Chapter 223 - Amends Made

Trick

For the first time in a long time, I feel a connection to Jack. I don't know what changed overnight but this is a good thing. I feel the honesty and the fear in him that I have never seen in a long time. 

After our conversation, I actually thought we were over. I went to work thinking that I was going to lose him soon. When I came home and he wanted to talk to me. My heart was terrified because I thought he was going to break things off with me. As he said, I played a big part in messing things up with us. Before he got the job, we were talking about getting married and tonight, I almost thought he was going to break things off with me. 

"Come on,'' he walks into the room dressed in a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. I am dressed too because this is the most excited, I have been all week. I have been thinking about running with him for a while now. I know that this will bring us closer. This is one of the things that we used to do together before I went and messed things up. 

shove my feet into my running shoes and put on a light jacket. It is still warm out so I am not going to need a heavy jacket. I am not a fan of running in the summer. Jack waits for me by the door and he takes my hand. We walk to the trail and he is smiling as he does. 

"You ready?" He asks with a wide grin. I give him a hesitant grin back. "I am ready," I say. He doesn't say anything but he leads me down the trail. We have been on this trail so many times that we both know where every twist and turn is. He used to bring me here when we first started dating. I would put my arms around his neck and he would have his hands in my back pockets. We would dash up the trail and we would laugh at how hard we were breathing. 

"It's nice to see you smiling," he says. "I am always smiling Jack. You are the one that is always so serious," I say. Jack smiles and we keep walking. The trail is very warm and I am sweating. I am actually really excited about this run. 

"How has work been going?" He asks. "It has been really good." I don't really want to talk about work right now. I would much rather talk about us. "We should talk about us," I say. "What do you want to talk about?" He asks. I don't know why, but I am very nervous. 

"I want to talk about our wedding, I want to talk about our future," I say. Jack stops walking and I stop too. He turns to look at me and then he smiles. I don't know what it is but I am very nervous. I don't really know what to say. "I think that is a good idea," he says. He puts his hands on my shoulders and he pulls me close. I wrap my arms around his neck and I kiss him. His lips are warm and I feel a kind of connection that I haven't felt in a long time. I know that we can work things out and I know that everything is going to be okay. 

When we break away from each other, he takes my hand and we start walking again. I can't stop smiling and I feel like everything is going to be okay. Jack stops walking and he pulls me close to him. He puts his hands on my face and he kisses me. This kiss is different than the first one. He is more passionate and his tongue is moving around my mouth. I am not sure what to think. He is leading me down the trail. He is leading me to a place that we used to come to when we were dating. We come to a stop and he pulls me close. I put my arms around his neck and I kiss him. I kiss him as if I have never kissed him before. I kiss him like we are a couple that is madly in love. 

He puts his hands on my face and he kisses me like his life depends on it and maybe mine does. 

This is all I wanted. 

It's not like we were not having sex before but there was something missing. Just from a kiss, I can feel the love he has for me. 

I can feel the passion for me. We only kissed for a few moments before we start to run again. We run for over an hour before we are out of breath. I lean against a tree and I catch my breath. I look at Jack and he is trying to catch his breath too. I wait for him to catch his breath and then we start running again. 

After about another thirty minutes, he stops running "Do you wanna go back home?'' he asks me, pulling up to me. 

I nod my head and he takes my hand. We walk back to his house and he pushes me to the door immediately I close it and smashes his lips to mine. We are all sweaty and out of breath but I don't care. I can feel his passion. I can feel the love as he takes off my clothes and tosses them to the floor. 

I don't care about anything right now. I just want to be with him. He lays me down on the couch and he kisses me. He kisses me frantically like he is a man that is surviving out in the desert. He kisses me like I am the only thing he has to live for. I kiss him back like I am the only thing he has to live for. He pulls off his shirt and I pull off his pants. I have missed this feeling. I have missed him. I have missed the way he makes me feel. I have missed everything about him and I can tell that he has missed me too. I see it in his eyes. I feel it in his touch. 

"I love you," he breathes into my mouth as he slowly pushes into me.

Everything feels right at this moment.