Chapter 58 - PRINCE ETHAN, PRINCESS MIA CONFLICT

After the party was over, Princess Mia is wandering in the palace alone. She doesn't feel like to return to her room that shared with her husband just yet. As her heart was a little restless that night. And she refuses to show that side of her to Ethan.

She already held her feelings for so long. Why she crumbles now, just after looking at the new beautiful couple? At once, telling her that she was wrong. She is getting jealous of them. Of their relationship that clearly different from her... sad platonic love.

"Seems like you feel bothered looking at Eun Woo and Jieun."

Mia, stop her feet and stare at the man that is leaning against the wall. Even she already realized the presence of the man, she didn't say anything to acknowledge that and just walking again. Pass the man.

"They had to go through an arrange married, never in love with each other, but still looking all happy while your relationship, there's feeling, but always so distance."

Prince Mia swallows her saliva in angry right then after feeling her throat getting dry. Before she turned back to face the man. Who is now smirking mockingly at her.

"Shut up Ray. What are you intention saying all those words to me? You have no right to do so." Mia fiercely speaks to her ex-fiancée.

"As someone that had to forget his one sided love, just to give someone he love a better life, I really don't have a right. But, I do want to see you and Ethan to be happy." Ray watches Mia's face before continuing. "But both of you are wasting my effort and also your time. This is not what I expected from your marriage."

"I don't need your advice. I'm already happy with what I get now. You are not supposed to judge." Mia then wanted to walk again leaving the man, but Ray, raised his voice slightly.

"You can deny as long as you want, but you are hurting inside Mia! Nothing can change if both of you didn't talk and just let things as the way it is. How long do you think you can last? You know well that one of you should make a move. Doesn't make me do something crazy such as take you away from him. In force. "

Mia looked back behind her, intending to scold the man, but the first prince had already disappeared from her sight. Her hands began to grip tightly. She felt even more upset than before. The man did pour oil into the raging fire. But, what make her become so mad is because what the man said is the truth.

Her relationship with Ethan, is not as beautiful as expected. And she's actually starting to fall.

After the encounter with Ray, Princess Mia returns to her place that is shared with Ethan, her husband. Her heart was still restless after hearing Ray's words just now.

Just entering the door, she saw Ethan sitting on a chair doing something on his desk. He don't even look at her unless he wants to say something or when she wants to say something. That's their daily routine every day. Since they got married three years ago.

Also, that man only will get to sleep after she is sleeping. They never did anything intimate such as kissing or having a sex like normally married people do. As far as they ever do, is holding hands and hugging. Which is, occasionally. And before, she thought that's already enough to keep on living together.

She always thought that one day they probably can build their relationship more, but it's all her mindless dreaming. That man is like a wall. Keep pushing her away every time she thought their relationship is blooming. Then, everything gets into square one. Again and again.

She actually knows it. She knew what she wanted. But even she is close with the love of her life, she feels like she can't have him. She tries though. To get involved in his life more, but he, each day seems like not wanting her to be involved in his life. So what is the point of this marriage?

He said he cared for her more than anything. More than just a friend, just after they done with the registration of their marriage and becoming a real couple. But he also said that's the only things that he can give to her. The word that he 'care'.

She thought at the time that's been enough rather than got married to someone that she didn't love. As long as they can live together. As long as she could watch him from the back.

She didn't realize back then that she will be the one, that get hurt so much. Because of that decision.

After quite a long, Princess Mia stood there watching her husband, Ethan finally looks at her with his eyebrow raise up a bit. He definitely has no idea what she is thinking and feeling as if for now.

Looking at Ethan, watching her, she is close to tears. She asks many times herself just now, what she had done to her life? Then she quickly rushed over to the cupboard next to their bed, and took out one bottle of alcoholic drink from there. She keeps it there to drink occasionally, but today, she feels like she wanted to get drunk.

Without even pouring the water into the cup, she just drinks it straight from the bottle, as if it was just a water. Swallowed quickly into her body.

Looking at that, Ethan rushed over to Mia and try to grab the bottle from her grip. Her movement is stopped, but she still manages to keep the bottle. Didn't want Ethan to snatch it.

"What do you think you're doing?! You could get drunk." Ethan cannot believe what he just saw. Mia never behaves like this before. So he is more clueless than ever.

"What do you think I try to do? I want to get drunk." Mia said it in a cold voice. Then she is drinking again, but this time Ethan won't let her have her way.

"Geez! Just ignore me like you always do. Why do you care?!" Mia is now sobbing.

"You know I care!" Ethan is frustrated now. He even didn't know why Mia is behaving like this, also suddenly crying like. That kind of scene is really suffocating him.

Mia now punched the man's chest repeatedly with all her might.

"Stop saying that. Stop saying that word!"

Ethan didn't do anything to stop her and just let himself get beaten.

After Mia had it enough, she pushes the man to the wall and use both of her hands to trap him. Doesn't want him to run away this time. As every time she try to talk of something serious, about their relationship, he will let it pass. He will try to avoid it. But not this time. Mia will not let it happen again. She is determined.

Mia raised her face which was now full of tears. Looking at Ethan who was looking at her at the time.

"What happens to us Ethan? What happen to our relationship? This isn't right." Mia started.

"What do you mean?"

"Stop pretending!" Mia started punching the wall behind Ethan, with one hand still trapping the man. She is quite strong as she was raised as a warrior by her parents anyway.

"We have already promised to each other Mia. Since the beginning of our marriage. You know I can't give you more than we have now. Why the sudden bringing?"

"How long?" Mia is crying now.

"How much longer should I wait for you? No matter how much that I try, I still love you so much Ethan. No matter how much I want to fulfill our promise, I still am dreaming to have a normal relationship with you. Why other people can but not us? Why you torture me so much?! "

"This is me. You know me long enough. I am not like other people. I choose what I want to become, and you agree to it. Don't it enough to you when I said that I care?"

"I want your love, I want you. All of you. If possible start to have a family with you. Did I ask too much?"

Ethan grabs Mia's hand and easily get himself out from his wife's trap.

"It's a violation of our agreement." Ethan said it slowly with a face that seemed didn't even want to understand Mia's feelings at that time.

That's it! That surely presses the 'realistic button' inside Mia's heart. If that man is going to play that platonic love game for the rest of his life, he can play it alone. Mia wanted to take care of her own heart now. She wants to see whose going to win in the end.

"Do you want to get a divorce?" Mia asks Ethan seriously.

Apparently Ethan didn't expect the question.

"What the rubbish that you are saying?!" And of course he will get mad by that.

"I'm just giving you a way out. You seem like doesn't like me to be involve myself with you."

"You know very well that is not what I mean."

"No. I didn't know. You also never explain anything to me. So why did you bind me to this marriage? When you are not loving me as the way I love you." Mia wants to let out everything now.

"Before, when I was engaged to Ray, you make my heart sway you said you do have some feeling about me after I confess to you. But after marriage, we grow apart. Too distance. And you never told me why? So, will you telling me now?"

"I don't want you to get hurt."

"By what?"

"I can't tell you that. Isn't it enough for me to care about you, be nice to you. Why are you suddenly being complicated?"

"Not enough! And you know it too. I'm already hurting so much and this is enough, Ethan. Think, however long that you want about this relationship because I can't hold on anymore. I will just pretend that I never know you ever existed in my life. "

With that, Mia dash out from the room. Living Ethan with his miserable state there.

"You are very important to me, but I will leave you here alone one day Mia. And I don't want to further hurt you." Ethan utter it in silent voice.. But he actually has doubt, if his decision was best for them.