"Not going to England!"
It's the voice of a famous saying. It's angry and sullen.
"Go abroad by yourself. You and my daughter will never contact again!"
"What about reading? Where is she? "
Jiang Ting still doesn't give up, want to listen to her voice, listen to her mouth, I won't go abroad with you.
Yan Yuming sneered: "she's beside me, let me call you and say that she doesn't want to go abroad, don't want to leave me, don't want to leave the muddy city where she raised her!"! In reading eyes, family and friends are much more important than you Jiang Ting! You don't need to call her later. That's it. I'll move with my thoughts and go to a new place to start again! Dududu - "
JIANG Ting listened quietly to the busy voice on the other end of the phone.
Cold as a foot centipede, spread to his four limbs, frozen his fingers can not help curling up.
There are voices of pedestrians in the distance. They are not really heard.
Jiang Ting seems to have no response. He stands in the same place. His thin lips seem to be shaking. His cell phone drops to the ground with a click. He doesn't respond either.
"Hello --"
Xu Guangjie picked up his mobile phone and looked at him anxiously, "what's the matter with you?"
“……”
Xu Kuang Jie saw that Jiang Ting's eyes turned very slowly, just like the slow motion playback of the movie lens.
His eyes are clear without waves and waves, but his heart is the pain of opening and closing, but no one can see, only pain and sadness will wrap him, it is a transparent sadness.
"No Are you ok? "
For the first time, Xu kuangjie saw Jiang ting in such despair.
Jiang Ting's voice was as cold as ice: "let's go."
"Say that girl --"
"let's go."
His slender figure is like a gust of wind, and the shadows of the land overlap, but he has taken nothing away.
It's all over like this.
……
Yan Yuming hangs up and holds the hand of Yan Nian, who is lying on the bed.
Who could have thought that Yannian had an accident on his way to the airport!
The driver died on the spot, but Yannian was dead and survived. Although it was ok, Yannian is still in a coma. I don't know when to wake up.
Yan Yuming is a man of faith.
He felt that God didn't want Yannian to go abroad!
If it wasn't for Jiang Ting, his baby daughter would have had a car accident!
Since there's no chance, she and Jiang Ting don't have to pester each other!
It's better to cut it off!
The more Yan Yuming thinks about it, the more he regrets it. How can he agree that Jiang Ting has gone abroad with her! Alas!
Yan Nian woke up the next afternoon.
"Dad..."
Lying for a day and a night, the girl looked at the words and epithets sitting in front of her at the moment with a circle of gauze around her head, which hurt a little. She rubbed her forehead and coughed twice.
"Where am I......"
"Hospital!"
I'm not very angry with you.
"I forbid you to go abroad! You live with your mother and me, and you are not allowed to go anywhere! "
When his wife was in childbirth, they left their father and daughter behind.
He has lost his love, he can't lose his only daughter!
Yan Nian rubbed his temples, crooked his head, looked innocent and puzzled, "why should I go abroad, dad?"
He was stunned by his words.
"You don't remember going abroad?"
"Why do I want to go abroad? I'm good in muddy city!"
"Do you know who I am?" He asked again.
It seems that my father asked a stupid question and said, "you are my father, old man."
Ma Xueyan also frowned, "read, who am I?"
No more words
"Mom and Dad, can you stop fighting? Why am I in the hospital?"
Ma Xueyan subconsciously replied, "you should be the same yesterday --"
"shut up!"
Yan Yuming glared at her.
This is the first time that he scolds Ma Xueyan so loudly in front of her.
"Since the child doesn't remember, never let her remember!"
Saying, holding Yannian's hand, clapping and clapping, yanyuming said: "my dear child, you are in a coma with a high fever, and your brain is burning. Last night, you were talking nonsense. I thought you were going abroad. Alas, just wake up, just wake up..."
Yan Yuming called the doctor and examined Yan Nian.
The doctor talked to Yan Yuming alone, saying that she may have lost part of her memory due to the huge impact of the car accident.That part of the memory is unforgettable, but also the source of her car accident.
As for when it will come to mind, the doctor is not sure.
Yan Yuming doesn't want to remind him of Jiang Ting!
Like this, it's a good thing to forget Jiang ting and all the interactions with him in middle school!
