Chapter 152 - Attention

"What did you--oh my, you kissed Jacob?!"

I immediately covered Sam's mouth, afraid that the girls will hear her. I don't even know why I did that too. It just suddenly..happened..

I am so embarrassed and I don't know how to face him again tomorrow.

"Why are you covering your face?" Sam laughed. She pulled my hands from my face.

"Sam!"

"What?" She laughed again..

"Did he kissed you back?"

"I only kissed him on his cheeks, stupid!"

"Why not on the lips? Do you still feel ashamed?" Her brows furrowed.

Oh god.

"It's just a friendly kiss but why do I feel awkward?" I pouted.

She flicked my forehead so I immediately glared at her. What's her deal now?

"I asked you why not on the lips!"

"Oh my god. Why would I? I don't even have feelings for him!"

"FUCK!"

I was taken a back with her reaction. She seems like she got stressed with what I've said.

"Hey, are you okay?" I asked.

"I think I need to go home now," She was holding her nape. What happened to her suddenly?

"What am I going to do, Sam?"

I felt so stressed thinking about it. How should I face him tomorrow?

"Just tell him that it's just a friendly kiss so he wouldn't expect more!" She glared at me.

Why is she suddenly glaring at me like that? Did I said something wrong?

And why would Jacob expect more?

"You mean, I'll tell him that it didn't mean anything--"

"Exactly!" She cut me. Seriously what's her problem?

"I'll be going now. I need to clear my schedule for tomorrow. I need to visit out new branch site," She said and walked out of my room.

I just shrugged and prepared to go to the bookstore. It's my shift tonight so I'll just bring my notes there. I need to study more because our internship will start soon.

"You can use my lamp inside my office, Raine. You can study properly using it," My boss tells me. She's holding her bag, ready to go home now.

"Thank you, Ms. Davis." I smiled and that's her cue to leave.

I'm so lucky to have a thoughtful and a kind boss like her. She's always thinking on how should I study well while working. She said that I am like a younger sister to her, that's why she wanted to help me as much a possible.

She's also generous which really makes her a good person. Her heart was so pure that I'm afraid that someone will hurt her.

I just stayed there overnight and when my shift is done, I went home straightly to sleep at least for 5 hours. When I woke up, Jessy tells me to eat my breakfast first.

They're always making me breakfast since Noah and I broke up. They wanted me to eat three times a day that's why I'm really doing it.

When I had my breakfast, I started to take a bath to get ready for the second game. Jacob asked me to wear his jersey again so I had to wash it yesterday.

I just wear a high-waisted jeans and a pair of white rubber shoes. I also tucked the jersey inside of my jeans and put some minimal make up.

I'll cheer for him today even if I felt so embarrassed. I'll just swallow my pride though. There's no wrong with that.

But I was startled when I saw a text messages from Adrian saying that Noah has appeared on the shop that's why I decided to go there. I just carried my bag with me and rushed to go to the elevator.

"Gosh! I just hope that I'll finally meet him," I looked at my watch. The game will start soon, damn it.

I immediately headed outside as soon as the elevator opened. I called for a grab and sent a message to my friends that I'll be late and they don't have to wait for me.

I just hope that I can make it to Jacob's game later..

When I arrived at the shop, I almost burst out in annoyance knowing that he already left when I arrived. Damn, I'll smack his face when I see him.

I headed towards his unit after that, hoping that he's there. Damn, I looked like a freakin' stupid chasing him!

I pressed the button on the way to the 5th floor and walked towards his unit after that. He's such a pain in the ass really!

I pressed the door bell and waited for him to open it. I greeted my teeth as the door is still closed. He's not opening it. Oh god.

If he ever open this, I'll straightly punch him in the face.

"Where are you asshole!"

I pressed it again but no one's opening it. I was going to call him but I remember that I deleted his number years ago. Shit.

I checked the time and I'm already late. I needed to give him this before my friends knew that I still have the anklet.

I waited for him outside of his unit but still he doesn't seem like he wanted to let me in. I immediately used my hand to knock on his door. I needed to go Jacob's game but I can't lose this chance now!

"Noah, open the door!" I shouted.

I received a text messages from my friends this time. They're asking when am I, because Jacob was looking for me. They even called me, so I just tell them that I'll try to make it up to the game.

I stared at Jacob's jersey shirt for a moment, I felt guilty for not able to watch his game this time. He was expecting me but I stood him up. He might be disappointed after this.

I'll just take whatever it is. Besides, it's really my fault that I choose to come here rather than watching his game.

Am I a bad friend?

I stayed there for a few hours, hoping that he'll open the door for me. I don't know if he's inside and he's just ignoring me or he's not really here.

But I don't care. I want to end this here now. I wanted to give him back what he's holding onto me.

I needed to break this game of us.

I felt disappointed as I received my friend's text messages to our group chat. Not because the result of the game was bad, but because the game has already ended without even watching it.

I can picture Jacob's reaction as I didn't make it to his game. I was disappointed too but I'm already here. I'll just take responsibility for this.

Damn, Noah. You're such a bad guy.

I bit my lower lip as I stare at his door. He won't really open it? Should I ask for his number now?

I should've just asked if earlier so I would have the chance to go to Jacob's game!

Stupid, Raine! Stupid!

I waited for him for another hour again but damn. He's getting into my nerves! Adrian also gave me his number but he's not picking up nor his calls!

What's happening to that guy really!

Adrian also told me that he let him take care of everything for now and he didn't even tell him where he goes. Is he really going back to his old self? That people keep finding where he is?

But I'll have to apologized that I'm not going to look for him anymore.

I decided to just go home since it's already late and I can feel my stomach aching for food now. I've been waiting outside of his unit and I haven't eaten my lunch and dinner!

I was amused by how did I managed to wait for that long? Shit. Did I really waited that long?!

I took a grab on the way home so I could just eat my dinner there. I have no energy to cook so I'll just eat some cup noodles. I hope my friends had already bought some groceries.

"Where have you been? I was waiting for you.."

I was startled when Jacob's face appeared in front of me. He walked towards my direction and held my chin.

I immediately looked away as our eyes meet, I felt guilty again. I always guilty for him. I'm so ashamed that I always make him disappointed in me.

I feel like I don't deserved to be his friend.

"W-why did you waited for me..I was taking care of something t-that's why I didn't make it to your game.." My voice cracked. I feel like I would cry any minute now.

Damn.

I bit my lower lip as I tried to halt my tears. I can't make him feel bad when It's my fault. He's been good to me and that's enough for me to hold my tears.

I am too dramatic to feel this. Damn it!

"Have you eaten?"

I shook my head.

"Did you really stood me up?"

I know he'll be disappointed but I can't lie that's why I just nodded.

"I'm sorry.."

"I guess you're not."

I was confused to his answer that's why I looked up to face him. "Huh?"

But instead, he just grabbed my hand and run with him.

"Let's just celebrate it. You can't refused this," he smiles so I had no choice but to come with him.

We just took a grab again and it's so annoying that he's the one who payed for it. He told me that I can't do anything but to let him do what he pleases because I was indebted to him.

I rolled my eyes and just let him choose what restaurant we should eat.

"Have you decided now? You've been--"

I feel like my hunger faded. Shit. This is the restaurant where me and Noah used to eat before.

"Let's go,"

My hands felt cold as he pulled me inside it. I can't concentrate now. I feel like--

"Can you give your full attention to me this time, Raine?"

And I was more surprised when Jacob's face looked serious. He held my hand tighter and clenched his jaw.

To be continued..