Chapter 366 - The Light And Darkness Of An Angel's Heart

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Within Aruliel's consciousness, there were two voices speaking to her, the light, and… the darkness.

There was the light, which sounded like her voice, but more mature, and  more adult, more correct as well, it felt as if this light part of her was the correct one, the one that never cried, that always kept her emotions inside of her heart, the perfect Aruliel.

And then, there was another, malefic voice, a voice that came from the darkness of her own heart, the infected part that was her dark emotions had been devoured and assimilated by the fragments of the Forbidden One, which had also become part of her own body and soul.

Therefore, even if this dark side of her had foreign elements, such foreign elements were already part of her body anyways. The fragments had been fused with her long ago, if they wanted to get out of her body, she would die, and the fragments would even end up very weakened, and because they lacked much will of their own, they had completely fused with her to the point they might die if she dies.

The forbidden one's ego knew this, and that's why it tried to control Aruliel instead of just forcing the fragments out of her body in a grotesque and blood scene… at the end, his actions only made the fragments awaken sentience for Aruliel to overpower them and even be able to draw dark power from them.

But now, both the dark side and the light side of Aruliel had been divided into two halves of the same heart… had this ever happened before?

Aruliel, a being originally composed of light, a being born from the very origin of light in the entire universe itself… now had darkness, a deep darkness she would need to fight against.

But was this light side a good thing as well?

She didn't knew.

But it told her to fight and to be brave, it cheered for her with a strong and domineering voice that seemed to be sure that she would triumph at the end, no matter what, as long as she tried.

"Fight… Aruliel, you must fight."

"You're my light? Why are you telling me to fight?" she asked.

"Because that's what an angel must do. We must fight darkness, evil, and chaos. We are made for the purpose."

"So that's it… You're not all that good at the end." Said Aruliel.

"Not… all that good? I am good. I am light."

Aruliel ignored her light self, as she looked at the dark self.

"Fear! Tremble! Cry! Why are you fighting? Everything is pointless in this Universe…"

"So you're my darkness? Are you not the parts of the forbidden one?" asked Aruliel.

"Yes… And no… I am your darkness, whichever darkness I once was, I am the same, darkness is darkness wherever you see it, if it all converges together, it becomes the same darkness… and everyone has darkness within them. Nobody can escape it."

Both light and darkness spoke simplistically, but there was some strange logic behind them and also, a certain philosophical meaning to them.

One part wanted her to fight all things that were considered evil.

And another part wanted her to tremble in fear, hide herself from others, and continue being depressed, because at the end, everything was pointless.

"Life is pointless, everything is pointless! There is no point to continue living, there is no point to continue fighting… Everything comes to an end… and we all end in the same please, the void of death!"

"…"

"Why do you fight? Why do you try to become brave? There is no meaning to anything, everything is always the same darkness… anything you try is pointless, amidst the trillions after trillions of living beings in this world, even as an angel, are you any special to them? Can you be anything worth living? Can you become someone that others will remember? Can those that even remember you live enough to tell others to remember you if they never saw you? What is the point of existing at this point? Failures after failures, a pathetic being you are! Nothing that you do will make any change to anything, at the end, we live for nothing and die for nothing."

"…"

"That's not true. We live to continue pursuing the darkness and destroy it. We have a duty to fulfill. There is a reason to live, Aruliel, and that reason is fulfill the duty we are given by others when we are born. There is meaning to life, and that meaning is to fulfill a duty, a desire for doing the right thing!"

"…"

Both light and darkness said the opposite of one another and continued discussing endless.

Aruliel was getting more and more tired of their blabber, they really sounded like a pair of old women constantly speaking nonsense, one was overly depressed, and the other was brainwashed.

"I prefer to not pick any side! You two are completely insane, I don't care what you think! I am better off going for a gray route and do whatever I want, which will make me happy at the end!" said Aruliel angrily.

The Light and Dark side looked at Aruliel with their eyes wide open.

"You dare go against light?!"

"You think there is any hope?! Don't make me laugh!"

"Yes, I think there is hope, and yeah, I am going against the light!" said Aruliel.

Light and darkness were suddenly suppressed by Aruliel's enormous pressure, as they began to slowly reduce in size, bit by bit, until they ended becoming but a part of their actual size, one was a bright orb of white light, and the other was a black orb of darkness with a crimson eye on it.

"W-What?!" asked Aruliel in shock, seeing this happening was rather weird.

"Then we shall be at your side, until you pick a side." Said Light.

"Until then, I shall continue to remind you that everything is pointless." Said Dark.

"Ahh… I guess this is some sort of new power I got? This is weird… I wonder if there is any Angel that had gone through the same thing… I hope I am not the only one…" sighed Aruliel.

Despite her hopes, she was actually the first ever Angel to go through such changes.

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