Chapter 125 - I Missed This

Lance. 

Kissing him, after so long is like a blessing and a curse. The hunger within me boils so hard that I want to rip off his clothes and fuck him in the middle of Lisa's halls. I sniff him in as I try to register his smell into my brain. It has been so long that it feels like I have completely forgotten his face. After pulling apart, I touch his face gently, taking every bit and piece of him in. 

He smiles in my arms like he has no care in the world. 

''You are really here,'' I manage excitedly. I cant show him excited I am. This man in front of me is everything to me. the fact that he came at the exact time that I needed him is everything. my heart thuds in my chest as I try to calm my nerves down.

''Can we get out of here?'' he asks me, slowly looking away from me as the music from downstairs gets louder. It hasn't fully registered that he just freaking came out fo the closet. That is a big deal. Ford was so far in the closet that I am sure he could see Narnia. I never even imagined that he would do that. especially to people close to him. it makes me excited and scared at the same time.. excited that now we don't have to hide. Eventually, this would get to his father and we will have to come clean. I will explain to my mom, she will understand and all will be right with the world.

Okay, I know that is far fetched. It can never be as easy as I just made it out to be but now we can stop all the fucking pretence. It is not even good for the heart. secrets are the fastest killer. 

''Yeah.''

As we head down the stairs, jack and Patrick smile at us with that guilty expression I knew they would have. Jack completely abandoned me back there. He knew how the situation was and he left me because of a man. Can you even imagine it?

''I am such a douche,'' he admits immediately. 

I frown ''Yeah you are. We are done here. I am sure your boyfriend can take you home.' I tell him blatantly. 

Patrick nods his head immediately. I haven't really had a conversation with him. we haven't talked about the whole relationship he has with my best friend but with everything I am dealing with, I haven't had the time to add that. eventually, I will set a lunch date with him and I will find out what his intentions are. The fact that he had a thing for me at a point is still there. I need to make sure he doesn't plan on breaking my best friends heart. 

''Sure, we are not even staying,'' he tells me. 

I mean, it is not like we both wanted to be here. This situation was forced. We had no choice. 

''What happened while I was away,'' Ford asked, probably just noticing the bruises on his face. it is a shock that he didn't notice it before because that is all anyone can see from a mile away. 

''Long story.'' 

We part ways and Ford takes me into his car. I know things are kinda tense right now because there are a lot of unspoken things. I still need to talk to him about his father. I need to tell him the truth because there is a chance that he will find out. 

''I am sorry for being gone for so long,'' he breathes out heavily once the car starts. 

I wave my hand in the air ''You're here now when it matters the most,'' I assure him because I don't want him beating himself up for anything. 

''Were things hard while I was gone?'' he glances at me gently. 

I shake my head ''I missed you a lot.''

That is the truth. Being without Ford was like punishment. I felt like a part of me was missing all the while. His absence ate at me, and the more I tried not to think about it, I thought about it. 

''I missed you too, can we just go to your apartment?'' he asks immediately. I know he wouldn't want to be home right now and I also don't want him to have any opportunity to meet up with his father right now. I know John promised that he wasn't going to mention anything to him but I can't be too sure. 

I still don't believe him.

''Yeah,'' I reach for his free hand, the one that is not clutching unto the steering will and squeeze it gently ''I want to just hold you all night,'' I tell him because that is how I feel. 

He smiles warmly, the smile that tugs on my heartstrings. We get to the apartment building and I lead him into mine. Once the door is closed, he pulls me into his arms, and I hold him as if my life depends on it. his breathing is steady, I can feel the rise and fall of his chest against mine. My heart thuds heavily as he caresses my hair softly. His touch is doing things to me. things that are driving me crazy. 

''I've missed you,'' he groans into my ear as I grab unto the hems of his shirt. we stay in each other's arms, for such a long time that when we finally pull apart, I can't tell if it was me or him that pulled away first.

''Can I have a shower?'' he asks me. 

I nod immediately and he starts to take off his clothes in the middle of the living room. His eyes never leave mine and I stay glued to the striptease in front of me. I don't know If he wants me to join him but that is all I want to do at this moment. He smiles as he is left in just his boxers. His hair falls to his face and I take a step towards him, wanting to touch him. he grabs my hand before I get the chance and I glare at him. this gets a chuckle out of his lips. 

''The strip tease worked?''

I nod. 

He grabs me by my waist and pulls me closer ''Do you want to get naked with me?'' 

I nod again. 

This time, he reaches for my shirt and pulls it over my head. I smile from ear to eat because I know what is coming next. I have missed being intimate with him. it's just been a week and it feels like it has been months. His fingers graze the button of my jeans and I keep smiling as he tugs on them. 

''I see you've missed me too,'' he winks and my heart melts in my chest, his fingers stay on the hem of my jeans as I get even harder. the craving for him multiplying.

With one swing, he unbuttons my jeans and pulls it off me. Now we are both in our boxers alone. Exactly how I wanted it to be ''don't you want to have yours shower anymore?''

He shakes his head immediately and at that moment, he pulls me back to his arms, smashing his lips against mine with so much intensity and force. The minute, our tongues mesh together, I lose all control and give my whole body to him. Ford pushes me so hard till my back hits the wall with a loud thud. I don't even care that there is a sting in my back as he grinds into me. all I can focus on is the pleasure. I didn't know what I was missing out on until he kissed me. 

Fuck, I have missed him. 

He keeps grinding into me and I feel him hard against me. I reach for his dick and he stiffens from the touch, totally not expecting it. 

Slowly, I start to stoke him through his underwear. I don't know how long I will last the moment he is inside me but I can't wait. There is a desperation within me that I can't even understand. 

I feel him quiver against my touch as I go faster, wanting to send him over the wall with pleasure. Our lips are still together. He is trying to hold out but I don't want him to. I want him to cum as fast as he can. I want to send him to that euphoric bliss, that only I can take him too. 

The faster I go, the louder he screams and moans. That sound driving me completely crazy. I feel him the moment he reaches that place, I know it. this time, I stroke him even more aggressively. In a rush, he pulls away from my lips and rests his head in the crook of my neck. His eyes close as I feel him spill over my hand and his boxers. 

''Fuck,'' he breathes out. 

I smile, completely satisfied with his reaction. 

''My turn,'' I wink and this gets a smile from him. 

I missed this.