Chapter 130 - He Is Not Coming

Lance. 

He leaves me with so much promise. 

I am looking forward to our life together.

I can't wait to be free with him. 

To be out in the open with the man I love. I have decided to live my life for me. mom can't tell me who to love. As long as there is nothing wrong with what I am doing, I will continue to love him. the door to the roof opens and Patrick walks in. he looks up from his phone and a smile spreads to his face. 

''Hey,'' he greets me happily. ''Didn't think I would bump into you here, it has been a while.'' He mutters with that smile still on his face. I am glad he didn't end up alone. Jack will be good for him. 

I look at his hand and there is a roll of weed in his grip. The first time we met, we smoked weed and got high. This is bringing a lot of memories to me. 

He stops walking in front of the edge of the railing next to me. he rests on the railing and turns to me '���You don't look too good,'' he points out. 

I take a deep breath because I have about an hour to pack my things. Ford promised to come back in an hour. An hour and we will be free. I don't know where we are going to go, I don't know the plan, but I want to be with him and as long as we are together, I think we will be okay. 

''I am leaving,'' I tell him because there has always something about Patrick that makes me honest. It is easy to talk to him, it always has been. I feel like I can tell him anything when I am around him, just like this moment. 

He furrows his brows in confusion. I am as confused as him but all I know is, this is the only solution to our happiness. When Ford told me that he was going to kill himself, I knew his situation was worse than I thought. I don't want anything to happen to him and if his father succeeds in keeping us apart, I am afraid he will try again. 

I will never survive losing him. 

''My mom found out about us and pretty soon, his dad will too.''

With that explanation, he nods in understanding. Saying things that way makes it clearer. I remember Patrick told me he ran away from home. I don't know why he ran away but I know whatever sent him running must have been serious. No one will just leave their whole life behind for something trivial. Thinking about it, being without mom and Jack is scary. I don't know how it will feel but as long as I have Ford, I will be okay. 

''Is that the only option, how did your mother take it?''

''Not too well, it just made me realise that no one will accept this. it is disgusting to them all.'' 

''Do you have to skip town, maybe you can just move out?'' 

I shake my head ''I am still underage, and Ford's Father has too much control on him. as long as we are close by, they will find a way to keep us apart.''

''You are almost eighteen.''

I nod.

'' So, in a couple of months you will be free,'' he points out, which gets another nod from me. 

He lights up his roll and stretches it out to me, I shake my head because I need to be In my right state of mind today. ''Is jack in your apartment?'' I ask as I watch him take a whiff of the blunt.

''Yeah, he fell asleep as soon as we got home. He has been sleeping all night.'' 

''Can I see him before I go?'' 

He nods ''He is not going to take this well,'' he informs me, even though I already know. Jack is my best friend; he is like a brother to me. this will tear him apart, but I am very sure he will understand, and it is not like I plan on shutting him out. 

He nods and takes another whiff of the smoke, ''Do you want to just go to my place? The front door is open, so you can just go in.'' he tells me, so I leave him to his smoke and go down the stairs till I get to his house. once inside, I walk into the room and Jack is snoring soundly. His face is the only visible part of his body as he is under the covers. All the bruises are still evident on his face. the scar his father left on him. there will be more scars and I won't be there to help him. this makes me feel like crap.

I don't want to leave him, but I also don't want to lose Ford. Jack is not alone anymore and I know Patrick will not let him get hurt. He is just the kind of person that will take care of the person that he loves, so I don't have to worry about anything anymore. 

''Are you actually staring at me while I sleep?''

I snap out of the zone I was in and he is smiling at me now with his eyes wide open. He sits up on the bed while I walk closer to him ''I wasn't staring loser,'' I interject, and this gets a chuckle out of him.

''I caught you,'' he rolls his eyes as I sit down on the edge of the bed next to him. He looks at me and I can already tell that he senses something is wrong ''What happened?'' he asks immediately. 

I manage a shrug ''Nothing, I need to talk to you about something,'' it ell him because this is a lot harder than I thought it would be. 

''Ford is back, why are you here instead of with him. spill it out dude before I start to think the worst.''

This is not actually the worst thing that could happen. It is not like we are running away from home and have nowhere to go. Ford is rich, he will be able to take care of us. so at least we don't have to be homeless and I also have some money saved up. All the extortion money that my mother used against me. the money that I kept for rainy days but anyways, now she doesn't need to hustle for money. She married someone rich. 

''What are you thinking about?'' he asks me, wanting to get the truth out of me.

''We are leaving tonight,'' I blurt it out because the best way to do this is to rip the bandaid off. That way, it won't hurt as much. 

''Leaving….��'

I nod.

''Why?'' he asks with that fear in his eyes. 

I feel shitty already and now I have to explain to him, that I am fighting for my life. Ford is my life and I have to fight for him. 

I tell him everything. I tell him about mom and all the hurtful things she said. I tell him how scared I am that I will end up losing the only person I will ever love. Jack listens and I watch as the tears fall out of his eyes. I never see Jack cry. He is always the shoulder that I cry on, but I know why he is crying. I feel the same way. 

I don't want to leave him but there is no place for me here anymore. My heart is with Ford and I want him to be happy. 

We need to be happy and it seems like this is the only way. 

''Is this final?'' he asks as he wipes the tears from his face. 

''Yes, but this isn't goodbye.'' 

He nods ''I know, you know I will follow you to the ends of the world. You are my brother.'' 

This time I nod. 

''We have to wait till things cool down, and then we will figure this out. I will let you know where we go once, we settle down.''

He smiles, suddenly he is not sad anymore. ''You know I never thought you'd have the balls to do something like this.'' 

I didn't think so either, but I have to. 

I leave Jack with promises. I have about Thirty minutes until I meet up with Ford. I go back to my apartment and grab one of my carry on boxes. I don't have any material items that I cant do without so I grab a couple of clothes and stuff them into the bag. I take the picture of my dad, from the bottom drawer of my drawer and stuff it in the box. Once I am done packing, I walk out of my bedroom and mom is in the living room. I thought she had already left. 

Why is she still here?

''You plan on escaping from your problems?'' she asks as she sees the box on my grip. 

''I am not escaping,'' I tell her. 

She smiles, I don't know why she is smiling ''He is not coming,'' there is this joy in her eyes. almost like she is happy that we won't succeed. 

I shake my head in disbelief. 

He promised. 

He is going to show up. 

''He had another episode. John said we wouldn't be seeing Ford for a while.'' She tells me those words and my heart stops in my chest as I battle with all the fears roaming around my head. 

That's not true. 

He promised.