Chapter 79：And So, The News Spread

"First of all, it's not that my body didn't react to his attempt." Jane stated as a matter of fact.

Hannah look at her confused, "you felt the same?"

"Not felt, my body did, why? Because what he wants is obvious and the fact that it got processed in my brain; my body will surely react. It is left to me to take a wise step. 

He's handsome, yes, but so what? There are lots of handsome guys out there, so if I let him get to me because he is handsome, because my body react; can you imagine how many guys I'm gonna sleep with in my life? Because many more will still attempt the same.

I will get married and some will still make such attempt after. if I can't control myself; what do you think will happen to my marriage?.

I'm in a relationship now, if I can't control my desire in front of another guy; what's the use of being in a relationship?.

You need to let yourself look at a naked man, let the word 'pervert!' appear on your mind instead of 'he's hot!' If he doesn't mean anything in your life. 

Your body might say otherwise, but let your mind be in control at that moment. You're free to blush and let your imagination run wild after you're done getting rid of the temptation, it's cool because we are female after all, crazy thoughts will always pop up, we imagine things that makes us hit our head and wondered where it came from at times, that's normal." Jane said.

Hearing her speak on and on; Hannah felt like she resided in her head, but those crazy thoughts are what she had when it comes to Ethan. One thing sank into get head though; the self control thingy. It's hard to calm her racing heart and tensed body when she escaped Kyle at the first meeting, before taking Jane along the second time.

She recalled how she felt at ease that she ran away after her body desire died down. It felt like she made the right decision after processing the fact that she could have had another sex with him, if she hadn't done that.

"Don't let your sexual feelings control you..." Jane lectured and lectured till she couldn't think of anything else to say. "Do you get my point?" She asked.

"I do, thank you." Hannah said.

She wanted to ask if they could be friends but didn't know how to put it, so she just kept quiet. She recalled how lots of people has tried to befriend her, but she brushed them off. She now understood how they felt, she's scared of getting rejected right now, which made her understand how those people must have struggled before approaching her, and how it must hurt to get such a reply from her.

"You're welcome." Jane replied. "may I leave now?" she asked the question she wouldn't have dared asked before.

Hannah confidence to ask for friendship broke, "yeah sure, you c-can leave." she stuttered.

Jane misunderstood her stuttering. She thought she did so because her secret is out, not having any idea that Hannah did not even find what they discuss as such. To her; she believe Jane wouldn't say anything since she told her not to before they begin. 

Jane stood up and left.

Apparently they have their gossip group, where they talked about Hannah behind her back whenever she acted bossy and rude like she usually does.

The others has teased Jane after attending the meeting with her. They talked about how Hannah has her eyes on her now and also did the same after Jane got notified that Hannah required her attention in her office. 

"What did she want this time? Did she pick on you?" One of the secretaries asked as Jane settled down at her desk.

"Fortunately she didn't." Jane said, returning back to her usual self, totally different from when she's standing in front of Hannah.

"That's good to hear."

"What did she want then?" 

"What did you guys discussed?"

They kept bombarding her with questions, which is normal, because she usually did the same as well, whenever anyone of them got summoned by Hannah. 

Jane brushed them off, claiming it's nothing relevant, but still couldn't keep such epic news to herself, so she chose to discuss it with one of the secretaries she's much closer with.

The girl couldn't believe her ears when she heard it. She couldn't believe she will do something like that despite her proud nature. "Seems she's not proud when it's d*ck related." The girl remarked, making Jane chuckled. 

The girl couldn't keep to herself and confide in another worker about it. Within a day, it spread among the workers, one person kept sharing to another with the believe of not wanting it to be a news to their ears alone. And so, the private talk become news, to the extent that it got to Ethan's ears.

They really hated Hannah to such extent that someone summoned the courage and reported to Ethan, stylishly claiming that it's turning the company into a gossip nest, hoping Ethan will only focus on Hannah part of the story.

Ethan thanked the person for her care for the company and dismissed her. He now understood why Hannah became like that. 

Apparently he's not the type that just judge people when he hasn't been in their shoes. To him, Hannah is old enough to do as she pleases and also no one is above mistake. When he saw her in such a state, he was actually disappointed in her but since it's not something that concerned him, he brushed it off.

Understanding her situation now, the disappointment from that day vanished entirely. She has been working for him for more than 5 years now, and he knew from the day she stepped into his office that she's into him. Despite that; she never overstepped her boundaries until the day Diana showed up and her making their lips touched. 

He wouldn't just judge her because of this news, not that it's any of his business as anyway.

Hannah cried her heart out when she got home. She's not deaf and could hear everything about her being a whore and other bad names. She couldn't even raised her head up till she left the company's premises.

But she has herself to blame. All her proud nature and attitude was the main, before they added the fact that, she got screwed by a stranger, when she wouldn't even accept a handshake from anyone in the company. 

Getting to the company the next day; she waited for Ethan's arrival. She nearly fell down under the mockery stare of people who wouldn't dare look her straight in the eyes before.

She wanted this to end, she need to leave. Getting to Ethan's office; she submitted her resignation letter to him.

"You're resigning." He said.

It's not a question but Hannah still nodded her head.

"Because of the gossip about you sleeping with that dude?" Ethan asked.

Hannah was surprised, as she wanted to leave before Ethan also heard the full story, but not so surprised at the same time, Ethan isn't the harsh type, so someone must have had the confidence to report it to him.

"What will you do after you leave? Commit suicide?" He asked again.

Hannah gulped, she really did think of that the other night, but shook it off her mind as it came.

"How old are you now?" Ethan asked.

"Just turned 29." She replied.

"Come here." Ethan said and stood up from his seat, walked toward the couch and gestured for Hannah to sit as well, which she did, still not able to look up at him.

"There's nothing wrong with a 29 year old having sex. It might be the situation the sex occur from that made you feel this way, but you're mature enough to do as you please. Because they mocked you doesn't mean they are pure as well.

If you leave now, you will be free from  the gossip, fine!, but what will happen if you come across one of them I'm the future? do you think they wouldn't talk about it because you are no more working here?" Ethan asked.

With tears streaming down her face, Hannah shook her head.

"Good that you know. You might end up resulting to killing yourself if it follows you around. I will suggest you face it here and don't let gossip bring you down, you're in a position to give orders and should be able to quiet them down if you can stop feeling dejected. I don't concern myself with this stuff and you know that, being someone who has worked with me for a long while, so it's up to you.

You're a reliable girl, and I really appreciate your commitment to this company, so I'm giving you a chance to set things right, fight instead of running and gain strength from you error. But it's still up to you if you wish to leave, I've done my part." Ethan concluded. 

He passed the letter back to her, "think about it and email me if you still feel like you can't cope." He added.

Hannah sniffed and took the letter from him, she squeezed it with her palm and look up at Ethan with her tear filled face. "Thank you sir, I'm sorry for this and I won't leave." She said in a low tone.

Ethan stretched forward his hand for a handshake and she shakily took it. "Goodluck." He said with a smile. 

He is 100% sure the girl will resort to suicide if care is not taken. And also couldn't turn a blind eye to it. She was so reliable that he searched for his brother all those years without any worries about company affairs. 

It will be a waste if something that she's supposed to just learn from, ended up being something she lost her life because of it.