So, the next day after leaving hospital, within a few days, Yan Yuming immediately moved with Yan Nian.
Mud city is very big. They will not leave it, but they will not live in the same place or go back to school.
Before he left, Yannian looked back at the house where he had lived for more than ten years and did not move.
The house is not big. Yan Yuming said that the new house is twice the size of the house, but the small room has small advantages, warm and comfortable. Her bed, including all the furnishings, has been with her for a long time.
"Dad, are we really moving?"
"Of course, everything is in the car. Get in the car!"
"But Why am I so sad? "
It's boring.
It was a small place. It was raining and mildewed. There was no grass.
It's hard to relieve the depression and sadness when Yan Nian rubs his heart.
Yan Yuming disagreed: "after living for so many years, it's natural to have feelings. It's also right to be sad. After moving to a new home, you'll get used to it!"
Yannian still stands still.
Her heart is empty.
It felt like someone had taken her heart away.
But I don't know who that person is.
All of a sudden she wanted to see the man.
I don't know who it is. There is only a vague figure in my mind. I can't see it clearly.
Seeing Yannian's hesitation, yanyuming said, "don't be surprised. Get in the car quickly. The moving company is waiting!"
"Dad, I seem to be waiting for someone, isn't it?"
"What?"
Yan Yuming's eyes flashed suddenly and didn't want to show any flaws.
"Who are you waiting for? I don't know! "
“…… I think I should stay here and wait for someone. If I leave, what can I do if that person can't find me when he comes back? "
Yan Yuming would like Jiang ting to find Yan Nian!
It was because of him that his girl had an accident!
Want to see you?
Next life!
"Chanting, it's all your psychological function. You didn't wait for anyone. We should go."
Yan Yuming asks Ma Xueyan to get out of the car and pulls Yan Niang onto the car. On the other hand, he directly carries the trunk of Yan Niang and puts it in the trunk.
Ma Xueyan patted Yan Nian's shoulder. "Listen to your father, let's go. If there's fate, you and that person may meet again."
"Mom, do you know who I'm waiting for? Tell me quickly. I feel so sick. I want to cry! "
"No one, no one. I'll say whatever. You can listen to your father."
Afraid of saying something wrong, Ma Xueyan quickly shut up.
She knew for a long time that Yannian would have an accident.
On the day of Yannian's departure, she deliberately packed things for Yannian very slowly. On purpose, she told Yannian to leave home with yanyuming the night before. Don't fight with Jiang Ting at his home. The purpose is to delay the time.
It is inevitable for her to take advantage of others.
But it's good that Yannian is lucky. Yanyuming doesn't know that she took Pei Jinling's money out.
It's all good.
As long as Yan Yuming is alive, she will pretend to be the thoughtful, kind and gentle wife he wants.
Yannian finally gets on the bus.
Two hands on the window glass, reluctantly looking back.
She's gone.
Her heart is still empty.
The suffocation feeling of that share of stuffy, since that day moved, has been with her for a long time.
……
Britain.
It's dark and it's raining outside.
Jiang Ting leaned against the window and stood still, gazing at the window that was hit by the rain, one after another, crisp and harsh.
Half an hour ago, Jiang Ting had finished all the homework assigned by the teacher.
No matter which school he is in, he is the former Jiang ting. He is intelligent and wise. He never has any difficulty in learning.
Xu Guangjie has just finished his homework. He is always half slower than Jiang ting.
Close the pen cover and walk away. Standing behind, he looks at the person leaning on the windowsill. He is lonely and silent. Xu Guangjie knows that Jiang Ting is lovesick and has committed it.
"Alas! It's been a month. Yannian hasn't contacted you all the time. It's time to start a new life in the new school. Forget about her. My friend will find you a better one! "
Jiang Ting's eyes are shining.
"I can't forget."He hasn't said a word in a month. Now he breaks the ring. His voice is hoarse as if he had been grinded by sandstone.
Xu Kuang Jie is convinced of him. Why do you complain about yourself for a girl who doesn't have a long hair?
"What can you do? Go back to muddy city to find her? "
"Not for now."
"Oh?"
"I've thought about it. Now she's too small and I'm young. I'll go back to the muddy city when I can support her with a sky."
