Chapter 63 - Look At Me

As what I've said. We're now here inside my room. It feels new and awkward. The walls was filled with so many pictures of me and I forgot to remove it. God!

I blushed as I scan how embarrassing my room is..

But thanks to my bright window that It doesn't look dark here.

He looked around and used his two hands to support his weight on my bed. I bit my lip as my eyes locked on his beautiful biceps. God! How can someone's biceps be this hot?

I waved my hand to produce some air on my face. Why is it so hot right now? Let me check my air conditioner...

"So, what are we gonna talk about?" He asked.

I swallowed hard and turn my eyes at him.The need to listen was written on his face and it's making me feel pressured more!

I reached for my computer chair and sat on it before looking at him. The way he give his full attention to me, it's making me cringe and conscious with every move I make.

When is the last time that I put my make up?

Ugh! It's yesterday! I have no time to fixed myself because I was busy taking care of my mom! God! I'm so stupid. I forgot that Noah was with us. Damn!

"What you are thinking is wrong.." I started. I really need to tell him that it's nothing to me.

And how is that become a big deal to us? God! It's just a simple look!

"On what particular thing that you think I'm wrong?" He asked in between his smirked face.

Is it that much? That he had to ask the specific thing?

"You're wrong.." I have no words to say.. Fuck this.

"What is it that I'm wrong, Raine?"

I pouted. He's not calling me, baby anymore..

"Don't you trust my feelings for you, Noah?" I asked.

I hate how he asked me like I did something wrong. I hate how he gave me those cold gazes and I hate how he calls me by my name where it's supposed to be 'baby'! Oh God. I'm crazy!

He flushed a surprised reaction. The need to make him understand it was pushing me through this. I would be really upset if I didn't succeed.

"Raine.."

"I hate you!" I gave him a disappointed look.

"W-what did I do?" He stutters, looking shocked by my sudden reaction.

"I was avoiding his gazes because I didn't want you to misunderstand it. I don't know why is this so big deal to you but.. It's nothing to me, Noah.. All that matters to me is my feelings for you.."

"Things aren't work the way you wanted, Raine. There's still a moment when someone will question your actions.. And that's me now.." He looked down.

The bed crumbled as his fist closed. I was seeking for other answers where I could fully understand his feelings but I can't.

From the moment that Dana came here, I was like..whoa. His almighty ex-girlfriend have reunited with him here inside my house. But I endured it all since I trust his feelings for me.

I know he wouldn't do something that may hurt me in the end again.

But looking how he reacts after seeing Pierre looking at me. It was beyond my expectation. I expected him to be more understanding. That he would trust my feelings for him too. But I guessed it all wrong. I was wrong.

"I didn't expect it to be like this.." I shook my head, can't believed what's happening.

"That's how you get jealous, Noah? You'll doubting my feelings for you?" I asked in disappointment. It was obvious in his reaction now.

He stood up and licked the side of his lips as he always do. I feel like there's a pit inside my stomach while looking at his serious face. His reaction was far from the person that I always admire before..

"Raine, it's hard for me.." His voice cracks. "It's hard because I love you!" He muttered.

His confession hit me hard. I froze. His eyes locked on mine across the room. I'd had a feeling that my heart seemed to jump now. He walked slowly and cupped my face.

"I LOVE YOU, RAINE.." His voice was husky. Shit! How do I breathe now!

"I couldn't contain my feelings. Insecurities was bugging my mind and you keep bugging my mind! Fuck! I want you mine baby.. There's no such thing that can describe how I feel right now.." His eyes we're talking too. The situation was far from what I expect!

I didn't expect his confession too!

He's leaning towards me while I'm sitting here, looking at him with my surprised reaction. My jaw dropped as I processed all the words that he said to me.

H-he..loves, me?

The excitement inside me suddenly bloomed. My eyes watered and my heart was pounding so fast.

"I'm sorry for being a jerk to you, baby.. I'm sorry if I get jealous and made you feel like I don't trust you.. I.. I don't know what am I thinking, it's just that.. I was too possessive of you and I don't want you to get other's guys attention--"

I smiled and pulled him closer to me. I caught his lips and crashed it into mine. Fuck! I know what I'm doing and it's so insane to kiss this gorgeous man in front of me. God! I love him too!

He froze for a while but he started to respond when I deepened the kiss. I was wrecked inside when he made me feel like my feelings for him aren't real.. I love him all my life and I'm not going to let go of him anymore..

I used my ankle to reach his lips and kiss him passionately. I didn't mind how long I was standing like that, I didn't mind how tall he is.. I just want us to kiss and feel the love for one another..

We kissed with the same eager with our faces. His minty breath are making me go insane inside and kiss him more! But I'd had to let go to let him know how much I love him too..

My arms are still wrapped around his neck as I let go of his kiss. I bit my lips when my eyes locked on his red lips. Shit! I want more!

He smiles and gave me a quick kiss on my lips while his hands are still on my waist. I blushed when he touched me face and caressed it with his thumb.

"I was startled by your kiss baby.." He says while his eyes are shining.

I blushed even more for that. I was surprised by my actions too, baby..

"I thought, I'm the only one who's tempted to kiss you so bad. But you made me feel like you wanted me, baby.. Like you wanted to kiss me too.."

"So, don't be jealous. Okay?" I smiled.

He used his other arm to scratch his back head. I chuckled when he nods and looked away. He's embarrassed.

"Kissing is for lovers only but you kissed me baby," Then he looked up wearing his wicked smile.

Damn Noah. You're making me feel shy..

"When will you answer me, baby?" He asked, still wearing his smile.

"Why? You can't wait anymore?" I asked, I arch my brow and used it agains't him.

"Of course, I can! I'm just wondering if when will that day comes.." He bit his lip.

I smirked and his face enlightened. His face is so close and It's so much intense to feel his breath.

"Just wait, Noah." I patted his chest before pulling away.

I started to walk towards my bed and leave him standing there. His broad shoulders are now exposed and it's more appealing to me!

"But you didn't tell me, how do you feel about his unending stares at you," He muttered, he used his thumb to play with his lips as he looked at me.

I rolled my eyes and lied to my bed. I feel okay now and the hell, that kiss is really powerful! It can melt down his jealousy away! Fuck! I should do that again when he gets mad.

"It's nothing. I was a bit nervous because that's the first time he stared at me like that. He's my crush before but he never look at me the way he looked at me now.."

"What? And you feel nervous about that?" He sounds annoyed.

Though, I cannot see his face. I know how his eyebrows are not colliding.

"Of course!" I giggled.

"Then, look at me!"

"Why?"

"Just look at me!" He sounds irritated now.

I have no choice but to get up and face him. His eyes are like cats that's ready to attack and his two arms are crossed together.

"Look at me in the eye," He ordered.

I rolled my eyes before turning my eyes on his. My heart pounds as our eyes met, the shine in his eyes was melting my heart and all my inhibitions blew away! Fuck!

What's this feeling? My heart is beating so goddamn fast just by looking at his eyes!

"Tell me if you're nervous like you feel for him or your heart beats fast as your heart shouts for my name. I'll do the rest for you, baby.. Just tell me how you feel.."

My mouth parted and it made my heart beats faster! Damn it!

What is he doing to me?

To be continued..