Chapter 161: Express Myself More?

"Thank you, I don't know if I am worrying for nothing or what, but this is the thing that has been bothering me since Beezli first told me," I said to Messia, and she took my hands in hers.

The feeling of her hands was not the same as Serria, but Messia's warm smile worked almost just as well. This was the first woman that had stood up for me and taken care of me the entire time since I was born, and now we were together again before another massive change in my life.

"I can understand why you are worried, but I also think that you are giving this too much thought, and you are talking Beezli's words too much to heart. I don't think that you will completely change, but I do think that you will feel things a lot more after this. That alone might make things harder for you at times, but that will also let you express yourself more," Messia explained, and I raised my eyebrows to her.

"What do you mean, express myself more? Don't I already express myself?" I asked, a bit confused.

"No, we all know that you keep things bottled inside of you because you want to take all the trouble and support it with your own shoulders. You also hold in your feelings instead of letting them out," Messia explained, and I almost laughed out loud.

"I can't just dump my problems on you all! I am the Queen, and I need to," I started to say, but Messia put her finger on my lip with a cute smile to silence me.

"Yes, you can dump your problems on us; that is what we are here for. Also, I think that it will be good for you to have a bit more femininity in you," Messia said with a warm but intense smile that made me warm up inside.

"What is that supposed to mean?!" I shot back at Messia, and she started to laugh at me, making me roll my eyes.

"I don't really know, but I hope that you might start talking more like a woman, but at the same time, I don't find the bit of manliness and pride you display as un-cute. I just don't think that they are really female characteristics," Messia said, and then she kissed me deeply.

Then the rush of Royal Jelly came, and I became lost and forgot about everything that we had just been talking about. 

I tried to enjoy this as much as possible. For me, it felt like this was another one of the significant changes.

"I think that I will miss this the most. Even though I am excited to be able to eat on my own, this is the special thing that we share," I said shyly to Messia, but she just gave me a smile and squeezed my arm before standing up.

"I will feed you still if you would like, and we don't always have to do the feeding part of it. I will leave you now, and you can get yourself ready, but I think that you will do perfectly fine, and I can't wait to see you after, my love," Messia said before turning around and flying back up top.

Now I was alone again with my Cat Dragons, but it was time to stop putting this off. I stood up and turned around, looking up the steps to the platform that was waiting for me.

I started to walk up to it, taking deep breaths as I did; my pulse was starting to pick up now. Each step increased the speed that my blood pumped through my veins, but there was no holding back now, so I sat down when I finally reached the top.

The moment I sat down, everything went black, and suddenly, I was falling. This was not what I had expected to happen, and now I couldn't even feel my body anymore; there was nothing but darkness, and I was alone.

'We are still here with you,' All three of my Cat Dragons called to me in my mind.

'Wait, how are you here with me?!' I sent back in surprise.

When you sat down, we were all instantly encased in your Royal Honey, and now we are here with you. I do not think this will hurt us,' Atom explained, and I agreed.

If they were encased with me, then that would just mean that they would be evolving with me. That was what I assumed, all things considering.

"Yes, they will evolve with you and gain the Genes that you choose, but they will not all get the same one," A voice spoke, and I was sure that I remembered it from somewhere.

"You, him, right? The one that came and gave me a second chance after I died, right?" I asked, somehow able to speak with no physical body, but I also could not see the Timeduss talking to me.

"I am B311, and no, I am not the same being that you met when entering this world. That would be S3880, the first Gatekeeper. It is his job to judge your worthiness to go one to this world you are in now," B311 said to me.

"Then what is your job?" I asked because I had no idea what was going on.

"I am here to talk to you about the events that are unfolding all over the world. Even now, there are many things that are moving that you are unaware of and that you should be aware of," B311 explained, and I nodded, remembering what Beezli had told me, but I had some of my own questions.

"What are you? I mean the Timeduss? What is the point of all of this?" I asked, and I wasn't sure that I was going to get an answer, so I was surprised when B311 replied right away.

"I can not tell you everything because that is forbidden, but I can explain the reason why we do this. I will tell you the story of the A1 and B2, the first Timeduss to ever reach Pinnacala, the home of Before," B311 explained, and I nodded, even though I had no head to nod.

"Do you think that we could get some bodies? I am curious to know what you look like if that is alright?" I asked but was denied.

"We do not have bodies to speak of. If I show you a body, it will not be my own, so it would be pointless. You will have your body back during this story, and while I explain the world to you and its current and past events. I will also explain God-Tech, the Fallen, and the Risen. All you need to do is listen," B311 told me, and then I was thrown across time and space.