“…… As for you?! "
Xu kuangjie doesn't understand Jiang Ting's thinking.
Why so stubborn?
According to his conditions, Mingming has so many more beautiful and excellent girls around him that he can choose.
*Three months have passed.
In these three months, Yan Nian's life has no waves or waves, and he can't be calm any more.
Since she was transferred to the new school, many handsome boys around her are sunny, lively and cheerful. She is born with a good face and gains many love letters from her pursuers, but her words and thoughts are rejected.
She didn't know what she was waiting for.
In the middle of the night, a slender figure appeared in her dream, which often appeared in her mind.
She couldn't see the man's face clearly
But, that person brings her the feeling, familiar, very familiar, is like the sun's existence, has been accompanying her side, the warmth has shone on her barren life.
Then wake up, the heart is a continuous empty.
No matter how she fills it, she can't fill it.
During that time, she even thought that she had some disease, and secretly went to the hospital to have an examination without telling her parents. The doctor said that she had nothing, and asked her not to think about it, to study hard and make progress day by day.
Yan Niang's heart is choking.
No one feels this mood!
Mingming, there are many people around her. The teachers of the new school are very good. She has also made new friends and partners.
But why, she always felt that she was waiting for someone.
Who is she waiting for?
Who will tell her?
Who is the person who turns around in her dream?
Until the summer vacation, Ding Baoyi promised to eat.
Junior two is over.
Ding Baoyi asked Yan Nian how he was at the new school.
"It's very good. If you don't want to transfer, it's better to be in the same class with me."
"Well, my mother seems to have the plan to transfer me to another school. Maybe it's because I'm too poor in the attached middle school. I don't think I'm the material to study in the attached middle school."
"Hahaha, my aunt should want to send you here. She smells like me."
"Go, who smells like you! You have a big face! "
Ding Baoyi smiled a few times.
In the end, I stopped laughing and got back to being serious.
"By the way, isn't Trillin picking on you again?"
Words read don't understand, brow wring up.
"Cui Linlin? Who is that? "
"Wow, you forgot her half a year ago. The green tea Watch said Jiang Ting had a fiancee on the day you plan to go abroad!"
“……”
The brain of Yannian is accompanied by Ding Baoyi's words, "bang!" For a moment.
At that moment, she caught the focus of Ding Baoyi's words.
Jiang ting.
Jiang Ting
Jiang ting.
Reading the name over and over again, a touch of unknown sadness was scratched on the top of my heart, but miraculously, the emptiness in my heart suddenly filled up.
Jiang ting.
Yannian's eyebrows are stretched out.
Yes.
Jiang Ting!
"I remember. It seems that he is going to take me abroad, but I have a high fever and I am confused."
"Ah? You have a fever? when? No wonder you can't go abroad. What's the matter? "
Ding Baoyi's question is like a chain of Pearl cannons.
Yannian shrugs his shoulders.
"It's nothing. Anyway, I have missed the opportunity to study abroad. I don't regret it."
She remembered something.
But I don't remember much.
She remembered that Jiang Ting said he would take her to study abroad, which would help her with her English and math.
But forget, Jiang Ting said to take care of her, going abroad will be good for her.
She remembers Jiang Ting as a tutor for her.
But forget, in the rainy night, he took her to the hospital in the rain.
She remembers Jiang Ting scolding her for being brainless and incompetent. Whoever marries her is unlucky.
But forget, he said that "I like to have no brain and no ability.".
She remembered that she stayed at Jiang Ting's house all night in rainy days.
But forget, he cooked and washed for her, imitated her handwriting to write her homework, while complaining but willing.She remembered that Jiang Ting played chess very well. She lost him two games in a row.
But forgot that day competition, he stands behind her, firmly dotes on to say "turns back".
Look back.
Because, he has been standing behind her, quietly and indulgently watching her everything.
She forgot him and said, "I miss you all day."
She forgot him and said, "follow me later."
Along with that sentence -
"I'll wait for you to grow up."
Forget in the depth of time.
She remembers Jiang ting.
I remember that Jiang Ting is a chess expert, a good leader in learning, and an excellent senior.
All she remembers is irrelevant.
