Chapter 115 - The First Step Is Coming Out Of The Closet.

Ford.

The drive to the main house is short but being in that car with Elliot makes it feel longer than it really is. I won't deny the fact that I have missed him but right now, I have bigger things to worry about and they don't include the new girl he is dating.

''So, I lie about how rich I am, and she totally believes me. it is so hard to find anyone sincere these days. All the girls in this city care about is money and I just wanted to find someone different. now I don't know how to tell her the truth.''

I raise a brow at his story. That is his biggest worry. The fact that he is dating someone that thinks he is poor.

Wow.

Talk about problems.

''So do you plan to keep the truth from her forever?'' I ask because I want to know what is going on in his head. this is not a big deal. He should just man up and tell the girl the truth and if she really cares about him, she will forgive him.

''No, dad wants to meet her. Everyone is curious about the girl that piqued my interest, but I can't say anything yet. It is frustrating,'' he drives into the gated estates. When I say, Uncle Max is more powerful that dad, this is what I mean. The more money you have, the more power you gain. Uncle Max is the richest one in the family. He got most of his wealth from the family but the things he did is what made him richer. He has a chain of business from oil, to real estate. He is the definition of a business mogul.

Somehow there is this jealousy that my father has for his brother. My real uncle. Unlike granduncle Max, I am not as close to uncle Anderson. He is just someone I see on family occasions.

''You should just tell her the truth. That shit will set you free,'' that is the honest truth. I am the kind of person that liked to keep things to myself. Before Lance, no one knew anything about me. I wouldn't even talk out loud about the things that I was going through but now, with him, it is easier. Yeah, I am not at that stage where I am completely open with him because there are still some things that I have been unable to say out loud, but they are there.

''That is easier said than done. It's been months, I doubt telling her the truth will make things better. She won't forgive me.''

Well, I can't argue with him because I don't know the girl but I don't think this is something unforgivable. If he is just honest, everything will be okay.

''Okay, you can keep lying to her.'' I retort sarcastically. He is eventually going to do what he wants, no matter what I say. He parks the car in their massive parking lot, and I see my grand uncle's car in the driveway. Which means he is home. 

He is the person I came to see. I want to talk to him about everything. tell him how I have been feeling these past couple of years. Lance is making me do something I never thought I would. Okay, let me not say he is making me because I am doing this on my own volition. The only way I can be with him is if I do this.

We both get down from the car and he helps me with my bag in the trunk. ''So, can I ask you a question?''

He looks up at me and nods ''So you're a lawyer, right?''

He laughs ''Last time I checked.''

I roll my eyes at him as he waits for me to say what I am about to say. I know this might not be a good idea. I don't even trust Elliot. He is bound to mention this to someone else in the family. I just need another person's opinion. I will use a hypothetical situation.

''I have this friend,'' he nods, and I continue ''so he kinda had sex in school with someone else and his ex-girlfriend is kinda blackmailing him with videos of it.''

''Oh wow. What does she want?''

I run my hands through my hair. This is even difficult to say. Most times when someone asks for advice and uses the 'I have a friend story' it is always obvious that the person is the friend. does he suspect that I am the friend?

''She wants him back. I guess.''

He furrows his brows ''That's stupid. How old is this your friend?'' he puts the friend in air quotes. Shit, now I know he knows that I am the friend.

''It is not me?'' I deny at once.

He bursts out in laughter ''Dude, I don't give a shit. So, is it you?'' he asks curiously.

I sigh out loud because this might be a mistake. One word to the wrong person and it could end up getting back to my father but what other choice do I have?

''Yes,'' I decide to go the honest route.

''You are a minor.''

''Yeah, so?''

''She can't spread that video. You will know that she is the one. She will be taking part in child pornography.''

It sounds weird ''So, what can I do to stop her?''

He sighs ''Do you want me to handle it. talk to this bitch.'' He calls Lisa a bitch without even knowing she is the one. the moment he finds out that she is the same girl. He might not feel the same way.

Everyone loves Lisa in my family. Even Cousin Elliot. They all think I will be lucky to end up with someone like her. She is beautiful, smart and in their eyes—the kindest person they have all ever met. If only they knew how terrible she is. It took a lot for me to even see her true self. She was always someone I could rely on and the biggest mistake I ever made was sleeping with her. That night ruined everything. if I had just controlled how much alcohol I had, it wouldn't have happened.

''The bitch is Lisa,'' I tell him honestly.

He opens his eyes wide from the shock of my words ''No way, Lisa Libel?''

I nod.

He lets go of my box and runs his hands through his hair ''I didn't even know you guys ever dated.''

I shake my head ''We never dated.''

''So, your story is not accurate. How is she an ex when you never even dated and who is this new girl that made you do something so stupid like have sex in public.''

He is wrong about one thing. Lance is not a girl. Am I really doing this? coming out to him. I really want to do this. practice with Elliot before I get to the big guns. If Elliot handles it well, it will give me the courage to do this with the most important man in my life.

He is watching me right now and I can't read his expression. I don't really know how he will handle it but I have to do this. I have to do this to be with Lance and that is all I fucking want.

''It wasn't a girl,'' I let those words out with a heavy breath.

Shit, that was very hard but somehow, I feel lighter in my chest. Almost like a weight that I have been carrying for so long is finally off.

I look at him intently, making sure to see how he will react to my confession. At first, there are crinkles in his forehead from confusion but the moment it registers, a slow smile forms on his face.

''Dude… really?''

I scratch the back of my neck nervously with a slight nod ''Yeah. It was a guy.''

He opens his eyes wide, still smiling ''So you're gay?'' he breathes out those words and this will be the first time I will ever say this out loud to anyone.

''I am gay,''

The moment I let those words out, I look at everywhere but him. my heart is racing against my chest. My hands are shaking. I feel sweaty and dehydrated at the same time. This is the scariest thing I have ever done and it is not even to the person that I need to do it with. how will it feel when my father finds out. Is he going to beat me up, lock me far away like the last time?

Fuck.

I feel his hand on my shoulder and I force my eyes back to him again. I don't know how I feel at this moment but I am fucking terrified.

''Wow, that is freaking awesome,'' he says finally.

I raise a brow and he chuckles ''Awesome that you told me, but really not that big a deal,'' he shrugs like it is nothing. I am sure he can sense my mood, so this is his way of making me feel comfortable in this space.

I am grateful.

''I will need to talk to Lisa. Threaten to sue her and shit.. You cool with that?'' he ends and for the first time, I smile back at him at the way he changed the topic, knowing this is hard for me.