Chapter 135 - Blind Trust And Revelations.

Marybell

I have had fights with Lance before. My kid is quite problematic but this is the first time we have gone a whole day still in our funk stage. I have tried to talk to him. Tried to understand why he is behaving like this but I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to say to make things better.

John hasn't done anything wrong. I know he is a good father, I have seen him with Brad. There is no sort of abuse going on here, he is not the type of person to abuse his kid. Lance is trying to make me hate my husband. The man I fell in love with, the man I chose to spend the rest of my life with.

I don't know what to do.

I am at the apartment because I thought I could try and talk to him. Let him see the reasoning in everything. I understand that this is his first crush. My son has never been the emotional type. He finally found someone that he connects with and now he thinks its love. I am not even talking about the fact that he had to choose someone in the family to have this relationship with. It is everything about this situation in general.

I run my hands through my hair, just as my phone rings on the counter table. Reaching for it, I answer it ''Hello,''

John's voice travels through my ears and the goosebumps I feel just from hearing his voice crawls on my skin ''He is still not talking to you?'' he asks worriedly.

He took everything so well. When I told him about Ford and Lance. Seeing the reaction from Lance after confronting him, I couldn't keep it to myself. There was no point since I couldn't handle it on my own. He made it seem like I was just out to get him. he didn't even want to see the wrong in what he has been doing.

It seems just ridiculous to me.

''I don't know where he is, he left the apartment. I am thinking he is with Jack.''

''Do you want to give him some space to cool off? You can come back home and snuggle for warmth.''

It sounds so tempting and lord knows I need a little bit of comfort after today. Thinking about it, Lance is willing to leave me for Brad. I have always stayed by his side. I have been a good mother to him, always giving him everything he wants and he packed a bag and wanted to run away.

It still hurts thinking about it.

''Do you think it's a good idea coming back?''

''He's not there, when I saw him at the house, he looked very angry. I don't know if I feel comfortable with you being there alone.''

I don't know what he is implying but I am not worried that my son would do something to hurt me. Lance is the sweetest person I know and just because he is going through something, doesn't mean he is dangerous.

''I miss you.'' He adds and that is what brings a smile to my face. I and John are still in our honeymoon phase. Everything seems perfect between us. Like there is nothing that could ruin that right now.

''I miss you too,'' I breathe into the phone, resting on the couch.

''George is on his way to pick you up. You can't refuse me.''

I smile into the phone because that is one of the things that made me fall for him. When he asked me to marry him. I refused. As usual, I was only thinking about Lance. I didn't want to have to let him go through the whole, moving out and living with someone he didn't know. I wanted to wait till he was eighteen but John insisted and pleaded and I couldn't refuse him. I always find it hard to refuse him.

''You are so stubborn.''

He laughs ''But you love me like that. George is already outside the apartment,'' he informs me, which makes me think that he only called me to let me know that. See what I mean when I say, he is persistent. He doesn't like to take no for an answer. I don't think it is such a bad thing, his zeal is what has made him this way.

I nod because he is right. I do love him, more than I have ever loved anyone.

I end the call and grab my purse from the table, locking up the house. I don't know if he has his key with him and I know if I try to call him, he wouldn't answer. Dialing Jack, he answers on the first ring ''Mrs M.'' he mutters into the phone.

Jack is like a son to me but I know his loyalty will forever lie with my son. It is not like I want him to be on my side but I wish this didn't have to go the way it is going. "Is he with you?''

''Yeah, I don't think he wants to see you right now.''

I knew that would be the case. Lance likes to keep to himself when he is upset and he is upset with me. I don't want to aggravate him. I will give him his space and maybe he will come around eventually.

''I just want to make sure he isn't locked out of the apartment, his key is in the house.''

''I have my spare. So I can give it to him,'' he informs me. Suddenly I don't feel as worried as I was. Lance will be okay. I will come back tomorrow and try to talk to him again. Whatever he thinks he has with Brad will not work and I need to help him see things clearly. Their relationship was doomed from the start.

The drive to the placer that I call home is faster than usual. Maybe because it is already late and there is no traffic. I am dreading it all because I feel so ashamed. I came into his house and somehow with it all, I brought problems. I fully accept my son for who he is and John does too but everything that is happening is making me embarrassed and sad at the same time.

John is outside the house and he smiles when he sees me. His smile makes me the happiest person on earth. I never knew I could feel a love like this. Seeing him somehow wipes away all my worries. There is no doubt in my mind that he feels the same way.

''Hey,'' he stretches his arms out for me and my feet carry me to him until my head is resting on his shoulders gently. ''You don't have to worry about anything. I will take care of it all.'' He assures me. This is his way of telling me that this won't affect our relationship.

My son's relationship with his son should. On any normal situation but I can't lose him when I just got him, it is totally unfair.

We go into the house and he leads me to the dining room. There is food on the table. He made dinner, knowing full well that I haven't eaten anything ''you didn't have to,'' I smile at him as he squeezes my hand gently.

''You're my baby, who else will I do this for?'' he winks and my heart melts in my chest. We sit next to each other and he plates my food for me. This is something he started on our honeymoon. He would always make sure my plate was full before he even starts eating. It just shows me how much he cares about me.

After a while of eating, I decide to ask him the question that has been on my mind all day ''Where is Brad, Is it possible for Lance to see him?''

Thinking about it, Lance seems to think there is nothing wrong with him. How would a father lock their kid up if there is nothing wrong?

''don't you think it is too soon. Considering the kind of relationship they have?''

I nod, he might be right ''How about I pay him a visit. I am worried about him,'' I watch him because I want to see his reaction. There is no doubt in my mind that he has been honest with me, but I just want to cross off all of Lance's assumptions. I hate that he sees my husband in that light and I wish he would change his views.

''Why are we talking about him right now,'' his eyes are on the plate in front of me. It seems like he is avoiding my eyes.

Something feels weird in this moment ''I consider him a son. I am worried about him, can't you just tell me where he is?''

He frowns and his attention sweeps to me ''Can we drop this Mary. I don't want to talk about this anymore.'' He glares at me angrily.

There is definitely something off with his reaction.

Makes me think Lance might be right.