Chapter 90

Saturday, April 2, sunny

My mother took me to Yanma street to buy candy. There are a lot of candy there.

I asked my mother why it was called Yanma street.

Mom said that in the past, big cigarettes and marijuana were sold on the street.

Then why is it still called Yanma street, not candy street?

Mother picked out several kinds of candy for me. I said I just want to eat Bo Luo flavor. Mom bought me a Bo Lo flavored one.

In fact, I like to eat, but I know my mother has no money.

There is a madman on Yanma street. He looks so pathetic. I secretly gave him a sugar.

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Monday, May 16, overcast

Today, I helped my mother kill chickens.

I grabbed the chicken's feet with one hand and its wings with the other. Mother put a handful of hair on Jiu the chicken's neck, then cut it where there was no hair, and then used a bowl to catch the blood from the chicken's neck.

The chicken must be in pain and struggling fiercely. I couldn't catch it. As soon as I let go, the chicken ran away. When he ran, his neck was still bleeding. After a while, he stopped walking and fell to the ground. The ground was covered with blood.

Although it's very poor, I haven't eaten chicken for a long time. I'm also very poor.

But my mother won't let me eat.

Mom said the chicken was for Dad.

She cooked the chicken, took a bottle of wine and put it on her father's grave.

Mom said today was Dad's day.

But dad is dead. Dead people won't eat chicken.

Mom said dad would eat. Mother is so superstitious!

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Tuesday, May 17, overcast

I sneaked to the cemetery last night.

I don't believe dad will climb out of the grave to eat chicken. If I don't go, the chicken will be eaten by wild dogs, not Dad.

The chicken is delicious.

While eating chicken, I suddenly missed my father.

I don't remember what he looks like.

When I was young, he loved me most. He often took me to mangdian and took me on a Trojan horse. Later, he seldom came back, even in the middle of the night.

Then he died.

Everyone said he was a bad man and a poison Xie.

I think what they said is true.

Once my father came back with blood on his body, and my mother kept crying. Dad took out a bag of white powder. Mom gave Dad an injection. After the injection, Dad pressed his mother on the bed very hard. My mother cried out in pain.

They thought I was asleep, but I saw it. I really want to drive dad away.

The graveyard was very dark at night, only a little light from the stars came in.

I was full and left half a chicken at the grave.

Dad, although you are a bad man, I miss you.

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Tuesday, May 31, light rain

Mom is smoking again.

When she doesn't smoke, she will be very uncomfortable. Seeing her uncomfortable appearance, I am also very uncomfortable.

Mother said she could see her father when she smoked.

But she didn't allow me to smell her smoke. She said the smoke was poisonous.

I told her to stop smoking.

She said she wouldn't smoke when I grew up.

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Friday, June 3, sunny

Daowazi said I stole his rubber. I said I didn't steal it. He hit me and I hit him. He complained to Mr. Luo.

Miss Luo asked me why I stole the rubber. I said I didn't steal it. Miss Luo dumped my schoolbag on the ground. The colored pencil bought by grandpa enkun for me broke. I was very sad.

Teacher Luo asked me to owe Dao Wazi. I don't owe you. I didn't steal anything. Why should I owe it?

He said I owe you when I hit someone. But Dao Wazi hit me first. Why doesn't he owe?

Teacher Luo called me a poisonous Xie son and asked me to face Libi horn. Libi corner is in the corner of the classroom. You must stand against the wall and don't move.

When I was standing in the corner, the knife boy hit me behind my back. The students threw me with chalk and drew a turtle on my back.

I didn't cry.

When I got home, my mother saw dark blue on my hand and asked me what was the matter? I said I fell at the dam mouth.

My mother asked me if it hurt, and I said no.

I wanted to cry, but I didn't cry.

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June 19, Sunday, sunny

There are many terrible strangers at home. They are all painted with strange pictures.

Mother told me to hide in the back room and not to go out.

I heard them talking outside, but I couldn't understand a word.

Then they left. I heard my mother crying outside.

I went out and asked my mother what happened? Mom doesn't talk.

I saw some money on the table.

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Thursday, July 7, rain

Mom really stopped smoking. I think it's because I've grown up. I can pick tea now. When I grow up, I can help my mother pick dry Zhe.

But mom seems to be ill. She went to mandian for an injection. I saw a lot of black spots left by injection on her arm.

I don't want to go to school. Anyway, no one in the school likes me. They all say I am the offspring of bad people and a poison Xie son.

I don't want to be a poison Xie child. I want to help my mother cook, wash clothes and do farm work.

They all say it's tiring to work, but I don't feel tired at all. As long as I'm with my mother, I'm not afraid of anything.

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Tuesday, August 2, cloudy

Mother is getting thinner and thinner. She has become very strange recently. She often says that she is leaving and is going to find her father.

They said that mother had a disease called AI Zi.

Many people who get injections in mangdian have this disease.

I think my mother is ill. My father is dead. Where can I find it?

I went to find grandpa enkun. I said to Grandpa, "Grandpa, I want to find a new father, so my mother won't always miss my father."

Enkun said with a cigarette, "OK."

Grandpa is getting older and older. I told him not to smoke. He always said, "good." but he kept smoking.

Grandpa gave me a fish and asked me to give a ton of soup to my mother.

I happily went home to make fish soup for my mother.

I said to my mother, "you'll get better after eating fish soup. When you get better, Grandpa enkun promised to find me a new father, so you won't be sad."

Mother ate fish soup happily. I think I'll have a new father soon.

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Saturday, August 27, overcast

Mother kept coughing sou and vomited a lot of blood.

I went to find grandpa enkun. Grandpa asked someone to send his mother to mangdian. We took a bus to ruihekou in mangdian.

I took the bus for the first time. The car is fast, like flying. But mom felt bad. When I saw her so miserable, I was not in the mood to look at the scenery outside the window.

We went to the ruihekou hospital. The doctor gave his mother an injection. There is a long thin pipe on the tail of the needle, connected to a bag of water. The water trickled into my mother's body, and my mother's dry face became Zi moist.

I washed my mother's face and she woke up.

My mother took my hand and said, "beauty, I want to go home."

I asked her, "why?"

She said, "it's uncomfortable here. It's comfortable at home."

We stayed in the hospital for two days. The doctor said, "you can go home." we went home.

My mother was lying in bed. I helped her wash her hands. She asked me to get the picture of my father.

I took the picture of my father off the wall and gave it to her, and then I went to cook.

When the meal was cooked, I went to call my mother. My mother was dead and held the picture of my father tightly in my arms.