Chapter 903

When Pei Xiuyuan saw her sitting on the balcony, her whole body was covered in gloom, her eyes were empty and her tears were falling. His heart was suddenly throbbing. What he was most afraid of was this.

Her depression at that time really left a big shadow in Pei Xiuyuan's heart!

She like this, let him seem to return to that darkest day, he really don't want to see, don't want to recall that day.

He strode forward and held her in his arms. "What are you looking at?"

Lu man was held in his arms, and then he recovered.

"I didn't see anything. I was in a daze." She subconsciously pulled up a smile, just that with tears of smile, see the person instantly distressed.

"Don't think about the past." Pei Xiuyuan doesn't let her escape and keep her in mind.

Because if you hold it, you will have problems.

"I didn't..." Lu man just wanted to say I didn't. seeing Pei Xiuyuan's worried face, she swallowed her words.

"Don't worry about me. I just think about it for a moment. I'll be fine." Slender fingers touch his face, is very distressed, fearless of him, because she is afraid to worry, she does not deny that she is sad, but she really is OK, will not want to open!

He really doesn't have to worry about it.

"Children's affairs don't need to be so serious. They can't be forced." Pei Xiuyuan said in a light voice.

"I know." Luman knows everything.

Pei Xiuyuan saw that she didn't know what to say.

"Xiuyuan, you really don't have to worry about it. That thing in the past feels the same to you and me. You will feel uncomfortable when you think of the past, right? I'm the same, so don't worry about me. I'll never be like before! " Lu man holds his face, let him look at her, see her serious.

"Yes." Pei Xiuyuan knew that she would not be like before, but he was very distressed just to see her like this.

"Xiuyuan, I don't want to take medicine. Let's make test tube baby!" Lu man doesn't want to take medicine. In the past two years, she has taken many kinds of medicine! Every time she takes a new drug, she has great expectations, and the results are full of disappointment! She doesn't want to bear such a vicious circle of hope, disappointment, hope and disappointment. It's like a nightmare that will never wake up. She's exhausted from torture. She's really fed up with it!

"Good." She wants to have children, whatever way he gives them to her.

Lu man looked at him, and suddenly tears gushed out, "I'm sorry I'm sorry Sorry, honey... "

He was so kind to her, he wanted his daughter so much, but she killed his daughter, and she couldn't give him a daughter in person. She was so sorry for him!

Really

"Fool You're not sorry for me Big hand wipe away her tears, extremely distressed, he is most afraid of her tears.

"I killed our children..." Lu man blames herself. She really blames herself. She has no way to let go of it.

"Why don't you say I didn't protect our children? I didn't protect you well and let you suffer such a crime. If you think you are wrong, my fault will be bigger and more damned. Do you want me to thank you for death? " Losing that child is a pain Pei Xiuyuan can never mend in his heart. After all, he is not careful enough to let outsiders have a chance to hurt them.

If he can do better, how can they be hurt?

He never said anything, but his heart is also very remorse.

When Lu man heard his words, she was stunned for a moment. Then she found out how unqualified she was. She only cared about her sadness and remorse, never considered his feelings, never thought that he was so remorseful in his heart, and never thought that she was so miserable. He saw how miserable she would be!

The more I think about it, the more I feel that I really deserve it! She really shouldn't have been immersed in her own pain. If she didn't come out to see him, she

"Xiuyuan, it's not our fault. It's an unavoidable accident. Neither of us should blame ourselves!" Let bygones be bygones! They can't be immersed in the pain of that all the time. The days after that are still very long. They should be happy!

She can't apologize to him, feel sorry for him, but still do things that make him worry about pain! She wants to be happy! She wants him to be happy, too! There will be many unhappy and painful things in life. She can't be knocked down by the past and can't stand up!

Together with their father and son three people with her pain! She can't go on like this!

In her heart, she kept persuading and enlightening herself to be optimistic and positive.

"Don't you really blame me? Don't you think it's my fault? " Pei Xiuyuan said in pain.

"Yes! I really don't blame you. I don't think it's your fault! " Luman was sure.

"Wife..." Pei Xiuyuan is still very uncomfortable.

Lu man threw himself into his arms. "Husband, don't think about anything. Let's go out together and let's forget about it!"

"Well." Pei Xiuyuan hugs her tightly. The emotion in her eyes is hard to see and touch.I don't know if God is deliberately against them. Even if she is a test tube baby, she can't make Luman pregnant successfully. This is a big blow to her. She almost can't bear it, because she always thinks that as long as she is a test tube baby, she can conceive and give birth to a daughter. However, she is so sure that what she gets is such a fact, It's really too much for her!

If the way of trial, baby management and child care can't make her give birth successfully, she really can't have their own children any more!

Such a blow, let her a few days ago, just set up the optimistic positive heart, suddenly fell into the abyss, fell to pieces, want to pick up can not pick up.

But she didn't show it. She was afraid that Pei Xiuyuan would worry about her and suffer.

However, she thought she was hiding well, but they saw her clearly.

Don't say Pei Xiuyuan is worried, but the two children are worried.

Because Lu man had suffered from depression before, even if she came out later, her mind was still easy to think of sadness, which was the pessimistic instinct of her mind. Therefore, father and son were very worried about her situation, and they were afraid that she would become the same as before again!

"Mom, I don't want a sister. Don't have a sister, OK?" Pei Zichen holds her mother's arm and acts like a spoiler. He wants her to give up this idea, so that she won't be so miserable again!

"Why don't you want a sister?" Lu man frowned, although the test tube baby failed, she was hit, but she did not give up, she would like to try again!

So hearing his son say such words, he frowned uncomfortably.