Chapter 137 - Why?

A few days passed and still Noah and I can't even make some time to spend together. It was sad but I can understand it and we both agreed to it.

With those days, he's rarely calling or even texting me. I don't know if he's that busy or he still mourning about Dana's father's death. When I see him, he's like another person. He doesn't speak that much and sometimes I caught him staring at me.

And when he's doing that, I can't help but to feel worried. So instead of bothering him, I'm just letting him to be alone. Maybe he's still in pain and he needs to cope up with it.

I missed him..

"Raine, are you okay?" Sam was now here with me.

My class has ended an hour ago, so I'm here to take care of my paperworks at home. Gia and Jess were still at work, and Sam had a one week vacation but she chose to just stay at here.

"O-of course!" I tried my best to sound happy. I didn't want to worry her.

"You're not," She pouted.

"I just can't answer this, my head was aching for this!"

I just make my Math subject as an excuse to divert the attention. She's my bestfriend, she definitely know most of things about me.

"Let me see.."

She took the notes from me and answered it herself. I bit my lower lip when I felt guilty for keeping this from her.

Noah's actually bothering my head. I wanted to be with him but of course, he's still busy after this. Oh god.

How long should I wait, then?

"Why can't you figure this out? It's easy! Even the primary students can solve this." She gave me the notebook.

"Thanks," I made a finger heart to her.

"Are you finished with your thoughts now?"

My brows furrowed to her question. What was she talking about?

But I am more surprised when she pinched my cheeks. What the--

"Don't try to lie to me! I'm your freaking bestfriend!" She pursed her lips.

She's so good at this so I didn't have the to deny it. I'm doomed and this bitch is actually waiting for my story.

"I missed Noah.." I bit my lower lip.

I'm not that awkward to tell it to her anymore, because I was used to sharing my most unforgettable moments with Noah in the past few months that I'm with her.

"Then, why don't you go to him?" She asked cluelessly.

She didn't know that we're actually like this for awhile. Rarely texting and no calling. Is it still normal?

"He's not okay Sam. He needs to be a-alone.."

I avoid her gaze so I wouldn't see her reaction. I know I looked pathetic right now. But what can I do? I love him and I'll do everything just make him feel better.

"If he's not okay, it means you need to be there for him! Come on, Raine. Don't tell me you didn't thought of this?" She rolled her eyes.

"Of course, I did! Do you think I didn't think of it?"

I closed my notes since I already finished it. I'll just have to prepare for my shift later.

"Then, duh? Go to him and comfort him!" She said like it's the easiest thing to do.

"I can't.."

I shook my head and start to walked towards my room. I can also feel her presence behind me. She's like this right now, because she doesn't have things to take care of. I envy her.

"Why you can't? It's not like Noah can only have the right to control your relationship like this! He can't possibly tell you to stay away first just because he's not okay!" Her brows furrowed. "And hello? You're the girlfriend, he can't just ignore your feelings like this!"

I think telling her about it would make her feel upset. Her reaction was actually saying that she's already pissed. The way her tone raised and he face was now red.

"H-he didn't told me to d-do it Sam.. I'm the one who d-distance myself first.."

And I'm still going to do it even If I go back again on that time.

"Are you stupid? Why would you do that?!" Her eyes widened.

"Because his actions tell me to!" I answered.

My eyes watered as I remember how much I miss him again. It's been a long time since I heard his soft and sweet voice with my name..

His hugs, kisses, and c-care..I missed everything about him..

"What the fuck! Where's Noah! I'll kill him!" Her jaw clenched and I suddenly felt nervous when she stood up.

"I'm fine, Sam!" I also stood up and tries to make her seat again.

"No way, Raine! He can't treat you like this! If has a problem, he should deal it with you and even if he doesn't want to. He should've still call or even text you! I bet he didn't still call you right?" He gave me a piercing look.

Oh my god.

I bit my lower lip as I avoided her dark gazes. I didn't know what to say to her..

"Wait for me and I'll drag him here!" She succeed on getting off my grip and she immediately opened the door.

She's damn angry, I haven't seen her like this. This is all my fault, I shouldn't have act like that in front of her.

"Sam, wait!" I quickly chased her and I'm lucky that she's about to enter her car, so I immediately went inside it.

"You should've just waited for me! I can make him go there alone!" He dark expression didn't changed. It's so scary.

"I can talk to him, Sam. You didn't have to do this--"

"No fucking away! He's hurting you Raine! I know you won't let him know about your feelings so I'll be the one who'll slap it to him!"

She started the engine and I just didn't have the choice but to let her. It's Sam, what she wants she always gets.

"I can talk to him myself, promise we'll make up after that," I said while she's driving.

She's too focused that even her brows were battling with each other while she's driving.

"You didn't fight for you to make up," She glanced at me and rolled her eyes.

This bitch.

"Then, we'll talk about it. Can't you trust me?"

"I can't trust you on this, I know you'll let him do what he wants again.." She glared at me.

Of course, I wouldn't. I'll really talk to Noah so we can also settle with his problem. I can't also let him be like that for a longer time. He needs me, I know that.

"He's being a jerk right now, so It's time to cut his horn," She stopped the car around Noah's building.

"You knew his address?" I asked.

"Duh! Have you forgotten that I used to memorized the houses of every person that I know?" She arched a brow.

She's so grumpy today! Oh god.

"Ah..so that is.." I nodded.

"Let's go!"

She pulled my hand away and we headed towards Noah's building. We stayed on the lobby for a bit to wait for the elevator. And after a few seconds, It immediately opens. It's already 6 so I bet he's now inside his unit resting because Adrian was the one who takes care of the shop.

"Is he already there? I can't be failed right now," She glanced at me.

"I think so?" I answered nervously.

After that, the door opens and we immediately went out. I pouted when she dragged my hand through Noah's unit so we can go there quickly.

Damn it!

"You knock," She ordered.

"W-why me?" I stuttered. I really felt so nervous. "Then, I'll knock! Fuck this, I'm really going to kill--"

"No. I'll do it! I'll do it!" I stood up in front of the door.

I tried to lift up my hand but it's shaking too much. Oh god. What's happening to me!

"If you can't do it, I'll do," Sam impatiently said so even though I'm shaking, I immediately pressed the door bell and wait for him.

I held my chest as I hear the beat of my heart rapidly pumping so hard! Oh god!

And I was surprised when a woman opened the door. Her long and curly hairs was more emphasized with its blonde color.

I was actually shocked that I fell on my knees. The tears fall down my cheeks as I saw the shirt of Noah on her body.

Oh my god. What is she doing here? And why.. I looked at her body and I can see her underware through Noah's white button down dress now.

I covered my mouth in so much pain. I start whimpering as I pictured their moments together in his unit..fuck! He can't do this to me.. He loves me to much! No..

He can't do this..

"What are you doing on Noah's unit?! Where's Noah?!" I heard Sam's angry voice but I am too weak to stand on my own.

My eyes locked on his messy unit. The couch was disarranged and the rag was messy and looked..oh god..

I can't believed what's happening..If this is a dream, please someone wake me.. I don't want this. And why do I feel pain? It's not real right? Why?

I held my chest because it's aching too much. I can't also bear to hear my bestfriend's shouts so I just bowed my head and start crying. I covered my eyes with my wrist and sat on my knees.

Why Noah?

To be continued..