Chapter 40 - He's Here

My day was massively terrible. I woke up with so much headache and I'm thankful that It's saturday. No work and I'll spend my time dealing with this shit on my head.

I hate that my head is pounding so hard! It's just a beer but it has so much effect on my body, damn it.

I stood up and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and washed my face after that. Don't wanna see myself at the mirror but I accidentally saw myself at it. My eyes are swollen for crying all night.

I was totally a wreck. I can't even forget what happened and what Vin said in the club. My mind was clouded with so much thoughts about him and that woman.

I walked back to my dressing table and applied some powder on my face. I was just wearing an oversize shirt and a black dolphin shorts. I even fixed my hair into a bun. I'm satisfied with that since I'll just stay here until the end of the day.

I smiled in front of the mirror but not as wide as I smile before. There was a small gap in it and I think it's still the reason..

Pretending that it's okay won't make it feel good, damn it. I don't wanna cry but my eyes are starting to water again. Fuck!

"Raine!" I heard Noah's voice outside and I just wiped my eyes for that.

What is he doing here?

"Please, talk to me.." My heart pound so goddamn fast!

Why does he wanted to talk to me?

My eyes watered again. The fuck?

I don't wanna complicate things for us because in the first place, we don't have any romantic relationship. We're just civil and content.

"Can we talk for a second?" He asked again so I just opened the door and gave him a blank expression.

I think the girls allowed him to enter and that's the problem. I don't wanna talk to him.

"What do you want?" I let the door open and went to my bed.

I heard his footsteps behind me so when I sat on the bed, I turn my eyes at him. He's squeezing his two palms while looking at the ground.

Why are you doing this to me, Noah?

I'm still thankful that I fixed myself before he came. I swear, I wouldn't dare to open the door even if he cries blood. I won't allow him to see me looking ugly despite our situation. Never.

"About last night.." He paused. He looks so nervous but I just remained silent.

"Did you got home safe?" He asked.

I arched my brow, "What do you think? Will you able to see me now if I'm not?"

"Ah, yeah.." He nods. Still avoiding my gaze.

Now I'm the only one who's staring at him like this? Why can't he look at me?

We remained silent again and I don't know why I suddenly felt irritated. I don't feel anything, I felt empty inside.

I wonder if he feels the same..

"Are you upset about last night?"

He's looking at me in the eyes, like he was looking for an answer for that. He closed his eyes for a brief second and my heart is starting to pound so goddamn fast again!

He was rigid and I know that he's up to something that I can't even explain right now. I can't even admit to myself that I fell for him too deep that I don't know how to survive it.

His breathing starting to slow down and I don't have a choice but to answer him. I released a heavy sigh and return it also with a stare.

"Yeah.." I bit my lips. There's no point of denying, it was obvious why I walked out last night. I was too upset and jealous..

He walked closer and held my hand, "I'm not going to lie about it, Raine. Yes, I went out with her that night.. But I don't have any intention to court her or even date her. It was Vin's idea.. He wants me to get over Dana and start having a relationship with other girls. But fuck! I can't get you off my mind, Raine.. You're the only person I think about and that night I knew, there's something wrong with me. And that's it, I was dumbfounded. I was blinded with my feelings that I didn't realize, I was falling for you.." His voice cracks.

He looked away and stood up, "If you still don't believe me. Don't worry, I'll be waiting for you baby.."

And with that, Noah started to walk out of the room.

I was left uneasy. I didn't expect him to say it. My heart hurts even more for that. Shit!

My mind was confused, that I didn't know what to react and what to feel..

I just don't know..

That day, I let myself processed all the things that he said. And I still couldn't get myself believing it. I'am damn frustrated when I think about his face when he's telling me everything. It was too emotional, too emotional that it looks so real..

His last words were echoing on my mind. I'm not a hard person, but for what I'm reacting right now. I'm basically a witch that's hurting him for not believing. Though he can't blame me for everything because there's an option for him to reject Vin's idea but he still go with it.

Maybe that's why I couldn't even make myself believe him. Maybe the situation is still blurry for me..

And when the sunday night came, I went out with my friends. I want to forget about what's bothering on my mind.

They don't have any idea how stressed I am today. I don't wanna tell them what happened that night so I just kept it to myself. I pretended to act normal but damn, it's hard!

"Hey, Gia. Please introduce me to your co-worker," Jess grabbed Gia's arm and jumps like a freakin' kid.

"No. I don't want to be the mode of your conversation. I'm not a fuckin' cupid!"

"You're not going to be like that, duh?" Jess's rolled her eyes.

I looked at the whole park. Everything was aesthetic, I can see some beautiful trees that was rounded with so much lights which makes the whole city shine so bright.

The night sky was just so pretty tonight. I'm so in love with the moon and stars whose now shining beautifully. I remember how I love to see them when I was a little.

"Those pretty stars were just so hard to reached. I can't even touch it to how I wanted." I said while looking at the night sky.

Loving him was literally stressful. I don't even understand myself because I used to chase him around, flirting with him even if he doesn't want to, but now I was like a wild dog who turns into a shy cat. It's ironic so I just try to ignore it.

I saw a little kid who's watching a man playing a guitar on the street. He looks like he understands how the man plays it to create some music. He looks so cute while pouting as he watch the man playing.

"Aww! That boy is cute!" Gia giggled.

"Where?" Jess asked.

Gia points the kid and we watched them until the man stops from playing. The boy's parents came from his side and his father carried him and left.

"You think, what age should I get married?" Jess suddenly asked. Gia and I looked at each other and chuckled.

"Get yourself a husband first, bitch." Gia laughs and I did the same.

"Of course I will, bitch." Jess rolled her eyes and laugh.

This kind of bond is what I love the most..

"LOOK!" Jess's points at the crowd. At first, I couldn't find it but my eyes widened in shocked when I saw Noah smiling while his both hands were on his pockets.

I couldn't move. I feel like I'm having a heart attack for that smile. God.

"Look at that idiot's face, he's damn annoying!" Jess's talking about Vin who's with Noah right now.

"Oh gurl, I think he also finds you annoying. Look how he also react when he saw you--that was EPIC!" Gia laughs.

"Err. He's an asshole, Gi,"

He walked towards us. He's wearing a denim jacket and a blue faded jeans with a white rubber shoes. My heart race as he slowly took a step near me. He looks so damn hot right now! I can't even take off my eyes at him.

"Oh my god. Please wipe Raine's saliva for us, Noah. She's probably drooling over you," Jess shouts and laughs which brought back my senses together!

He just laugh and stare at me deeply. I got conscious again specially that they mentioned my saliva! Eww.

I immediately touched my face and thank God! I don't have any.

I look at them and gave them a deadly stare but they just both laugh.

Bitches!

"Hi," He appeared in front of me.

Stop smiling.

"H-hi!" I also smiled nervously!

"You're here for a fireworks display?" He asked and I just answered it with a nod.

We actually have a fireworks display here every holiday and weekends, so when we have time, we're rushing to go here and watch.

I looked at him, he's now looking at the stars wearing his handsome smile and I just couldn't help but to stare at it.

He's here.. In front of me..

To be continued..