Chapter 95 - Emotions

"What is this?" she couldn't help but asked as Chris led her past the arches and into the circular table.

"Dinner."

"I'm not talking about that." She sat on the chair. "What's with all this extravagant stuff?"

"I thought you will like that?"

Sera waited for him to sit across her. "I do like it."

Chris opened a bottle of wine and poured off their glasses before he said. "I would like to apologize for what happened. I was… muddled."

"You are."

"Will you accept my apology?"

Sera extended her hand to accept the wine glass from Chris. "Doesn't matter anymore. I made a decision to act on my own." Did Chris just flinch? She couldn't help but wonder why she saw fear in his eyes.

"Will you accept my apology?" he asked.

"I will. I was too impulsive back then. I acted like a child too." To be honest, she was honestly confused about her emotions. First, she was well aware that she liked Cross, and sleeping with someone else felt like a burden to her. However, she also liked sleeping with Chris and she couldn't deny the fact that she was attracted to him. Then she started to wonder if she is trying to use Chris to replace Cross.

Her poor heart just couldn't take it.

She isn't very strong in the EQ department.

The appearance of that woman only made it worse. She didn't have enough sleep because she honestly missed this damn man and suddenly someone would appear out of nowhere and declare that she is nothing but a toy. That Chris would throw her away soon.

Sera might not be that normal, but she got angry and irritated, too.

Coupled with her lack of sleep, confusion, and irritation, she made an impulsive decision to just… run away.

Simple.

Runaway.

"Let's stop talking about this." She awkwardly smiled before taking a sip. "I don't think spending a lot of money just for an apology is worth it though."

"You are worth it."

"Next time… you can buy me the latest motherboard or the sleekest laptop out there. No need to prepare something like this."

"Really?"

Sera snorted. "Really."

"Lan Xing said all women would love it."

"Yeah… that's the reason he is still single," Sera answered bluntly. "And stop listening to a single guy's advice. There is a reason he isn't married yet."

"Oh…" Chris smiled and ordered the chef to serve their food. All throughout dinner, Sera just answered everything that Chris asked. And just like that, dinner was one. Dinner was uneventful, to say the least.

"Are you still going to work?" Chris asked.

"Yes." Sera didn't even look at him as she walked towards the stairs. She was really planning to check the result of her hard work. By now, Zhang Ying's video should be out. She needed to see the drama.

"You're still mad at me?"

"Hm?" Sera stopped walking and looked at his hands that held her wrist. "What are you talking about?"

"You don't feel angry anymore?"

"No, I don't."

"Then… do you feel anything?"

She met her eyes. What was he on about? Was he drunk? She couldn't help but look at the empty bottle of red wine from earlier. Sera wasn't that good with alcohol either, but… she didn't really feel anything after drinking the wine. "No." She answered truthfully. What was she supposed to feel?

She wasn't someone that would sit down and dwell on her feelings for too long. She had been someone who experienced a lot of pain in the past. She was smart enough not to dwell on those useless things anymore. "Really?" Chris took a step towards her, his face unreadable.

Slowly, she removed his hand from her wrist. "Really." Right now, she was only excited to see the drama on the net. She couldn't understand why this man keeps on asking her something obvious. "I need to go to the office." She waved her hand and continued walking towards her office.

However, the moment she walked inside the office, she felt someone suddenly hugged her from behind. She flinched and stood as straight as a statue. Goosebumps skittered all over her skin.

"C— Chris?" The familiarity swept her. She could feel his breathing against the back of her neck, his arms tight around her. "Chris?"

Without saying anything, he turned her towards him, his hands on her shoulders.

"What are you doing?" she asked. "Is there something wrong?"

"You're different," Chris said.

"I am different." What was she supposed to do? Rely on someone she couldn't fully trust?

As if reading her thoughts, his gaze trembled. His eyes trailed down towards her lips before he took another step closer.

"I'm sorry. I cannot tell you anything… now."

Sera's lips thinned. What is going on here? "You promised you won't do it again. That's enough." Plus knowing whatever it was that he was hiding might complicate things. Her life is complicated enough. She managed a fake smile. "I think— "

Before she could finish her words, his lips sealed hers. She widened her eyes. She had the urged to push him away but her hands… wasn't listening to any reasons right now. The emotions that she had when he was away eliminated whatever resistance that she had.

And there she was again.

Kissing him back.

How pathetic.

She closed her eyes, as a single tear made its way into her cheek.

She didn't even know why she was crying.

But he must have felt it.

As he stopped kissing her. His lips left hers without any warning. It left her as fast as it arrived.

The feeling of the sudden loss made her shudder. She opened her eyes and stared at his eyes. Then the emotions started pouring.

She didn't understand it at that time.

Sera didn't know why she felt hurt and betrayed and she couldn't understand what was happening. Despite the confusion, the tears didn't stop. He pulled her into his arms. His warmth reminded her of the sunshine.

And she didn't know why… at that time… all she could think of was not Chris.

But Cross.

Was her suspicion right all along?