Chapter 79

I knew that look.

This empty eyes and tired expression master makes whenever he was alone. Master has lived a very long life, he is so old that he even helped to evacuate humans from the upper regions. do people make that face when they are tired of living?

But the expression master wore that day was a bit different, he looked like someone who has found hope. I couldn't understand what that face meant, but I did after waking up later.

He killed himself.

He didn't need to fight that monster by himself. Brother Ba might have some self-confidence issues, but he is very strong. I am sure master told him something like ' help the citizens ' or ' you shouldn't let people see your true form ' and ordered him to retreat. Brother Ba would never ignore a command from master.

Just like that, master found an opportunity to return to his original form and took it. He selfishly said to live happily and make friends, then goes and dies. He broke our promise and left me. What made him think I won't argue? Does he not love me? How could he leave like this?

I can be selfish too.

He must love me.

I will bring him back.

I locked myself in master's room, searching in his dairies for a trace of an active gate. If I found one, then the problem would be solved easily, but as expected there was none.

With things getting hard, I began thinking of all the ways to travel to the upper regions that master has told me about, that's when I heard brother Ba yelling. After rushing out, I found brother and his majesty fighting.

Apparently, brother Ba blames his majesty for what happened to master. But that's not right, master is a lier and traitor, that's why he should blame master instead of being mean to his majesty. But it's weird for brother Ba to be like this, usually he is very gentle and thoughtful. Maybe there was something else that made them fight, I am not sure...

Anyways, after thinking for a long time I figured that I am stupid. So, I packed my things and headed to where the smart people were. The closest ones were the ice elves, yet, I preferred not to go to them because they will surely tell on me to brother Ba. I decided to visit the forest elves, they won't tell brother and are easy to bribe.

But before that, I need to check on the gates within the Dead Land, they are the only ones I haven't seen with my eyes. If I found one that is in a good shape, I can find a way to reactivate it.

I prepared my bag and sneaked out while brother Ba wasn't home, that's when his majesty caught me escaping. I managed to reach the forest before brother Ba followed me, and there was a big Roro that tried to eat me. Luckily, I was saved by his majesty.

After returning back home, brother Ba and I had a serious conversation. From it, I realized that he knew master dried his mana purposely and he has no intention of going against master's decision. There was no point trying to make him understand. For now, I chose to be quiet and obedient, I will flee when they the least expect me to.

Later, brother Ba left to meet with NOAH leaders to talk about work and what happened to master, while I stayed with his majesty. I love his majesty, he is the most handsome human I have ever seen. Master told me about all the hard things Emperors do, his majesty is so amazing and kind, he treats me warmly and always makes me happy.

Sometimes I wonder.... if I had a father would it feel like this?

After travelling through the Empire for months, we came to the imperial palace. That's where I met his majesty's son, ghost Lennox, although he said he is not,  I am sure he is.

I know a ghost when I see one.

Anyways, mister ghost has been asking me very weird questions at the beginning, he also looked like he wanted to cut open my guts and see what's inside. But I don't care, there is only digested food in my stomach.

Well, he stopped staring at me like that after some time. Just so you know, I become his friend because his majesty told me to, not because I wanted to make friends *lying in Spanish*

As I spent more time in the < stupidly huge fancy and expensive palace that I gave up on exploring it all > I learned that his majesty trusts mister ghost very much. He gives him important tasks to do and consults him before making decisions. We are the same age, then why are we so different?

Months went by, brother Ba and his majesty doesn't seem to be wary of me escaping anymore. This is my chance to run away. Since brother Ba will leave the Empire again, all I have to be concerned about is his majesty catching me again. Master told me once that parents can sense when their children do bad things.

I have to be careful with his majesty because I know that I am doing something bad. That's why I wanted to ask ghost Lennox for help when I meet him at the wedding, but he was busy searching for a husband. After hesitating for a while, I decided to just tell him, maybe he can find another way for me.

However, for some reason, we ended up planning to run away together. I felt bad for making him accompany me while he was looking for a husband, so I thought I should bring him one. But he refused, I don't understand why.....I mean Edgar is very sweet and nice, he is a good husband!

Since I am going to meet the elves, I need to prepare something to bribe them. Master has a lot of mana crystal, a bag or two should be enough for them, the problem is that I don't know where master's stock is. Luckily, brother Yo offered his Aryis' to me, now I have everything ready.

I decided to go to brother Yo's office on the same night, so I told Lennox and he shouted at me. I know I am asking too much, but he could have said no without getting angry. I was feeling upset on his majesty's lap when he said something that made me even more upset.

" dear, you can't pressure her to stay with you. If Evey wants to, she will willingly come to you "

Who said you can't?!!

I will force master to love me!

And I don't hate lady Anna, I like her but she is a bit weird.

I was about to leave to the witches' bank when Lennox suddenly said that he will come with me. I was happy. Ever since I cried in the carriage (see chapter 35) Lennox has been treating me more kindly. It felt like we really were friends.

But I was hit with reality.

What the grimoires said was true. I am useless, I can't even change my clothes by myself. Lennox on the other hand is someone so cool and amazing.

He can use domain magic, Ishanil magic and black magic. Brother Ba also said that Lennox's sword skills were almost as good as his'. We are the same age, then why are we so different?

Would master have loved me if I was half good as he is?

I think he will...