave in order to make me safer.
Ji Xiaobei, will you let me go easily? The answer in my heart, I'm afraid not.
You won't look at the person you once said you would marry.
I know you and she will have mail exchanges, but not too much. I don't have much confidence in myself.
I'm waiting for you to tell me, Xiao Bei.