Chapter 419 - I Don't Deserve You Nor Your Love

"Yes, I am angry at you for accepting to be my mother's murderer and hurting me in the process but you are not the one who killed her so why should I waste my time and hit you? I am heading right to their home, I will kill everyone that gets in my way to avenge my mum," Yang Zi said as she tried to forcefully unwrap his hands from her waist.

"I know you are in severe pain but think about little Mi Er before you take any action. Mi Er has no one in this vast universe except you. You are her everything. No matter how anyone claims to love her, they can never shower her with the amount of love you give her so think about what will become of her if you die or end up in jail," Yifeng said seriously, not letting go of her no matter how hard she struggles to free herself.

"You were here when your mum died yet your Uncle and Aunties all fought over the custody of Mi Er just for the sake of the property. Have you thought of what will happen to Mi Er if peradventure in the course of avenging your mum, you died or end up in jail? Have you thought of the kind of pitiful life she will live? She is your beloved daughter, after all, so always try to think about her feelings and welfare first each time you try to embark on something crazy," Yifeng said, feeling slightly relaxed when he saw her stop struggling.

"Apart from Mi Er, there are over a million people who need you. The world needs designer M and Chairman Yang. I also desperately need you. Chen needs you and so does Grandpa. The others need you too so for once try to think about what we want and not what you want ok?" Yifeng said as he slowly made her turn around so that she was facing him.

"Zi Er, I need you. I love you so much to the point that I wouldn't hesitate to kill myself if anything bad happens to you. I can't bear to see you in pain so even though not for Mi Er's sake but my sake just cool down first hmm," Yifeng said as he raised his hand and caressed her face.

"If what you said is the truth then why did you allow me to live in pain for two years and some months? Why did you make me regret loving you? Did you have fun instead of feeling sad about seeing me resent myself? Why did you make me regret falling in love with you? Why, Feng?" Yang Zi asked while staring at her face.

"Because I love you way too much. I wanted you to live without having to worry about taking revenge. I wanted you to live a carefree life. Although it felt like my heart was repeatedly stabbed with a dagger when you constantly denied that you never loved me, I endured the pains because I thought it was worth it," Yifeng continued as he continued caressing her face in which he has yearned to touch all these years.

"And you think that lying and deceiving me would make me happy? From what I said earlier did you think I was happy with your decision?" Yang Zi asked sternly.

"And if like you said, you went through so much heartache and heart-wrenching pain because you love me, then I am sorry to say I don't deserve such deep and selfless love," Yang Zi said as she held his hands roaming her face.

"What are you saying Zi Er? How could you say you don't deserve my love..,"

"If seeing you point a gun at my mum could make me accuse you of killing her despite how much I claimed to love you, that means I never loved and trusted you. And even though I did love you, my love is like a drop in the ocean, unlike your overwhelming love. That is why I do not deserve you or your love. You are too good to end up with a lady like me," Yang Zi said as she turned her back on him.

"Zi Er, I admit it was my fault for hurting you. I am solely blamed for deceiving you so please don't do this to me. I love you very much so please don't push me away," Yifeng said as he hurriedly hugged her.

"Yifeng stop being stubborn and let me go. You deserve a better woman than me...,"

"Zi Er, I promise I will be good. I will never hurt you again. I will always abide by your rules so please don't abandon me once again. I might die if you leave me just one more time," Yifeng said as he turned the unyielding lady around.

"Any lady who hurt the man she claims to love in the manner I did never truly loves that man so heed my words and let me go. I am sure you will find a better woman," Yang Zi said as she walked back into the room. Yifeng had thought that maybe she had changed her mind but he was shocked when he saw her carry her long chain handbag.

Yifeng held onto her firmly and continued to plead with her but Yang Zi, whose mind was already made up, refused to let him have his way. After so many minutes of constantly pleading and coaxing, she finally succeeded in leaving Yifeng heartbroken in the hotel room.

Yifeng, now sitting on the tiled floor with his head bent, slowly raised his head when his cellphone rang. He slowly carried the phone lying on the centre table.

"She has left me again. Jin, she no longer needs me anymore," Yifeng relayed in a painful tone. Jin, currently sitting on a couch subconsciously stood up after hearing Yifeng's miserable words.

From the few words he spoke, he could tell that his friend's world and hope had been crushed once again. He knew Yifeng needed a friend at the moment.