Chapter 202 - Worries

Trick

Jack has been perfect through all my worries. 

if feel like the kiss brought us closer. 

I know it makes no sense. Some stranger kissed my man and yeah, it got me worried but now I am a lot closer to him. I know his worth and I appreciate his honesty. it is not an easy thing to just say and he told me. I am not going to let this ruin the weekend trip that we are going on.

I don't want him to think that the kiss is the reason why I planned this trip. I just want to spend time with him, away from the city. Remind him of the love we share. 

"You are acting very clingy,'' Adina tells me with a frown on her face. She is the only one that I talked about his kiss at the club. I wish it wasn't even real. I want this to be something we laugh about in the future. 

"No, I am not.'' I roll my eyes trying to keep my focus on the painting, I have been working on all week.''

She nods but I can tell she is not going back on her words "Yes you are. You are going on this trip just to get away from him and your worries.

I glare at her because she is blowing this out of proportion "We don't have worries." I tell her as I continue to work on the painting. 

"Then why are you going on this impromptu trip with him?'' she sighs. 

"Because I love him and I want to spend time with him,'' I tell her. My voice is a little louder than normal and I see her flinch. 

"No, you are going with him just to get away from your worries,'' she repeats. Her voice is full of concern and she is not getting it. she keeps saying worry like we have some sort of problem. 

Things are great between us. We are engaged to be married. The place we are at right now is perfect. I don't know why she suddenly thinks there are problems. 

"Stop fucking insinuating that we have problems." 

"I didn't say you have problems, I said worries. there is a difference.''

"Oh really? please tell me the difference.''

she sighs loudly, almost in frustration "So is it safe to say that I am your best friend?''' she asks me. I furrow my brows in confusion because I don't know what she is talking about. "I know you and I have been there through your and Jack's relationship. there has never been any problem with outsiders. This is a new dynamic in your relationship and it scares you.'' she tells me. 

I still don't agree with her and I scoff "I am not worried about anything and I don't know why you think that. Everything is fine. we are fine.'' I tell her. 

"That is not what I am saying.'' she sighs again "You are afraid of losing him. You are going on this trip to prove to yourself that nothing will separate you two. you are going away just to prove to yourself that you love him more than anything else.'' she tells me. 

"You are talking nonsense. I am not afraid of losing him. We have been together for years. I know how to love him. I know how to keep him,'' I tell her. 

"You are so afraid of losing him that you think this trip would bring you closer.''

"That is not what is happening.''

Sometimes, I hate Adina because it feels like she can read the parts of my mind that I close off to. Yes, the kiss bothered me a lot more than it should and I know that I have nothing to worry about with Jack. I trust him but I don't trust everyone else. I have this fear that he would meet someone way better than me. Someone that would treat him ten times better. 

He would realize that I am not the best for me and he would leave. 

"Look, you need to just relax. Talk to your man, tell him how you feel. You should be able to share the insecurities you have with the one you love. Don't just push it down." She says, walking inside to leave me alone. I sigh because I know she is right. I just don't know how to talk to him about my worries. I don't want to come across as a jealous boyfriend.

I am not jealous. I have nothing to be jealous about. 

There isn't even a guy in the picture, just some guy at a club that he may never meet again. 

Fuck. 

My phone vibrates on the table and I see his face on the screen. I answer the call immediately and his voice sends chills down my spine "Hey baby,'' he calls me and my heart thuds in my chest. the way I feel about Jack is the same way he feels about me. the butterflies, the chills, the pure joy from just hearing his voice. I don't have anything to worry about. 

"How's work?'' I ask him. 

"So, I have an hour and I don't want to eat at work, how about you drive over to my office and sneak me away?'' he breathes into the phone and my heart pounds against my chest. 

A smile sprawls to my face as I stand up from the stool and grab my coat "I will be there in ten minutes,'' I walk out of my office and down the stairs to the front of the gallery. Adina stops me before I can walk out "Where to?'' 

I smile "To see my man,'' I tell her, getting excited.

She raises a hand up "This might be a good opportunity to tell him about those worries.'' she reminds me of our conversation even though all I want to do is forget it. 

I walk away from her because I don't know if I am going to take her advice. 

I just want to see him.