Chapter 106 - Fixing Things

Lance. 

''You guys are dating?'' 

There is a smile on my face. I knew this was going to happen. I felt it, I just didn't expect it to happen so soon. It has just been a week since he told me and now they are dating. 

Jack is dating a boy. 

Holy shit. This is exciting and if I didn't have other things to worry about I would be very excited about this. 

''Yeah, I just thought to let you know. Trick doesn't want to keep it from you. Somehow you are important to him.''

I guess he is right, Patrick is important to me but at this moment all I can think about is the nickname he has for the guy. 

''You call him Trick?'' I can't help but ask. 

He blushes, I mean Jack actually turns red because we are talking about his boyfriend. This si the cutest thing I have ever seen. I am already so in love with their relationship. 

''How are things with the blackmail?'' he asks me, changing to topics. I appreciate his concern because I am really worried about a lot of things. This is all too much for me. the last thing I did was talk to mom about her husband. She said she was going to confront him, but I haven't heard anything from her. That was yesterday, I mean, it shouldn't take that long to talk to him. 

''What are you going to do, and have you tried calling Ford?'' 

Ford has been AWOL. I hate that he left me for this long without explaining anything. I don't like it when he disappears. I hate it so much. 

''He answers, just doesn't talk for long. I asked him where he went and he said he went to see family. What does that even mean?''

Jack shrugs ''You trust the guy, right?'' 

I trust Ford with my whole being but I also know that he tends to disappear when things get rough. This time, I am saying it is because of his disorder. I found out that night he was battling depression alongside. He told me something that I would've never imagined and the next morning, he disappeared. I should be panicking right now but I trust him so much and I know he is not going to do anything. He has me in his life and I am not letting him go. Not for anyone or anything. 

''He said I should trust him and I completely trust him but I just have a weird feeling about this.'' 

He sighs ''Come on man, don't be a downer. I actually believe that he can handle Lisa. They have been friends long before you came into the picture. You don't have to worry about anything.'' 

There is a video on her phone that shows us having sex and he is saying that I don't have anything to worry about. I don't want to take out my frustrations on him. 

''I gotta go, man, I stand up from the chair. We were having lunch in the cafeteria. I don't even feel like being here right now, not that this is Jack's fault but he doesn't understand what I am going through. No one understands, what I am going through. 

I go out of the building until I get to the field that divides both schools. Ford hasn't been to school for a week, I haven't seen him for a week and I miss him so much. Is this how it is going to feel if his father succeeds in splitting us up?

I sit down under a tree, I used to frequent this field before I met Ford. I always felt this loneliness that he has been able to fill. Now he is nowhere in sight and I feel the void again. Sitting under the shade of the tree, I open the gaming app on my phone and start to play. Video games most times fill that void but today, it doesn't feel like that is going to happen.

A call interrupts my game and I see Ford's picture on the screen. The last time he called was last night. We spoke for about five minutes and then he said he had to go, it wasn't enough, hence why I have been missing him so much. He is calling me on facetime. I get to see his face today. 

Fuck yeah. 

I answer the call immediately and his beautiful face fills up the screen. That void, that loneliness disappears instantly. Just from seeing his face, I don't feel so alone anymore. 

''Hey,'' he breathes through the phone. 

There are dark circles around his eyes, he looks like he hasn't slept in a while. Worry fills me immediately. 

''hi,'' I decide to ignore it for the time being. I just want to talk to him like there are no problems in our life. I just want a normal relationship for once. Is that too hard to ask for?

''I miss you,'' he smiles faintly, running his hands through his hair. 

''I miss you too, when are you coming back?'' I need to ask because I need to know. I cant continue missing him like this. I want him to talk to me, tell me what he is up to. 

''Soon.''

He is being very vague—as per usual. 

''Why can't you tell me where you went, why is it so hard for you to talk to me?'' 

So much for ignoring all our problems. I didn't want to attack him on this call but he is pissing me the fuck off. Ford has a problem with being transparent. He hides too much and I don't know what to do to get him to trust me. he says he does but he doesn't act as if he does. 

''I will explain this all to you when I get home. Just give me a couple of days.'' He dismisses my reaction. 

I shake my head ''You have been gone for a week. You left without even telling me and now you want me to give you a couple of days. I am going to tell my mother everything. Lisa could leak that video at any time.'' 

I am freaking out. 

I know a freak out when I see one. 

He can tell too. I watch him as he runs his fingers through his hair. His eyes close for a second ''Telling your mother would just make this work. I need you to be patient with me. you have to trust me.'' 

I don't tell him that I already told her a bit about John. This will just make him all the more upset with me. 

Shit. 

''Give me something. You can't just leave me without a word.''

He sighs and then a faint smile forms on his face ''Look, I thought about it that night. I couldn't sleep, knowing we could end at any moment. I need to get away from my father. That is the only way this can work out. I am still underage. We both are, so he has all the control.'' 

''And?'' I manage still as confused as earlier. 

''I know one person that has more power than he does. My grand uncle. I went to see him. I told him everything.'' 

I don't know how his uncle is going to help us right now but at least he is telling me where he is. 

''Okay.''

He smiles ''Just trust me. I will handle Lisa. Everything will be okay.'' He assures me, I already know that things are not as easy as he is making it out to be. 

''I really want you back,'' I groan out loud like a cry baby. A notification pops up on my phone and I see a message from my mom. 

Mom: Come home after school. 

Shit. 

This must have something to do with Ford and his father. The confession I made two nights ago. Oh my God. If Ford finds out about this, it will make things worse. 

''I will be home soon. I just need to get Lisa sorted. Can you wait two more days?'' he bats his lashes playfully. 

I like playful Ford. He is everything and more. 

''What do you plan to do when you get back?'' now I am flirting. This is progress for us. I will take it for now. 

Eventually, Ford would learn to open up to me. he will learn to be transparent. Know that he can trust me. that is all I want from him. 

''I plan to kiss the fuck out of you.'' He smiles. 

My heart melts. 

I miss his kisses. 

Shit, I miss everything about him. this man found his way into my heart and there is no exit. He is stuck there even though he tried. I will always love him. I will always want him. 

''You are special,'' he reminds me. 

He said the same thing that night. I am special. I am the reason he is still alive today—literally. 

''You are special too,''

I end the call with a goofy smile on my face and a call from mom pops up immediately. 

''What did you do?'' I answer the call. 

''I fixed things. Get home when you can, we will be waiting for you.''

We?

God, no.