Chapter 39 - Sex At Last.

Lance.

This is what it feels like to finally win after a long battle with the man you love. 

Ford is still unsure; I can see it in his eyes but he is finally accepting me. He is accepting this. I watch him as he positions himself in between my legs, his right thigh presses on my junk. It is the most ecstatic feeling ever. ''This is your yes. You are ready to be with me?" I question with so much excitement. 

He grins and slowly slides his hands over my body and I tremble from just that touch. Slowly his entire body moves down my figure. Disappearing until his chest is hovering over my hips. The smile is still on his face ''Is this answer enough for you?" he doesn't wait for a reply as he takes my cock in his mouth all at once. I moan out from the pure pleasure of this simple act. My hands squeeze the sheets tightly as I try to compose myself. Here I am acting like someone that has never been touched before.  

Looking at him, I can only make the top of his head, his beautiful, beautiful hair as he starts out slow, up and down. I let go of the sheets with one hand and grab unto his hair. He looks up at me but doesn't stop. His eyes shine through the sunlight peeking out of the window. The most beautiful grey eyes I have ever seen. The major highlight of his perfect face. His hands work their magic as they slide across my thigh, then sprawl across my stomach. These are just simple touches, but they are driving me insane. This is intense, he is doing this with his whole heart. I can feel the want, the fucking need as he goes faster, wanting nothing but to please me. 

I am a mess beneath him, a moaning, groaning, whimpering mess. Sweat trickles down his face and falls unto his skin. It glistens, like a beautiful diamond against his flush red skin. His fluids mixing with mine doesn't seem gross. It makes me feel one with him. 

He stops suddenly and I watch him as he moves back up until he is face to face with me ''Are you sure about this?" he asks even though he already knows my answer. I was at the peak and he stooped which is making me a little frustrated right now. 

I want that release that he just robbed me off. 

''Just fuck me already,'' I groan smashing my lips into his. 

This kiss is desperate, full of longing. I force my tongue into his mouth and he welcomes me wholeheartedly. Grinding against him as a tease, an invitation, something to get this man where I want him.

He grabs the condom from a corner of the bed where it was somehow tossed to and I watch him use his teeth to rip it off at one go "XL?" he raises a brow in question. 

My cheeks turn red ''I compared yours to Jacks'' I remember last night again and this makes me laugh. 

He smiles and wraps the rubber around his cock. It seems like something he has done a lot but I don't question it, I don't get jealous. The fact that he is experienced is good. It makes this even better. 

''I need to get you ready," he breathes into my ear. 

I whimper out from how sexy he looks but also manage a nod. I want him to do whatever he wants me today. I have wanted this for so long. I can't wait anymore. Slowly he grabs the packet of lube and pours some on his hands.

''I'll just use my fingers to open you up. Let me know if it hurts."

Before I know what is happening a finger is in me. The lube is cold, which makes his fingers cold. I try to understand the feeling of his finger inside me. I stiffen as he twirls it around "Are you okay?" he asks with worry eyes. 

I lean forward and place a soft kiss on his lips. This is my way of letting him know I am fine. He smiles and deepens the kiss with his hand still inside me, the kiss is a good distraction because all I can focus on is the kiss and not the discomfort in my nether region. 

Slowly, he adds another finger and then more lube. I feel my body adjusting to him. my body embracing every bit of him.

He feels it too. 

''How does it feel?" he whispers to me. 

This is our private time. 

Just between the two of us. 

Out little secret. 

With three fingers inside me, the discomforting feeling slowly evaporates and a certain pleasure kicks in. it is a tingling sensation, the kind that pleads for more. 

''It feels good. Keep going,'' I grab unto him with heavy breaths and he grins widely, almost like this was the reaction he was waiting for. 

He twirls and twists faster with his fingers and I feel a whimper in between my lips. Suddenly he pulls his fingers out of me and I groan because I want more, I don't want him to stop. he is teasing me and enjoying every second of it. 

''More," I breathe heavily. 

He nods and slides until he is on top of me. One of his hands gently caresses my face and I feel the other one around my opening. "There is no going back baby,'' he manages as I feel his tip against my core. 

All sense of reasoning has gone out of the window. There is nothing but desire in my mind. I feel him slowly enter me. There is something amazing about this, something I never want to forget. The look in his eyes as he slides deeper into me. 

"Fuck," I moan out. 

He stops even though this as much torture to him. "You good?" he questions. 

I nod and grab his butt, pushing him into me. There is pain, no doubt about that but the pleasure is insurmountable. A cry escapes my lips and he starts moving again, watching me. his eyes never leave mine. I try to be as cool as him, as composed as he is but this is a lot. I have never felt so many things at the same time. Ford is still moving inside me slowly, almost like he is scared to hurt me. so, I take the initiative and push him deeper. 

"Don't stop," I plead desperately for me. 

He takes my suggestion to heart and goes faster. My heart beats a mile a minute against my chest. I tremble against him but that doesn't stop him. The more I quiver, the faster and deeper he goes. Without warning, he pushes into me so hard that something feels different. Something so amazing, something I have never felt in my whole life. I scream as he hits the spot again. A gleam surfaces in his eyes. 

I cry out from the immense pleasure. He kisses me to quiet down my scream as he continues to hit that spot. At this point, all I see are stars. My vision is blurry, my breath heavy. Ford grabs my cock and starts to play with it. A lot is happening at the same time and I don't think I can last any longer. He keeps moving inside me and I tenses up as I feel the release take over. 

Ford doesn't stop moving, even after I spill all over him. there is a mess, a mess everywhere that I don't even care about. His eyes bore into mine and I feel him as he grunts out loudly. he crashes on top of me and I let out an awaited breath still under him. we are both sweating all over each other but he pulls me closer to him not even caring. 

"Wow," He manages.

"Yeah,'' I nod in agreement. 

Ford stays in my arms and I hold unto him afraid that I will wake up from the beautiful dream I just experienced. I watch him and his eyes never stray from me. the look on his face is scary because of how overwhelming it is.

"Thank you for not giving up on me," 

I manage a smile but I am in La La land right now. 

"I love you."

He pulls out of me after those words and I watch him stand up from the bed with the condom in his grip. He walks out of the room and I wait for him to come back. I close my eyes as I try to remember today. I don't ever want to forget this moment. This day that he gave us a chance. It will forever be etched to my memory. 

The door opens again and he has a bowl and a towel in his grip. He is still naked and I ogle his body because Damn, he is all mine. I can't believe I got so lucky. I won the lottery with him. 

"Hi," he mutters. 

I blush "Hi."

He kneels on the bed and the warm water hits my skin as he starts to clean me up. There is a smile on his face "You are fucking beautiful," he speaks softly. 

"Not as beautiful as you."

After I am cleaned up, he walks back to the bathroom and I hear the door close as he comes back into the room "Do we still have time?" 

I furrow my brows, he explains "Is your mom coming any time soon?"

I shake my head because I know she is at a work thing for the weekend. We can stay in our bubble longer. Without the worries that come with our family. I don't want this day to end. He climbs on the bed and I wrap my arms around him. 

"Let's just stay like this for the whole day."

He nods and everything is right with the world.