Chapter 220 - Love Is Enough

Lance

Looking at Patrick right now, I am confused. 

I don't know what he wants from Jack. I don't know the right words to say to him to make this better. I know that Jack is acting weird, even when I spoke to him today, I could tell that something was off but I wanted to give him some time to get back to his normal self. 

It is not easy to sacrifice something that makes you happy for the one you love and he did that. 

He left the job that brought him out of his shell to make Patrick happy. I don't know what Patrick is expecting but he can't just bounce back so easily. 

"Have you told him how you feel about what is going on?'' I ask Patrick because I want to know what he is even doing about everything that is happening. 

"No, I don't even know what is going on.''

From what I can gather, Gill--the guy from the office called Jack and he freaked out. He broke down because he was terrified that it would cause more problems in their relationship. 

He is just reacting to being controlled. 

"Have you tried talking to him without being controlling?'' I ask Patrick. 

"No. I don't know what to say to him.'' 

I look at Patrick and he looks so lost right now. I have never seen him this helpless. He is always the one who takes charge of everything and he is always the one who knows what to say and do but not today. 

I put my hand on his shoulder and give him a reassuring smile. 

"He will come around. I'm sure he is just overwhelmed by everything that has happened.''

I don't want to put the blame on Patrick because, at the end of it all, they are in a relationship together. They have both made mistakes and they need to work through them together.

"I feel like I broke him, he is not the same anymore.'' 

He is just lost right now; he doesn't know what to do and the only thing he can do is wait for Jack to come back to him. He has to give him time to be alone and think about what he wants.

I want to say something to make him feel better but I know that all I can do is to be here for him and support him.

I have no idea what Jack is going through right now but I hope he will be coming around soon.

"You should talk to Jack again and tell him how you feel about this situation. It is not something that can be fixed overnight.''

He nods at me and I know he knows that. Something has changed in their relationship and it is all because of how Patrick wanted to control Jack. Yeah, they still love each other but there is a crack in their relationship. one that can be mended. 

It will be hard; it might take some time but I know that they will get through this. The love they have for each other will be the glue that they need to make this work. 

"I should go back to him,'' he says slowly running his hands over his head. His hair is growing. he usually cuts it all but today, he looks different. Maybe it's because I haven't seen him in a while. 

"You will be fine, just talk to him. Share your worries with him and maybe that will be enough.'' He turns to face me and he gives me a weak smile.

"I'll try,'' he says.

I look at him and walk up to him. I give him a hug and he hugs me back. He doesn't need to say anything because I know that he is grateful for my support during this time. He needs all the help he can get right now.

I pull away from the hug and smile at him. 

"I'm always here for you Patrick.'' 

He nods at me and gives me a weak smile.

"Thank you,'' he says and turns to walk away.

I watch Patrick as he walks away. He needs to be with his boyfriend now. He has to fix what he did wrong and make up for it. I hope things will be better between the two of them.

I feel bad for Jack. I can't imagine how he is feeling right now. I'm sure he's hurting and I can't do anything to help him. I can't take away the pain he is feeling.

I close my eyes "Hey, you, okay?'' I open my eyes and Ford walks over to me. His eyes are half-closed as he pulls me into his arms "What are you doing outside, it is cold,'' he rubs my back and somehow that makes me feel warm.

"I was talking to Patrick,'' I tell him and he looks at me. "At this hour?'' he asks and I see the worry in his eyes. 

"Yeah, they are having issues. He needed a friend to talk to.'' 

tell him about what is going on and he looks at me. 

"They will get through this,'' he says.

"Yeah, I hope so,'' I say because I hope everything will be okay. 

"You want to go back inside?'' he asks and I nod.

He pulls me into the warmth of the house and we go back upstairs to our room. He pulls me into his arms and I can feel a sense of comfort. He always has that effect on me. 

I feel so safe in his arms and I know that I can always depend on him to be there for me. I know that he will always be here for me and I love him so much for that. Thinking about Patrick and Jack, I believe that they will get through this. All relationships are hard, they are tricky and sometimes test you with everything you have. Being with Ford has been the easiest and hardest thing I have had to deal with. There are days when I get scared, worried and there are days when everything makes sense. 

You can't have something good without challenges and this is their challenge. All they have to do is be strong. 

I look at Ford and he is looking at me, his eyes are locked with mine. I know that he is trying to read what I am thinking about but he can't. I'm not sure if I even know what I am thinking about. 

"I love you,'' he says.

I smile at him and I get up from the bed, walking over to him, I kiss him and his lips melt to mine with a hunger that is always there. 

I love the way his lips feel against mine. I love the way he kisses me and the way he makes me feel. It is always a passion that we have for each other.

"What was that for?'' he asks when I pull away.

"Just because,'' I tell him and he smiles.

He pulls me to the bed and we lay down on it. 

Love is worth all the bad times. 

They will see that too.