Chapter 140 - The Accusation

Marybell

I have been calling him all night. I don't know why but maybe, he got in my head. I didn't believe him before but now, I am not so sure anymore. Lance has always been an honest kid. He never had any reason to lie to me or keep things from me but I just thought he kept this from me because he didn't want me to object to it. He is the type of person that likes to get what he wants and maybe it is selfish but I have always trained him that way. 

I didn't want him to be a pushover. If he sees something that he wants, I want him to grab it. I guess all my teachings kind of backfired on me now. He said he didn't know Brad was John's son and I believe him completely. I don't know why he thinks this love is the one for him. He is still young. He can find someone else. This is just young love. Young love never lasts. He still has the rest of his life to figure it out. I know Brad is not really his brother but I think there are lines that he has crossed. 

It might not be wrong but it is still weird. With him being with Brad, it messes with the family dynamics. 

''You okay?'' John walks into the room. I am in front of my dressing table. My reflection in the mirror seems to be staring at me. I didn't sleep a wink last night. After dinner, I had a lot of thoughts in my head that just wouldn't leave. It seems like he is hiding something from me. 

I can't pinpoint what it is but the fact that I caught him acting all suspicious has been getting to me. Now. I want to speak to Lance. Find out what he knows. I want to let him know that I am on his side. John is my husband and I love him with all my heart but if I find out that he is lying to me. I will never forgive him. 

That is as far as I can go. 

''Yeah,'' I manage. 

He smiles ''I will be leaving town today but I just thought to let you know that I am letting Lance see Brad today.''

My eyes shoot up to him, from the shock of his words. Yesterday, when I asked him. He didn't want to talk about it and now is going to let my son see him.

''Why?''

He smiles ''His cousin wants to see him, so I just thought. Why not let him too.''

Maybe because I already have all these thoughts in my head but I still find the whole thing suspicious. It really seems like he is hiding something from me. 

''I know you think that I am hiding something but I need you to trust me. I will never do anything to hurt my kid. This is for his own good. You have to believe me.'' 

I sigh. It seems like he is reading my mind. 

''Is it because he is with Lance. What led to the outburst?'' 

''I don't have a problem with him being gay. I never did.'' 

It seems like a lie. John is very conservative. He must have his reservations on the whole thing. ''I just wish it didn't have to be with Lance. It is just wrong to me. I wanted us to be a family, now this just makes things weird.''

The same way I felt. 

The same way I feel.

He walks over to me and grabs both of my hands in his, slowly pulling me up to my feet. His eyes bore into mine. I love him so much, that this whole thing hurts. What do I do in this situation? ''You have to trust me. I promise I am not lying to you. Everything I do, I do for my family.'' He assures me. He is so believable at this moment. I don't even know how I feel anymore. 

He leans forward and I can't fight him. I don't even want to fight him. John is my weakness. Loving him is the easiest thing I have ever had to do. I don't want to let go of that but I also need to talk to Lance. I need to make things right with him. I love him too and he is the only one that should matter. 

His lips stay on mine and maybe this is me afraid to let go, but I cling onto him. I hold him like this is the last day I have with him. I hold him like I need him to survive. 

My phone rings on the table and this makes him pull away from our kiss. He leans forward and looks at the phone ''Lance is calling. This could be a step to reconciliation.'' He tells me, smiling. At this moment, I should jump for joy but I can't because he is calling me, probably because I have been blowing his phone up. ''You should get that, settle things with the kid.''

I smile as he places a soft peck on my forehead ''I have to stop by the office for a while. Will you be alright without me?'' 

We stayed in today. He said he wanted to spend some time with me even though all I kept thinking about all day was Lance and talking to him. It makes me feel like shit. The guilt will probably eat at me for the rest of the day. ''Yeah,'' I tell him. 

He nods and I watch him as he puts on his suit jacket ''Stay beautiful for me…okay?'' he tells me before leaving the room and closing the door behind me. 

The call ends before I can answer it, so I redial it immediately. He answers on the first ring "Baby?'' I call him. 

This gets a chuckle from him ''Since when am I, baby?'' 

I know, it is weird to call him that but I just want to do anything to get back on his good books. ''I'm sorry. I've been calling you all day.'' I tell him. 

''Yeah, that's why I am calling you back.'' 

I take a deep breath. It is normal for him to give me an attitude. Lance without attitude is not him. ''Can you come home?'' I ask, desperate to see him. 

''Is that my home?'' 

I sigh ''Please Lance, I need to talk to you.'' 

''Why? You said all you had to say yesterday. I don't understand why you feel the need to settle things between us. You made your choice already.'' 

''I didn't choose. Why does this have to be a 'choose me' situation?''

''because you married a maniac.'' He shouts into the phone. My heart races at his words. He is so adamant that john is the evil one. He doesn't know the man like I do. He doesn't even want to give him a chance. 

''don't say that about him.''

He laughs into the phone ''Yeah, I don't expect anything from you. The best thing for you to do right now is get out of that marriage before he kills you too.'' 

His tone is very harsh. 

''What do you mean by that. Lance, you have to stop saying things when you don't thave the full picture. It is unfair to John and you know it.''

''Mom. You have to listen to me. That man is a dangerous person. He will not hesitate to hurt you if you get in his way. Your life is in danger.'' 

The seriousness of his voice is alarming. 

How can he even think this way?

Now he is accusing him of murder. 

''Stop. Stop all this.'' I shout. Raising my voice for the first time. I hear his sigh through the phone. ''You can't just blurt out words just because you feel like it. It is completely unfair.'' 

''I am being serious. John killed Ford's mother. He killed her and now he will kill you too.'' 

Now I know Lance is being ridiculous and frankly I will not tolerate this ''what makes you think this way.'' I ask him. I want to know where he got this idea from. 

''Ford told me. He knows about it and that is why his father hates him so much. That is why he treats him the way he does.''

It all makes sense to me now. Brad is sick, he is putting thoughts into my sons head. Making him believe all his stories, the only way he will be able to get him on his side. ''And you believe him?''

''Yes, I do. I believe him completely.''

This is Lance's, first love. He has put him on such a high threshold. I cannot convince him otherwise. ''Ask him about it. See how he reacts to the question. That will give you your answer.'' He ends the call without even waiting for a reply. The anger that he feels is very confusing to me. 

I don't know what to believe. 

I don't know anymore.