Chapter 82 - 81: First Kiss.

(Lily's POV)

I was on my way back from the bladesmith.

I went there to pick up my new sword since my papa insisted on getting a new sword.

As I was passing by the adventure guild, someone called out to me.

"Lily," 

I instantly recognized the owner of the voice. Turning around to face him, I opened my mouth saying,

"Oh, Grey!"

"What are you doing here?" he asked.

"I was here to pick up a new weapon since papa insisted that I should buy a new sword.".

My family situation was getting better, we were back to our old noble status.

"Show me that sword," he said stretching out his hand, he wanted me to hand him the sword. As I handed him the sword, he closely observed the sword.

As he was checking out my sword, I opened my mouth saying,

"I am sorry about Grandma Julia. Are you fine?" 

With a bright smile, he replied "I am perfectly fine."

"oh--- okay."

I stood there quietly since I didn't know what else to say.

After a little pause, 

"You are going away tomorrow right?" I asked. He was leaving Goldberg city forever. There was a lot to say to him, but I wasn't brave enough to say anything.

I didn't want him to go...

I wanted to stay with him just like this, forever...

I wanted to tell him how I felt about him...

"Yes," he answered, "Lily, why don't we go for a little walk together."

We aimlessly walked together through the streets. To fill the awkward silence, I said,

"It doesn't sit well with me that I am currently walking beside a person who will probably become the king of one of the two kingdoms in the future."

He let out a chuckle as he said, "Don't worry, I will accept you as my queen."

Q- queen!!! How did he know that?

Panicking, I punched his shoulder gently as I said, "Stop -- Stop messing with me!!!"

"Now now, don't make normal conversation erotic." 

At first, I didn't understand what he meant by that, but after a good second, I realized what he meant.

"I--- I didn't mean that!! I didn't mean 'messing' like that!!" I exclaimed.

"Oooooo, I thought you were pure maiden. You have a surprisingly dirty mind, I mean it's okay to be a pervert, I guess." 

I grabbed his collar as I exclaimed "Please stop mes---" before I could say it, I corrected myself,

"Please don't make fun of me!!!!"

After being settled down, I opened my mouth again, there was something I really wanted to say to him, I want to tell him about my feelings.

"You are royal, royal men and woman have their harem. Are you going to keep your harem?"

This is not what I wanted to say!!

He paused his walk as he asked "Is there a specific reason that you ask this question?"

Okay, this is a good time to tell him about what I really wanted to say. Calm down my heart.

I can do it... I can do it. 

I will tell him directly what I feel without any bullshit.

"You know, How I want a comfortable life, right? I thought wouldn't it be nice if I get to be with a royal. I would have power and all, so I thought--- being in your harem would be nice. Of course, you don't have to make me your wife!" I said.

Ah, I went ahead and said bullshit.

What did I just say?!!!! this is not what I wanted to say!! Why am I such a coward?!!

Now he will probably think that I am some kind of golddigger. 

I don't want anything else other than you!!

"Liar," he said.

"Huh?"

"Coward," he said, as he walked closer to me.

"Why are you calling me mean things?" I replied as I stepped back.

"What would you do if I were a commoner?" he asked, looking into my eyes. I found myself avoiding eye contact with him.

Yes, this is a great chance to confess!!

"Of course, I would marry you and make you take my family name. Having a handsome guy as my husband would increase my status among royals," I replied as she averted my gaze again.

I made it even worse!!! I want to say it, but his intense gaze is making it hard for me.

He took a step closer to me and with each step, I found myself stepping away from him. 

"You are not being honest, are you? do you really care about status or about me?" he asked as he took a step closer to me. 

Being cornered with the tree, I had nowhere else to go. He placed his hand on the tree as he bought his face close to mine. 

Too close!! his close, it's too close!!!

I couldn't help but look at his lips. I wanted him to kiss me, I want him to do things to me. 

Wait!! what am I thinking?!! am I really a pervert?

No, I am not a pervert. I am fine with doing it as long as it is with him.

I didn't reply to him with anything, as I looked away once more.

"I am ready to dedicate my life to one woman, I don't care about harem. " he said, he placed his hand under my chin as he raised my head to make me look into his eyes "Why do you think that you deserve to be in my harem?"

Does he mean that I don't deserve to be in his harem?

I mean, he right, there is nothing special about me.....

after a little pause, he continued," Why would someone take you in a harem? when you are such a great wife material."

Why does he have to say things like that?!!

Screw it! I can't, control myself!

Being not in control of my mind, I grabbed his collar to pull him closer. Pulling his face closer, I placed my lips over his. 

It was the best moment of my life, I didn't want it to stop. My heart pounded like crazy, but I didn't want it to stop.

His lips were full, soft, and warm, I didn't want to stop kissing him. 

But I stopped as I pulled myself away, or else I might end up doing more than kissing. 

"Too bad!! I got your first kiss, now you will remember me forever!!" I said, as I quickly walked away. After gaining my senses back, I had realized what I had done and I didn't want to face him.

I kept walking without looking back.

Shit! shit!! shit!! shit!! I kissed him!! I kissed him!! 

It was my first kiss though!! 

I wonder what kind of expression do I have on my face right now? my heart feels like it might burst out of my chest.

I wonder what kind of expression he has on his face right? with though I felt the urge to look back. 

Giving up on my urge, I looked back.

He was still standing over there. his hands were over his lips, as his face was---- crimson red. 

Cute!! my heart!! looking back was a mistake!!