Chapter 124 - Home Again

Ford.

I drive to Lisa's house. I knew she was having a party today. she asked me to come but I ignored her like I have been doing all week. She thinks she can just do whatever she wants. She has been calling me and texting me all week. I didn't have anything to say to her, that is why I ignored her but seeing all the pictures and videos of her party and her involving Lance is pissing me the fuck off. 

The moment I get to her house, I see people around her compound. These are how these things go. High school parties, the kind of situation that makes you feel like you belong with a group of people when in reality, you don't. That is how I felt all my life. Coming to parties, going to school but still all alone and then Lance came along, and he brought this very bright light with him. the kind that made me see things clearly. He made me smile, he made me happy. I started to feel things again. Things I thought I would never feel, and Lisa thinks she is going to take that from me. there is no way I am going to let her. 

I get down from my car and people start to greet me. people that are not friends. I ignore them all and go straight into the house. I need to find them because I know that things won't go well as long as it involves Lisa. There must be a reason why she would bring him here and It doesn't and have anything to do with bringing me to the party. She has been inviting me out all week and I have been ignoring her, so I guess she is now pissed and this is her payback. I get downstairs and I see Jack and Patrick. This confuses me because I don't know why they are here together. 

''Ford,'' Jack walks up to me with a frown ''Where the fuck have you been?'' he asks me immediately.

''I had some stuff to do,,'' I tell him without giving him any details. The only person I want to talk to is Lance. I want to find out what happened while I was away and I want to tell him everything I have been up to. I want to touch him and kiss him. I want to be in bed with him for a whole night. 

I have a lot of things to do with him. 

I look around in search of Lance ''He is upstairs… shit, I have been gone for a while,'' he probably just realised. 

''Why is he upstairs alone?'' 

''We were playing a game,'' he informs me, even though I kinds know Lisa is fond of playing games with people's hearts. right now, she is roping Lance into things he doesn't want to do. 

I leave them and go up the stairs of the house. I am familiar with Lisa's house. growing up, I used to come here a lot. This was once my safe haven from home. Lisa was once a safe haven to me. 

Now she is someone I hate. 

I stop in front of the door and I hear the sounds, I can recognise Lance's voice anywhere. He is yelling at the top of his lungs—he sounds pissed. It is to be expected. when it involves Lisa. 

The moment I open the door, my eyes meet his and there is this expression of relief that overthrows the anger on his face. He doesn't smile, he is still shaking in anger—at whatever just happened but there is this internal conversation that we have, just between us. He is happy to see me but he also doesn't want to show it. 

'Brad is here,'' Jason speaks up, I detect a hint of disarray. 

Everyone is seated on the floor, there is a smile on Lisa's face. she seems to be the only one that is enjoying whatever is going on here. Everyone looks like they want to be out of this room and away from the situation. 

''What the fuck do you think you are doing Lisa?'' I walk up to Lance and grab him by his arm ''Come on, let's get out of here,'' I tell him, and he starts to follow me out of the room. 

''You haven't answered the question, Lance, we are all waiting,'' she stops us. 

I look at her totally confused. What question did she ask him and why does everyone look so wary?

''I don't have anything to say,'' he manages. 

''It is a yes or no question,'' she stands up and walks over to us. all eyes are on us now and I don't even know what the fuck she is talking about. 

''What are you on about now?'' I ask her because I want to get to the bottom of this. 

She smiles and then crosses her arms over her chest. ''So the question was, never have I ever fucked my brother,'' the moment I hear those words. I know what she is playing at. This is her way of threatening him. make him see that she is serious. 

She wants to fucking out me. 

I am at the point where I don't fucking care anymore. I am ready to come out for him. these people in this room are my friends. Or at least, the closest things I have to friends. I will be fine without them in my life but I wouldn't without Lance. 

''What do you want him to do… drink?'' I ask.

She opens her eyes wide from my response. She didn't expect me to say that. even lance has a look of confusion on his face. he is giving me the eye. Telling me not to do anything stupid but I am ready to be stupid. If it will make me happy. 

''If he has…sure,'' she gets herself back on track. I look around the room. Even though this might not be the smartest thing to do. I have already made up my mind. 

''Why don't I help him. if that will make you all feel better.'' I walk over to the cups on the floor and reach for one. I grab the bottle of vodka and pour it into the glass ''You all want to know if Lance has fucked me…right?'' I ask them. 

No one seems to be as hell-bent as Lisa but I want to get this over with. I have always been terrified of coming out. I didn't want the judgement, the hate that would come with being different. the fact of the matter is, no matter what you do, there will always be judgement, people will always hate you. You don't have to be gay before it happens. 

I don't care about that anymore.

I don't care about my crew hating me, or thinking I am disgusting. I don't care about my father thinking being in love with Lance is wrong. I love him and I am not hiding it anymore. I am ready to be seen for who I am and that is a gay man and proud. 

''Here is your answer,'' I take the glass and gulp the drink all at once. This is what they wanted right. The truth. 

There they have it.

''Lisa has a video of it, if you all want to see it,'' I tell them. 

Their eyes are wide from the shock of what is happening. ''Oh, just know that anyone that shares that video will be arrested for child pornography, as under the law I am still a minor.'' I pull unto Lance's arm tighter and lead him out of the room. My hands are trembling. I can't believe I just did that. 

''Holy shit,'' Lance exclaims, almost tripping. For the first time tonight, I notice that he is drunk. I stop walking so fast and grab him even tighter.

''You okay,'' I ask him. 

He parts his lips but doesn't say anything, slowly his hands wrap around my waist and he pulls me even closer to him. I watch him, unsure of what he wants to do but I want to kiss him so badly. Everything that happened in there hasn't really sunk in completely. I am sure the reality of it will kick in tomorrow but I just want to enjoy him for the rest of the night. I don't want to think of the consequences of my actions for tonight. 

''You just came out,'' he slurs his words, still holding on to me. 

I nod with a smile ''I guess I did,'' I tell him. 

He giggles resting his forehead on mine. I close my eyes, taking in his scent. I have missed this so much. Just being close to him and holding him. how did I get so fucking lucky?

''I missed you,'' he blurts out and this makes me open my eyes. His eyes are still closed. I lean forward because I want to kiss him. I want to feel his lips on mine. 

The moment our lips touch, all my worries dissipate. 

I am home again.