Chapter 104 - Ask Me Again.

Patrick. 

His finger goes into me and I lose my mind from all the pleasure I am getting tonight. He made me cum with just his mouth and now he is going to be inside me very soon. I close my eyes again as he sucks on my nipple completely lost in whatever he is doing. I didn't know it could feel that way, apparently my nipple is sensitive because this is a lot. 

More than I ever imagined. I can't even focus on his mouth on my nipple because his finger pushes deeper into me, opening me up even more. My heart thuds against my chest as the butterflies dance in my tummy. We are having sex, ii have been screaming internally because I didn't think this night was going to go this way. He has been stalling all night long so you can imagine my surprise. I know what I am going to do. if he wakes up tomorrow and doesn't have any regrets. I will agree to be his boyfriend. I mean that is all I want. I want to be his and it seems like he wants that too. 

His finger plays around my wall and I arch backwards from the chills as he slides another finger into me. the feeling is completely indescribable. Like how do I even explain how this makes me feel? Words don't compare. I am in too deep and he knows it because he pushes into me at the same time, he bites my nipple a little too hard. I know it will leave a mark, just like the hickey I left on him. I guess this is his payback—not that I am complaining. 

I reach for his dick and he grabs my hand with his other hand ''I won't be able to hold out If you do that,'' he looks up at me as he explains. I want him to cum. That seems to be my utmost priority. 

''Very soon,'' he replies almost like he read my mind. slowly he moves up until my lips are on his again. His fingers are still doing their dance inside me. my dick leaks out precum as I feel closer and closer to the edge. It would be insane if he makes me cum just from his fingers. I don't even think that is possible. His hand movement gets faster, as I feel him go deeper into me. 

My toes curl against the cotton sheets, my hands tremble, my heart races and the faster he goes, the closer I feel to Cumming. I pull away from him slightly with half-closed eyes ''I..f..eel close,'' I confess in a stutter. 

He nods and goes even faster; I arch my back as I cum all over my chest. Falling back to the bed, I close my eyes embarrassed and a little guilty. This is the second time, he hasn't even cum once this night. It feels a little selfish and he wouldn't let me please him. His fingers are still inside me, slowly I feel them slip out and then grab a packet of condom from the bed where he placed it earlier. He rips the packet open and slips it into his dick; seems like this is not the first time he has done this and then slowly I feel his dick as it presses against my entrance. I look at him, wanting to remember this moment for the rest of my life. his eyes are open, they are dark with lust. I watch the crinkle of his eyes as he pushes his tip into me. this is unlike his fingers. He is big against me. there is a discomfort, but not the kind that hurts. The kind that makes my body know to accommodate him. I take deep breaths as I try to make this last longer. Looking at him, he is watching me, his eyes are wide awake, there is pleasure written all over his face. 

''How does it feel, does it hurt? I heard it's supposed to hurt.'' He mutters in between heavy breathing.

I shake my head even though it hurts a little bit. The pleasure I am getting from this is better than the pain, so I don't want him to stop.

''Should I go deeper?'' he pushes into me gently as I nod for approval. 

This gets another moan from me ''Fuck this feels good,'' I cry out in bliss. He manages a smile as he moves against me, going deeper and faster. I close my eyes as I feel my dick harden. Is this even possible? I have cum two times tonight, but I feel like I could again. 

He quickens his pace and I grab unto the skin on his back wanting him to go even faster ''Faster,'' I urge him suddenly enjoying this a little too much. 

He moves faster ''Yeah?''

I nod at once even though I can tell he didn't see it. we keep moving, him pushing into me, me trying to hold unto him. sweat trickles down his face and falls on me, at this point, our fluids are mixing. Everything about this night is perfect. 

He closes his eyes and I feel him pulsate against me. he is close to his release. This is what I wanted. I want us to cum at the same time. 

''I'm gonna cum,'' he cries out shakingly. 

I nod starting to stroke myself. I feel him stiffen against me and not long after, I feel his release warm up my insides. At this point, he grabs unto my dick and quickens the strokes, the same thing happens to me. 

Holy fucking God. 

Jack falls back on me and I grab him. he doesn't even mind all the cum on me as he holds me tighter. He breathes heavily against ''That was…'' he pauses then looks at me ''Wow.'' He adds and yes that sums it up. 

It was wow. 

The best sex I have ever had. 

I mean that literally. No one can compare to him. he is going to forever be the one etched to my mind for the rest of my life. 

''It was great,'' I agree not wanting to sound too eager.

He chuckles against me ''I am sorry about the mess,.''

He is talking about the bed. ''We can just change the sheets before we fall asleep.''

At this point I don't want to get up, I just want to stay in bed in his arms ''We need another shower'' he mutters. 

I smile ''Yeah we should. can we have one together?'' 

''There's no other way.'' 

**************

After our shower and new sheets, we crawl back into bed in fresh underwear's and he wraps his arms around me again. 

I close my eyes, trying to finally get some sleep. The room is quiet, the night is ending but this feels like a new beginning. My relationship with Jack—can I call it a relationship. I know that he is going to be my boyfriend. I really really want that and there is no way I am going to throw this away for anything. I plan to hold unto him for as long as I can. 

''We can't go back from this,'' he speaks up suddenly which makes me open my eyes and look at him.

''I don't want to go back from this,'' I admit. 

He smiles ''Be my boyfriend,'' he asks me again. 

He seems to be so confident about this. I like that he is assertive enough to know he wants me. that makes me feel very good about myself. 

''I want that too, I want it so badly.'' 

He sighs ''Then say yes, let us make this official.'' 

'Official' in secret. 

That is what he is asking for. I will not be a secret. I don't want what Ford and Lance has. I want him out in the open. I want to be proud of him and I want him to be proud of me. 

Is that too much to ask?

''You want us to date in secret, I don't want that.''

He shakes his head ''I am not doing that to you. I want you to be my boyfriend. The only person that wouldn't know about this is my father. Everyone else can for all I care.''

Oh. 

I get his point. It is not like his father is a supportive kind. The man doesn't mean anything to him so why should he know about us. I am the kind of person that is interested in meeting the parents. I don't like parents, so I don't care about that. 

''So, will you?'' he asks again. 

I release a sigh because deep down, even though it all I was going to say yes to him. There is no denying him, I don't ever want to deny him. 

I close my eyes. He grabs my hand in his ''I just need a confirmation. I want to wake up tomorrow and know that you are mine.''

''Ask me tomorrow. If you feel you still want this tomorrow, then ask me again.''

I open my eyes as a smile slowly forms on his face. he doesn't say a word but I know he is content. 

He knows my answer already. 

Slowly we fall asleep and I have the best sleep of my life.