Chapter 84 - FIRST LOSS

"What's wrong?"

Jieun asked in her low nice after seeing the young married couple that is broken up in tears in front of her now. Her hearts are screaming in curiosity and even coupled with fear. It seems like something is not right then.

"Our baby..." Jenny said  crying. She can't hold back the feelings of her heart now that it makes her unable to speak. Listening to that made she feel its better she went to see for herself than waiting for them to explain to her as she knows it's hard for them now to put it on words.

"First, Mia can you give me the medicine that I already kept in the box." Jieun make a request for help.

Without much question Mia continued to rush to take what was asked.

"Here Jieun."

"Thanks." Jieun said to her and then face the two people again.

"This pill is antibiotic for both of you to take so that the rash will not spread and this medicine to be sprayed on the injured skin." Jieun explain while stretched out the things to them and both of them will take it.

"Now, bring me to your baby." After finishing with the young parents, Jieun finally said something about it.

With that they all started walking towards the young couple's house. Their house is not too far from where they were.

"Did you already disinfect the house?" Jieun asking the couple.

"We did. We took some of the disinfection liquid from your tent before without asking. I'm sorry." Akira said while apologizing.

Jieun make a little smile there. She knows now they are not against the treatment but something hold them before.

"Its okay." 

It's too quiet for a house that has a baby, Jieun said in her mind making her chest throb in nervous as she walked towards the baby cot that was in the middle of the room.

"Huh..." Jieun make little gasp after looking at the baby. For the first time ever, she feels like her knees are going to drop there. No wonder no voice came out. The baby's condition is too terrible now.

"Don't come." Jieun said to Ethan, Eun-Woo and Mia who started approaching.

"Can you wait in the living room? Please." Jieun asking but more to pleading. Her voice sounds shaking there. She didn't want anyone to see what she just saw because the parent are also seem like doesn't want a lot of people to see it.

Listening to the request. The three of them are now out of the yard, even though their hearts are actually feeling curious.

With her eyes now blur with tears quickly she looked at the two couples who were now back crying in front of her. She becomes speechless and feels like she wants to scold and even curse at them on why they let this happen, but she can't. She knows that they have already done things they think they do well, but clearly it's not working. She can see the desperation from both of their faces now.

"What? How? No..." Jieun voice is stuck. She took a deep sigh before asking again.

"How is this happen? How long?" Eventually the question came out of her mouth. She was also trying hard to control her tone at the time.

"It's almost two weeks now. We already went to see the shaman, but the disease is getting worst. He asks us to prepared money for the ritual and we already paid him." Akira replied.

"Yesterday was supposed to be the day where the ritual will take place, but he suddenly postponed it. We even went to his residence to beg as our baby is getting worst, but his assistant said he will come tomorrow. But, our baby breathing is become irregular now. Its not like we don't believe in you. But, we already pay him... And now, we regret it so much. We are really bad as a parent."  Jenny added while sobbing.

"Can you help us? I'm sorry, but please help us." Akira is now begging.

"It's fine if he can't make it, but... Please try something." Jenny asks her for that even though she knows the chances for her son to recover are slim now. She got a mother instinct anyway. And she cannot blame anyone but herself for their baby suffering. Their neglect is the one that resulting in this.

Jieun is eying on the baby again. A boy. The body of the baby is already blue on the skin that covered in a rash, the baby keeps vomiting in the corner of his mouth, red eyes are watery, also having a trouble breathing. 

With a heavy sigh. Jieun gets closer to the poor baby, scanning his internal organs. Her eyes are getting so big now as inside his body the throat, heart, lungs and kidneys are all swollen.

At this point, Jieun know she is unable to do anything. Even with her power. Before this, she felt confident of being able to take care of everyone who was there, but in this case she knew she could not. Only then she remembered who she really was. She is just merely a medical student. Not yet a doctor. She has a long way to go. But this... Anyone could tell that the baby already close in his last breathing.

Didn't want to continue to give up. Jieun performing treatment with her power now. She can use her power to heal, but it will take her energy so much. That's why she relies on medication to treat, but in severe cases she still uses her power a little. Now she will try it to the baby even if she was feeling tired already.

But, as she focused on that, she could feel the baby's breathing is getting slow. The chance is now slim to zero and she finally stops there. Didn't want to hurt the baby any further.

At the time, she just did what she can do. As she could not heal the baby, she used her power to close all the wounds that could be seen with the naked eye on the baby's skin, removing the redness that was there. As if the baby was healthy from the outside, but not inside. And after she finishes, she can see the baby finally unmoving. He... already stop breathing.

With a grim face that trying so hard not to cry, Jieun come to face to face with the parent.

"I'm sorry I can't do anything. I just can heal his skin outside, but his internal organ already fails. I'm sorry to tell you that your baby is already dead." Jieun said that and then bow a little to the parent that already cry hysterically on each other arm.

Jieun now get out of the room with a weak condition. Passed the living room of the house where the others were waiting for her. Straight out to open the front door without looking at them in the slightest, makes Eun-Woo, Ethan and Mia look at each other. Confuse. Before they also out following Jieun.

Just out of the house, Jieun kept running into a nearby bush and started vomiting repeatedly.  The nausea she'd fought against for the past few hours is now attack her hard. 

"Oh my! Jieun?" Mia is shocked to see that, while Eun-Woo, who seems to be avoiding her today quickly kneels next to her while massaging her back, helping.

Ethan quickly took out a mineral water and handed it to Eun-Woo to give to the weak-looking Jieun. Jieun took that and gargle to clean her nauseous mouth and sip the water a little hoping that she will get better.

"I'm sorry." She said as its already late. They suppose to rest at home now.

But, without asking why shes been like this Eun-Woo gives his back to Jieun. Wanted to piggyback her.

"Lets go now. I'll carry you." He said.

In normal circumstances, Jieun may feel embarrassed and will reject the gesture, but today she knows she needs that help. Without saying anything she uses her leftover strength to climb on Eun-Woo back now. Holding him tight.

Eun-Woo is now waking up as if Jieun is not directly behind him. It's just as easy as pie to lift the girl. Then, he gives a sign to Mia and Ethan. It's time for them to walk home now.

Along the way, Ethan and Mia walk on the front wheel, Eun-Woo, who carries Jieun walks slowly backwards a bit. Just to give the girl some space and privacy.

Eun-Woo can hear the girl sobbing behind him and his clothes also start to feel wet with the girl's crying. And he doesn't bother about that at all.

The three of them actually can hear the conversation that has been exchanged between Jieun and the young parent, but what happen there probably too much, too shocking to Jieun to accept by now.

While Jieun, she feels like she cannot think properly now. Her tears keep falling even though she didn't want to. If Eun-Woo didn't hold her, she probably can't steady herself at all as she can feel that all of her body feel numb.

"The baby is dead." Jieun mumbled only Eun-Woo could hear that.

"I know." Eun-Woo replied also in a low tone.

"My first patient died... under my watch..." Jieun added while sobbing again.

Eun-Woo was silent for a moment.

"You are not a God." He said that so that Jieun could realize something.

Hearing that, she cries harder. She knows life or death is not in people's hands. It's not a choice. But... If only she knows it sooner.. If she attend to the baby first. Can the fate, change?