All those things that he is good to her, doting on her and gentle, unique care and tolerance for her, and planned for her
I can't remember what I said.
Ding Baoyi reached out and waved in front of Yannian.
Somehow, at this moment, the clear eyes of Yannian make Ding Baoyi have an illusion:
now Yannian has no feelings for Jiang Ting, who is a stranger to Yannian.
"Don't you like Jiang Ting?" Ding Baoyi doesn't understand.
Yannian shook his head with a light voice like boiled water: "I don't think I like him. He's just my tutor. My impression on him is blurred. His face is not clear."
The impression is blurred??
Can't remember your face??
Ding Baoyi is speechless.
She didn't know what was going on.
But
If Jiang Ting heard this, how sad he would be.
The phone rang.
It's Ding Baoyi's cell phone.
It's a strange number.
Ding Baoyi: Hello, who is that
"I'm Jiang ting."
"Ah???"
"Is the cell phone number changed? I can't contact her."
"Ah Yes, right. Her mobile phone was confiscated by her father. I don't think that number will be used again in the future. "
"She -"
JIANG Ting said a word and was stunned.
"Where are you now? How are you doing? "
"Oh She's next to me. "
"Is it Jiang Ting's phone?" he said
The familiar soft voice, along with the electric wave, drilled into Jiang Ting's ear.
It's like an illusion.
He clearly heard his manic heartbeat. In the past six months, his heart, which had no waves, surged like a rising tide at this moment.
It's a high tide for her alone.
"Let me say a few words to him," Yannian said
Ding Baoyi just handed the mobile phone to Yannian.
On the other side of the ocean, there is wind, water, and a slight shortness of breath on the other side of the phone, but there is no voice.
Jiang Ting feels that he has lost
Yes, he has played chess for so many years, but she is the only one who has lost everything.
Mingming, she stood him up half a year ago, and he was very angry.
Mingming, she didn't contact him for half a year, he was very angry.
Mingming, he wanted to scold her so much to relieve her anger!
But the words to the mouth, and reluctant.
Every cell in the brain, heart and whole body is shouting: "I miss you so much."
And then ask --
"do you miss me?" Even a little.
But before Jiang Ting could speak, he said one word at a time, and his voice didn't fluctuate. "Are you doing well abroad?"
Jiang Ting made a "um" sound from the bottom of his throat. He copied his pocket with one hand and lowered his eyebrows and tail. "How are you doing at the new school?"
"I'm very good, the students here are very kind, the head teacher is also very fair, not as snobbish as Zhang Tianzhu."
"Well."
“……”
There was a silence.
Yannian scratched his neck. I don't know what to say.
After all, I haven't seen her for half a year, and she doesn't have much interaction with Jiang ting. Now it's just a chat.
"By the way, what do you call Ding Baoyi to do and what can I do for you?"
Jiang Ting's thin lips suddenly straightened.
She asked him what he wanted from her?
What can he do far away?
This heartless girl is so indifferent to him. At that time, if she didn't go to England, she would not go there. She let him get on the plane alone. Now, don't you know to say a good word to comfort him?
Didn't hear the voice. Yannian thought Jiang Ting had hung up.
"Hello, Jiang Ting?"
"In.""Oh If you don't have anything to do, I'll hang up. I don't need to contact you in the future. Thank you for tutoring me. Although my study hasn't progressed much, we have new lives and haven't intersected. We are all OK, right! "
“……”
That end didn't say a word.
Yannian said twice, "Jiang Ting? Jiang Ting
Next second, Jiang ting on the other side of the ocean has taken the lead in hanging up the phone, very determined.
Farewell to the feeling of beloved, heart piercing, heartbreaking.
He has lived for eighteen years, but he has not suffered so much.
But at this moment, he realized that the sentence "I miss you" which was burning on the tip of his heart and turning over and over did not come out.
"I don't need to contact you in the future. I'm all right."
Good day to each other
Warm tears fell down the corner of his eyes, and suddenly I didn't know whether to cry or to laugh when she said "each is OK".
Whether it's abnormal rhythm or full of holes, it's because of her from the beginning to the end.
From the day she inadvertently broke into his life, he was doomed to miss a heartless girl in his life.
She can be safe, but what about him?
