Chapter 105 - Testing The Waters.

Lance. 

A week passes by with us trying to ignore all Lisa's threats. Once mom and John get back from their honeymoon, Ford becomes scarce. I don't know what his plan is but we didn't really talk about anything. He told me he was going to handle it and it is not that I don't trust him to handle it but what could he possibly do? 

This is a two-way street, we either break up or the jig is up. Ford has been MIA for two days and I am starting to worry. It is six o clock in the evening of the second day. Mom has been all over my face these couple of days. She says she has missed me, but I don't know, I guess she is being very suspicious. 

There is a knock on my room door and I know she is the one instantly. She peeps into the room with a bright smile on her face. ever since she got married to John, she hasn't really been going to work. They met in his company, so I think she is milking the fact that she married her boss in. 

'��Can I come in?'' she asks politely. 

A little too polite. 

I roll my eyes and without even telling her to come in, she walks into the room and sits on the bed. ''So, catch me up on the past two weeks,'' she grins like I would tell her anything that happened. 

''Pretty uneventful.'' 

She sighs ''Come on son. Your mama needs the juices of your life. what is going on? Who is the special guy in your life? All the details please.'' 

She is asking questions that I can never tell her the answers too. At this point, I think telling her about my relationship with Ford is the only way out of this. Ford thinks it is a bad idea but I know he is wrong. My mother will never be against me. she loves me dearly. 

''There is no guy.'' 

She rolls her eyes ''There was a guy last time. Remember the one you were keeping from me.'' she reminds me. 

''I don't know what you are talking about.''

All I have to do is deny, deny, deny. That is the only way I can get through with this bonding. I have to trust Ford. He said I should hold on, so I have to hold on. 

''You know you are terrible. When will you be the kind of son that shares their life with their mom?'' 

I doubt there is any teenager that wants to tell their mother everything that is going on in their life. I don't know which movie she thinks she is living right now. There is no way I will be that kind of son. She only needs to know the important things and right now Ford is the only important thing in my life. I can't tell her yet. 

I really want to tell her. 

''There really is nothing going on in my life. I am as boring as I always was.'' That is the biggest lie I have told so far. Everything that is happening seems straight out of a teen fiction novel. Lisa is definitely the villain in this story and I want her to be slain so badly. 

''Okay, are you going to ask how my honeymoon went?'' 

I shake my head immediately. There is no way in hell I will ask her about that. I don't need to details on how she spent two weeks with my boyfriend's father. That is just fucking gross. Even thinking about it makes me want to gag. 

''You are actually no fun. I thought I could get you to agree to spend the evening with me. We could watch a movie in the theatre room. Eat ice cream and popcorn. Like we used to do?'' 

The expression on her face is hopeful. I see the longing in her eyes. Right now, saying no to her request will break her heart. I don't want to break her heart. 

''Fine,'' I give in to her. 

She jumps into my arms and I wrap them around her for a hug. There is no way the woman that wants to spend the evening with me on a movie date wouldn't support me. I know she will be the best person to tell this to. 

Ford needs time, I will give him time, but the minute I think Lisa is about to spill the beans, I am going to tell her because I don't want her finding out from someone else. 

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I get to the theatre room and she is already seated on one of the massive couch like chairs. The room is cold, like freezing cold. 

''It is too cold in here woman,'' I exclaim. She looks up from the popcorn she is devouring. This is what she always does. She finishes her popcorn before the movie starts and she ends up eating all of mine. 

''Put on the heater?'' she tells me, pointing to the white box in a corner. 

I walk over and change the temperature. Walking back to her, she passes me one of the popcorns and then plays the movie. 

''What are we watching?'' I ask her. 

She opens her eyes wide ''you did not just ask that,'' she exclaims dramatically. I know what we are watching. Mean girls. That is our signature movie. We always spend our movie night watching mean girls. 

''Okay mother,'' the intro starts and she cuddles into me. this is a weird relationship we have. That is why I believe she will be able to help me. The movie starts but my mind is so far out of it. I can't focus. I have a lot of worries that thinking about a movie is the least of my problems. 

''Mom,'' she looks at me for a second before putting more popcorn into her mouth. 

''Do you think John is actually okay with me?'' 

She furrows her brows ''what do you mean?'' 

I don't know if this is a good idea but I need to be honest with her, even if it is just a little fraction of the truth. 

''Me being gay, is he okay with it?'' 

She grabs the remote control from the chair next to her. This is a sensitive topic and I guess she wants to listen to me with no distractions. 

''He is, I made sure I told him about it. Do you think he isn't?'' there is worry plastered on her face. I can tell that john accepting me is very important to her. 

''I don't know. I don't think he is.''

She faces me ''Why do you think so? Did he say anything to you?''

The fact that it bothers her so much warms my heart. I take a deep breath because I am going against Ford right now. He said I shouldn't say anything but I need to see her reaction. How is she going to handle what I am about to tell her?

''Mom, promise you won't freak out,'' I need to lay a disclaimer because she is exactly like me. We are both drama queens and I don't know how she is going to take this. 

''He kind of mentioned it to Ford, he doesn't want him hanging out with me.'' 

She furrows her brows ''He said that to Brad,' her eyes shift back and forth. Okay, I can sense that she is upset but it is too late to stop this. 

''Yes.''

She pulls away from me and sits up on the couch ''When did this happen?'' her voice is more firm. 

''A while back. You can't talk to him about it. He will get mad at Ford,'' I try to deter her from being more upset. 

With her head shaking, she stands up from the couch. I don't know what she wants to do but suddenly I regret saying anything to her. If she confronts John, he will take it out on Ford and it will all be my fault. He told me to keep quiet about it all and now I have messed things up.

''I need to know, I can't just keep quiet about this. He said he was okay with you being gay. He didn't have any problems with it.'' 

''I know, he's okay with me being gay but he doesn't want his son to be gay.'' I explain further. She needs to see the bigger picture. There are some people that say they are okay with it, as long as it doesn't involve them. John is one of those people. 

''I need to ask him,'' she cries. 

''You can't. He will get mad.'' 

''John is not an angry person. I just want to talk to him about it. I won't mention Brad. I just need to know if I made a mistake.'' 

I know for a fact that she made a mistake. From the things, I have heard. The situation of everything. John is not a good person. He hasn't been a good father to Ford. 

''Okay,'' I agree dejectedly. 

We will see how this turns out but I hope it doesn't backfire and bite me in the ass.