Chapter 797

He knew that he had to do something, or sooner or later he would lose control.

No one knows how afraid he is that he is out of control, that his reason is completely swallowed up by the dark thought, and that he will regret and hurt her!

Every day he restrained himself and struggled with the darkness. Every day he lived very tired. Every night he needed a lot of sleeping pills and wine to fall asleep. Every night when he dreamed, he would dream that he killed Su Yan. She was very sad and sad. She looked at him with eyes that hated him. Such eyes often woke him up from his dream and dared not sleep again.

He went to see a psychologist. He said he had to relax, or the consequences would be unimaginable.

He chose to get married. On the one hand, it would reassure Xue. On the other hand, he thought it would be better if he was bound by responsibility.

He chose a woman he had met three times in a row. The woman was a good woman at first sight, and the most important thing was that he could see that she was infatuated with him and had a tough character like grass.

Why choose a woman who is infatuated with him is very simple, because there must be a person who wants to work hard for this family. He knows that his behavior is very selfish.

But he is a selfish man. He can be sorry for anyone except snow white!

In fact, she did play a restraining role, but it also made him more troubled and painful, because it was very painful to be close with a woman he didn't love. He endured and repressed until he drank too much and said that during the new year.

He hurt Wang Shishi and made Xue more worried about him.

This made him want to die. He felt that he was useless and could not do anything well.

He likes children very much and wants to be a good father. He thinks that if he has children, he can find a balance!

So he decided to have a baby, and Wang Shishi promised him.

For Wang Shishi, he has an unspeakable sense of guilt. He can also feel that her infatuation with him has become love. Her unconditional tolerance for him made him want to let her go several times, and he couldn't bear her to embark on the same dark road as him.

But after all, his selfishness is greater than his conscience.

Soon she got pregnant and he was very happy. He really wanted to have a child and be a good father who loved children. Because of expectation and pursuit, his spirit was much better. He felt that he had found a balance.

But God is so unhappy with him. He is always unhappy when his life is a little comfortable. He went to city a to deal with things and unexpectedly encountered debris flow!

Although he lamented his bad luck, he was also glad that he was not snow. He was trapped in a small village. He knew that if no one came, he would die here. He was not afraid and even felt relieved, but he was still a trace of regret. He regretted that he could not see his child and be a good father as he said.

He also regretted that he had created a life so hastily. His childhood growth environment made him swear in his heart that if he could not give his child a sound and stable family, he would never let his child be born. He thought this was something he could absolutely control in his life, but in the end, it was not something he could control!

He hopes that after he leaves, Wang Shishi can start a new life and find a husband and father who will be good to his children.

He never thought that snow would take a risk to save him. What's more, Su Yan came too. What's more, Su Yan was pressed and almost died in order to save him.

At that moment, he felt guilty and wanted to kill Su Yan.

He always thought Su Yan was a scum that didn't deserve snow. He thought he was bad. But he saw that he was pressed below and worried about snow. He realized that Su Yan loved snow no less than him, and Su Yan loved and tolerated snow more than he did.

Su Yan is so monopolistic, but he can make Xue run around desperately for him, and even sacrifice himself to save him at a critical moment.

He knew that at that moment, Su Yan could run away with Xue, but he chose to save him and Bai Xue. For the first time, he felt that he was not as good as this man and that Xue would love him so much.

He paid no less for snow than he did.

Let him remember the mining accident in Hotan. At that time, he was willing to pay his life for snow before he and she had a heart to heart connection. His love for snow was really deeper than he thought, and

For the first time, he felt convinced that he had lost.

On the way back, they encountered a turbulent River and a flood that was about to cover the sky. The snow seemed to be frightened and almost fell. His heart was almost scared to death. He held her tightly and pushed her ashore, but just when he was about to go ashore, the flood rushed over, he was washed down, and she caught him in time.

Hold on to him like that.

He knew how much she didn't want him to die, but he also knew that God really wanted to take him this time, because he really had no strength.

He had already prepared for death, so he didn't panic or fear. Some just didn't give up heartache. He knew that his death would make her very painful, and he didn't give up.

But he will go after all, because if he doesn't let go, he will take her with him.

He admitted that there was a moment, really only a moment, when he had the idea of taking her away, but it was only a flash. How could he be willing to let her go with him? He wanted her to live well and happily!

He didn't want to make her sad, so he told her that death was a relief for him. In fact, death was really a relief for him. When he was about to die, he could finally face up to his heart. The balance he thought he found was actually self deception. He just tried to suppress those dark thoughts. As a saying goes, the more he suppressed, the more he wanted to resist, So he's tired, really tired.

He felt that God wanted him to die and set him free.

He used to complain about fate and give him such a life, but now he should thank it for letting snow appear in his life and light appear in his dark life. Thank it for letting her send him when he came to the end of his life.

She begged him to let him insist and let him survive. He wanted to promise her and stick to it for her again, but he really couldn't hold on. The embrace of death was too warm and attractive. He wanted to go with it.

He released her hand. He heard her cry of pain. He was so distressed, so distressed, really distressed

His life is over. He really hopes that there will be an afterlife, a causal reincarnation, and a god Buddha. He can suffer whatever he wants. He just wants to have a lifetime of love with her and let him fall in love with her!

All the stories about Gong Zeyu have been finished.