Chapter 155 - I Will Always Protect You

Patrick. 

I don't know why I asked him. 

I just need some control right now and Jack is the only one that can give it to me. He is the only one that makes me feel worth something…anything. He seems to think that my father is not dead, that this was their plan all along but I don't even know. He didn't see what I saw last year. He looked dead and it will be a miracle if he is still alive. 

I wish he was because I am tired of having to deal with their drama. I just want to let go of them and be happy with Jack. 

"Are you sure?'' I ask him, wanting to be a hundred percent sure that he is not just agreeing to this because I asked. If there is any part of him that feels uncomfortable about this. I will not force it. I look up at his expression, wanting to read him. I can always tell what he is thinking from his eyes and right now, he looks indifferent and a little bit worried. 

"I haven't really thought about switching but I don't mind," he shrugs still on top of me. He reaches for me and I let him. Slowly his lips are on mine. The pull undeniable. I moan into his mouth as he pulls away, grabbing me by my waist and switching positions. Now I am on top of him. There is a smile on his face. The kind that tells me he is open to this. The first time I had sex with him—with anyone. We were both drunk. The whole night is still foggy to me. Just bits and pieces but this time. We are both sober. Maybe I am a little emotional because of everything we just talked about but this time I want to remember. I want him to remember too. 

"It's going to hurt,'' I blurt. I don't know why I am scaring him like this but I at least want him to be prepared. I want him to expect the pain that will come with the pleasure. 

"We have Lube,'' he winks, my heart melts into goo. God, what was I before him? I won the lottery with the first person I have ever been with. There is no going back from him. 

He uses his legs to move up to the bed, till his head is on the pillow. I watch him, in complete awe as he stretches his hand out and opens the drawer next to my bed. That is where we keep our stash. I can't believe I have a sex stash. It is so funny to me. 

He grabs a condom and then looks at me with a gleam in his eyes "Which flavor?" he asks with that same smile still plastered on his face. 

I can't help but smile back at him. He is quirky and a tease. The whole thing just makes me love him more. God, we love each other. Those words made everything better. They made me more assured. I don't know why I even needed him to say it. his actions have all but proved it to me. I know how he feels and I feel the same way. 

"Strawberry as usual,'' I can almost bet that my cheeks are red. 

He rummages through the drawer and pulls it out, almost like an accomplishment. "So, you take the wheels boyfriend. Have your way with me." He hands me the condom and the lube. With shaking hands, I collect it from him. I have no problem with being a bottom. Hell, it makes me feel needed. There is just something about it that I have come to love but tonight I want this badly. 

He lies back on the bed, his eyes pierce into mine, and my heart races against my chest. I can feel his pounding. There is no way he is not nervous about this. I drop the condom on the side of the bed and lean into him. He closes his eyes immediately as I press my lips to him. There is no more talking as my tongue slides into his mouth. The reaction I always get from kissing him is still there. I don't need any more confirmation because at this moment, I feel his hardness on my leg. He wants this too and now I am excited. I touch his body sensually with my fingers, he moans against my kiss. Slowly I pull apart from him and open up the lube. His eyes part and there is a dreamy expression plastered on his face. Pressing my lips to his forehead for a quick kiss. I take an amount of the gel that I think will be okay. This is the first time for me, unlike him. I want to make sure it doesn't hurt him at all. I want him to enjoy this as much as I am going to. 

I reach for him with the hand that has the lube and he watches me, waiting "Let me know if it hurts,'' I urge him. the moment he shows any form of severe pain. I will stop. 

He nods and presses his lips to mine. My hand finds its way into his entrance and this gets a shudder from him, as I slide one finger into him. He bites his lips in the most alluring way and this gets my dick hard. Jack is the most attractive person I have ever met. Unlike me, he is perfect. His face is perfect, his eyes are perfect, even his red hair suits him so perfectly—almost makes him look like a porcelain doll. 

"I am so lucky,'' I exclaim as I move my finger around inside him. His eyes remain close, the expression on his face unreadable. I said I could read his face before. Right now, I don't know how he is feeling. "Does it hurt?'' I ask. 

He shakes his head immediately "No, just a little uncomfortable. Continue.'' He pushes me. The more I move around in him. the more huffed sounds erupt from his lips. Suddenly the weird expression is gone from his face and replaced with something else. This one seems familiar to me. This is the same one he has when he fucks me. 

I like it a lot. 

I continue my hand movements and he keeps his eyes closed through it all. Once it feels like he is stretched out enough. I pull out of him which makes him open his eyes. Now he is watching me as I grab the condom from the bed beside me. Almost like an expert, I rip it open and this gets a chuckle out of him "Seems like you've always wanted this,'' he jokes breathing heavily.

I shrug "I have always wanted you. So, there's that.'' 

He grabs the condom from me and I let him slide it around my hardened dick. The touch doesn't help because it feels like I am about to burst. I don't know how long I will last with that look on his face. 

"Ready,'' he informs me even though I felt it. 

I grab my dick, rubbing more lube on it to make this as easy as possible. Once I am satisfied, I position it to his entrance, opening his legs up for me. My eyes stay fixed on his. He does the same. Slowly I push into him. He moans out instantly. I am not even in yet but he is already responding. 

"Is this okay?'' I ask. 

He nods "Just keep going,'' he hastens me, I like it so much. 

I push my hips forward even more and this time, I enter him, whole. A gasp escapes his lips "Faster," he begs. Grabbing my back with his fingers. His nails pierce into my skin. The pain adding to the pleasure I feel. he is tight and warm. It feels like home. 

Fuck.

"That feels good,'' he informs me, his eyes wide open. I lean into him and rest in the crook of his neck, my lips completely smothering him, he smells as delicious as he feels. I grind against him, quickening my pace. Jack shivers beneath me. I feel him as he shakes, settling on wrapping his legs around my waist. The faster I go, the louder he screams. I love every bit of his reaction. I love it so much. 

"Do that again,'' he screams. I stop moving for fear that I have hurt him but he just pushes me into him "Keep going,'' he commands. I have literally never seen him like this. he seems to be liking things a lot. 

I move faster and he moans in satisfaction "I am almost there,'' he tells me. I feel myself getting close to bliss, so I move even faster, hitting him in that spot. That spot that finally makes him cum all over me. Jack falls to the bed, letting go of me as I release my seed into the condom. I feel it in between his legs. I fall onto his body and he wraps his arms around me. 

"Fucking hell,'' he mutters "That was insane.'' He confesses. I can't help but agree with him. We stay in each other's arms for a couple of minutes. Just enjoying our space. The things we just did will always linger.

"We got this Trick. I will protect you." He assures me and I believe him.

I believe his promise.