Chapter 404 - Chaos' Concerns

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(Chaos POV)

When I finished looking at these memories, I felt a strong sense of emptiness in my heart. Why did I felt this way? I had never felt this way for such things before. It… really felt as if this was part of my own… memories? But why? For all I know, my father, Ainz had created me from the corpses of a Vampire and a Dragon which he had stolen from graves. How could I inherit memories from the corpses that made me up? Could my brain have contained such memories? But my brain has been destroyed a couple of times already. This really doesn't make any sense for me, how intriguing…

The memories of these children being abused by their parent, looking at them makes me feel as if I had lived them. Could I have inherited their memories? Or was there something that my father did that I did not know about? Perhaps if I can continue looking at these memories, I might find the truth eventually… But for now, I should sleep some more, looking at the ceiling is quite boring.

Abyss was… sleeping leisurely and with serenity. Looking at her calms and soothes my heart, I suppose I can sleep some more. As long as I am with her, I believe I can relax…

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When I woke up a few hours later, I felt quite tired mentally. I didn't slept well? Perhaps those dreams are mentally taxing to me… I should try to not have them if that's the case, especially in such a dire situation as we are now. Although I have managed to catch the last fragments of the Forbidden One in this planet, there is the whole problem with Valen yet to be resolved. We have to properly plan things out and see a way out of this situation… Employing the abilities of my allies is the best way to do it.

For now, however, I should wake up Abyss- Hm? She's not here. I looked around my room inside the manor of my divine realm, but she was nowhere to be seen. Where is Abyss? Hm, ah, perhaps I should be less dependent in her, I cannot just panic because I don't see her around. We have been together for a long time now, so it is hard to go back to my usual, more emotionless self when my emotions have developed so much, but I have been told by Belphegor that I must be less dependent on her, as I might give her a burden I wouldn't want her to carry.

I suppose I have to think less about her, although I often think about her more than I should… Well, she makes me feel new things I had never thought or imagined before. Thinking back when I was in Earth, enclosed in a laboratory, the only thing I was always thinking about was how lonely I felt. Being accompanied by people that care for me has changed me more than I should had… and being with Abyss also changed me quite a lot. But I don't think it is a bad change. She's sometimes quite clingy, but I never felt it as something wrong, perhaps because I lacked any concept of privacy back then due to my lack of common sense. Though, even now, I perhaps still lack a lot of common sense. I have to develop that some more.

I moved out of bed and stretched a bit. I closed my eyes as well while stretching, gathering my mind inside of my soul, where I was able to see the cosmic landscape within it, in there, there was the small Universal Seed growing bit by bit. It has now become a small sprout. I always wonder what will it become in the future, perhaps something big, like a tree? An universal tree… If it is a seed, could it have originated from a tree? But according from what I remember, the one that gifted it to me was the Universal Core… Maybe it is a tree? Well, there is no point in overthinking it.

I need more powerful energy to make it bloom though, although I cannot ask the world for more, the world's voice is already weakened and in some time, she'll begin to deteriorate, this is why we must put a stop to these factories draining her energy, that'll be one of the first targets we'll destroy to cause chaos, I suppose. After I finished stretching, I moved to the bathroom, only to find Abyss there drying her body with a towel.

"Oh, so you were here." I said.

"Uwaah! C-Chaos-sama, please don't enter without knocking!" She said.

"I didn't knew you were here…" I said.

"D-Don't look…" She said embarrassedly.

Ah, right, privacy. I should get out of here.

"Sorry about that." I said, as I walked outside.

I hope she doesn't hate me for that… I hate how I sometimes forget about these things, it is hard to make me remember it well, but I am more surprised that someone as open as Abyss has a problem showing me her body, even though when she transforms into a giant goo she is nude, right? So why does she gets so embarrassed? Hm… I suppose I shouldn't delve into such thoughts for the moment.

When Abyss was done bathing, she walked out of the bathroom with some towels wrapped around her, she looked quite cute.

"Sorry…" I said.

"Oh, no, don't worry, I think I overreacted a bit…" She said. "I-I just want to save it for when we do it…"

"Huh? What do you mean?" I wondered.

"Save it… Like… Save my nude body from your eyes until we d-do it…" She said once more.

"Do what?" I wondered while tilting my head, I really had no idea.

"N-Never mind…! Really, just don't mind what I just said, Chaos-sama!" She said.

"Oh, okay." I said, as I walked inside the bathroom and decided to take a warm bath. I began to think what she meant by that for a long while.

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