Chapter 52 - The Unexpected

It feels terrible for knowing all of this. I can't believed how my mother came up with an excuse of that. Let's say that it's not true, it's not true that she tries to..kill me..

That doesn't mean that she doesn't have a mistake for that. It was kind of unfair to me for being used as a bait on my father..

He hated me all his life because of the stupid mistake of my mother. I should've angry right? I have the right to be angry. But I was too weak to do that, my eyes are already swollen for crying the hell of this.

Life really sucks, huh?

I don't understand anything.. It was sudden and the revelations shocked me. I don't understand why he's blaming me for everything and not my mom? Why am I the he hated? I'm not the one who made him choose! Damn it!

"Now tell me if you still think that your mom loves you," He says.

"WHAT THE HELL DAD! LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO HER! SHIT!" Seb is freaking out now. He keep on cursing while he don't know how to console me.

"AND MOM! HE'S LYING RIGHT? TELL US THE TRUTH!" He pleaded.

We are desperate to know the truth. I was lost in this moment, I don't know where to stand anymore. Everything was clear to me, I was the victim but being punished for a freakin' sin of my parents.

"MOM!" Drake was angry too.

She's just standing in front of me with those blank expression. It hurts even more that I don't know what she's thinking..

She closed her eyes and tears began to fall down her cheeks.

No.

"I'm so sorry, Raine.." She looks at me with those emotional gaze. Shit.

That hurts even more.. I admired her very much and all my life I was attached to her. This is really heartbreaking, my mother who I love the most..hurt me that I couldn't imagined..

My tears fell as I stare at her in this position, I didn't move I was waiting for her to explain and make me understand but my body doesn't respond to what my mind says.

She tries to come to me but I run inside my room. I locked it and cry on my bed.

I can't believe this! Fuck.

The mother that I thought who wouldn't betray me.. The father that I hated for making me suffer all my life.. They're just the same for me now. It hurts even more that I realized how unfair the people is..

I cried all night and didn't eat until the morning. My mother and siblings are alternating on calling for me but I just ignored them. Noah was calling me so many times but I didn't answer it, I promised to call him last night but our family matters suddenly came. I feel guilty but I don't want him to know how miserable I am right now.

He kept on calling me until my phone got dead. I'll just remained it like that for the mean time, so he can't call me. I was avoiding him for his own sake. I don't wanna drag him down with me. It's too selfish.

Then, the morning comes again but I'm still stuck on my room. I didn't even feel hungry, I just always want to sleep and sleep..

I heard a knock on my door with my mother's voice out there.

"Raine! Please come out darling, you didn't eat for a long time. I'm so worried!" Her voice pains me.

If this was called rebelling, I can't do anything for that anymore. My feelings are hurt and I think nobody can understand me. I was alone and I miserable.

"Please darling! You also have a visitor and he wants to talk to you.." She said and my eyes widened at that.

Shit! It's Noah!

I was stunned. I don't know what to do. How am I going to face him looking like this? Damn it!

And what is he doing here? This isn't the time to visit me, stupid!

I groaned and wear my racerback and shorts. I don't know what to wear, but since I was just here I'll just wear this simple clothes. I just fixed my hair into bun and put on my slippers.

I opened the door and found my mother at the side. She still looks cold but worry was flashing on her face. I gave him a blank stare before heading to the living room.

I found Noah there wearing his black leather jacket and his skinny jeans and a black boots. He looks so worried as he look at me so I just avoid it and sit beside him.

His stares are making me feel uneasy. I don't wanna face him but he's just stubborn and came back here.

I wanna scold him for being here but I don't want him to think that I'm pushing him away.

"Raine.." He calls.

"Hmm?" My eyes fixed on the floor.

"Do you wanna eat outside?" He asked and It made me turn my eyes at him.

I'm expecting him to nag at me but he didn't. Instead he just asked me to eat outside. And why is that?

He stood up and face my mother. "Ma'am.."

My mother looked at him, "Oh, yes sweetie?"

Sweetie? Hmm..

"C-can I take Raine outside? We'll just going to eat and--"

"Of course you can! Thank you, Noah!" She smiles but I just looked away.

"You don't have to thank me, Ma'am.."

"No, it's fine. I'm happy that you're here,"

I rolled my eyes and stood up. Noah was a bit surprised when he look at me.

"I'm going to change," I said.

"Sure, take your time.. "

"Do you wanna come inside her room?" My mom asked.

"Mom!"

She turn to me, "What? It's not like you're going to do something there, right young man?"

Noah's face turned red as I look at him. Geez. She's so irritating!

I rolled my eyes and walk inside my room. I heard her chuckles and it just made me sick inside.

I looked at myself on the mirror. I wanna vomit as I look my bare face. Shit. I was a piece of bomb. I can't believe I showed up in front of Noah looking like this.

I went inside my bathroom and start cleaning myself. I felt like I didn't bath for a long time. The warm water feels good on my body.

When I'm done, the aroma of the shower gel on my body filled the whole room and I was kind of relaxed.

"You took a while for bathing, huh?" His voice surprised me! Oh god!

He was lying on my bed while the pillow is on his eyes. Shit!

What is he doing here?

I looked at myself, I only wear a bathrobe and it feels awkward to see him while I'm wearing this.

"What are you doing here?" I shouted while I feel nervous.

"Lying? Waiting for you?" He answers as if he's not intimidated.

Oh god. I just wanna disappear here. I'm so freakin' embarrassed!

He get up and it made me put my arms across my body! His eyes widened and he immediately put his palm on it. Fuck!

"W-why are y-you dressed like that!" He shouts. "I-i thought you're d-done!"

"Fuck! This is my room, idiot! You can't come here while I'm still bathing! Christ!"

"Your mom told me to come here!"

"What?" I shouted.

"Just please put your clothes on! Damn you're making it hard for me woman!"

"Don't shout at me!"

Are we going to fight? Damn it!

"Fuck! Please forgive me for what I've sin.." I heard his prayers.

I wanna smash him for being a stupid jerk. I greeted my teeth as I watch his innocence.

I opened my damn cabinet and get all my things there. He's still covering his face like an idiot so I quickly went inside my bathroom to change.

The door closes so freakin' loud and I didn't mean it. It just slipped and the impact was high.

I wear my light blue candy pants and white top on it. This is just a simple hang out so I'll just wear a white sneakers. When I'm done, I went outside and find him pouting on top of my bed.

"You freak!" I twitched my upper lip.

"What? It's not like I'll see something in that," Wait.. What?

He glanced at my..boo--this freak!

I smacked his shoulder. "Aww!"

"You pervert huh! What? You think my boobs is small? Have you seen it, huh? Have you seen it?" I shouted.

His eyes got even bigger and I was snapped for what I've said. Shit!

I blushed when I realized it. Fuck! This is crazy!

"Do you want me to see it, huh?" He smiles like a perverted dog. 

Asshole.

I rolled my eyes and grabbed his ears. He's really get into my nerves. I'll just teach him a lesson first.

"Aww! Baby that hurts! Ah!" He shouts so I stopped. My mom and siblings will think that we're doing something here.

Nah. That will never happened.

He reached for my wrist and pulled me closer to him. Damn! He's so fast!

I can feel his breath on my mouth and It made my butterflies on my stomach freak out inside!

I'm not prepared for this. His stares are eating me! I want to look at him but I'm blushing like a freaking idiot! Oh God. How can someone's breath could this be smell good and addicting.

My heart raced for his sexy lips as it formed into a seductive smirked. His thumb caressed my bottom lip and it just give me some electricity on my body.

Shit!

What if he kisses me? We can't do it here!

To be continued..