Jiang Ting, who has no words, is really safe?
……
Xu Guangjie comes back from playing in the afternoon and comes to Jiang Ting's house to find him.
What I saw was the picture of Jiang Ting sitting on the ground with one leg bent.
Sadness over his brow, drowned his shoulder, and finally completely drowned him.
"Hello, Lao Jiang, are you ok?"
Xu Guangjie has never seen Jiang Ting like this.
He bent down his ever haughty spine and lowered his ever haughty head.
Mourn as if the world had been lost.
It's like being abandoned by the whole world.
Xu Kuang Jie threw the basketball and walked over to see Jiang Ting's eyes were a little red.
Look at it carefully again. The man who can't live a life, even with his head down, is quietly shedding tears.
Xu kuangjie laughed: "Yo Yo, you cry too. It's a wonder in the world. I want to take photos and send them to INS. Ha ha!"
The latter did not respond at all.
As the soul leaves the body, only a lonely body remains.
Xu Guangjie finally stopped laughing.
He looked at Jiang Ting seriously.
"Laojiang, let's not --"
"I want to be alone."
“……”
……
From that day on, a gap appeared in Jiang Ting's heart.
That's a hole no one else can see.
It's not only his morbid persistence, but also his humble love.
There are the remaining, always give up the attachment.
That gap, after a long time, or even a full decade, has not healed.
……
A year later.
Jiang Lei, Jiang Ting's eldest brother, died.
Jiang Guoteng settled the funeral of his eldest son and finally gave his youngest son a place.
Pei Jinling had a big fight with him over the matter of giving her little son a place. However, in the end, for Jiang Ting's future inheritance right, she was temporarily forced to accept the child.
Jiangguoteng found a special master to calculate, Jiangting and Jianglei are not good names.
The old fortune teller had some friendship with Jiang Guoteng. He said that the children of the Jiang family could not hold their lives because the river was a river on the ground, but thunder was a thing in the sky. It was against the gods.
Jiang Guoteng wants to change Jiang Ting's name.
At first I thought he didn't like it.
In vain, Jiang Ting agreed without hesitation.
Since then, Jiang Ting is no longer Jiang ting.
Jiang Ting changed his name.
It's called jiangbeiyuan.
There is an abyss in the north, in which there is a thought.
Generation word with Qi, little son, called jiangbeize.
……
Another month passed.
In autumn, jiangbeiyuan and Xu Guangjie went to Oxford University to report together.
They will start a new life in the new school.
Jiangbeiyuan wore a black coat, black trousers and a pair of brown Martin boots today.
Obviously, he was dressed in a dark way. However, he was still handsome and brave. There was a certain cold feeling between his eyes and eyebrows. Although he was mean and bleak, he was also full of vitality.
Today, Xu kuangjie is wearing a white coat. It's two extremes in the same river as Beiyuan.
Since graduating from high school, Xu has never seen jiangbeiyuan wear white series.
"The old man agreed to you come to Oxford, so you agreed to change your name, didn't you?"
“……”
Jiangbeiyuan did not answer Xu Guangjie's question.With the passage of time, his temperament has been polished colder and more stuffy. Everything is held in his heart. No matter whether it is bitterness or happiness, it is hidden from anyone.
Xu Kuang Jie couldn't help sighing.
"If you can't forget it, don't forget to wait until you graduate from university and return to muddy city. Would you like to go to her, please?"
Jiangbeiyuan, a former high school student, would laugh at least.
Even if it's a little bit, those peach blossom eyes are at least affectionate.
But not now.
Since the death of his eldest brother, he has become a facial paralysis.
Xu Kuang Jie was upset, but listened to the voice of the latter next second thin and cold to lift up: "these years, don't mention her."
"Ah? Why? "
"I don't want to mention it for the time being."
"Oh, so you don't chase that girl, do you?"
"Chase."
Every word is deep, and every thread comes out.
Jiangbeiyuan squints slightly.
Dark eyes, flashing with some deep light.
"After graduation, take your time."
"If someone falls in love or gets married..."
"If she dares to get married, I'll get married."
Because in his dictionary of jiangbeiyuan, only "do it and seize it".
He will reappear in front of Yannian as jiangbeiyuan.
……
(end of last article)