Chapter 195 - Eulogy of the Prince 27

"Or should I call you, Little Bitch," Lady Merse said condescendingly.

I gritted my teeth, my hand trembling as I had the urge to smash her head into pieces. This woman was already in her forties and she still had that same condescending, above-all gaze.

She might be able to hide it well in front of Milord, but not in front of me! I knew what kind of monster she really was. My gaze darkened and I asked her, "Tell me, what did you do to her?"

"Her? Who?" Lady Merse acted as if she was baffled, and then she smiled, "Oh, that little slave girl who was with you all the time? The one who said that you are a good boy and tried to protect you?"

Lady Merse's smile turned into a mocking grin as she replied, "She's dead. I lynched her."

"You!" the surging anger in my mind had blinded me, I directed a strong punch to her face, but a shadow guard appeared instantly and blocked me. Although the shadow guard was able to block me, he fell to the ground g.r.o.a.n.e.d in pain.

"My my, what a crude big bitch you are," Lady Merse laughed, "Do you think I'm not prepared to face you? I guess it's true, too much s.e.m.e.n in your a.s.s makes your brain numb. Maybe you are trying to do that too to Aster?"

"SHUT UP!" I roared. I directed another punch at her, but this time, there were three shadow guards blocking my punch and tried to restrain me.

Lady Merse laughed. She stood from the bed and walked around me. She circled around me and then said, "You've become big and strong, but…" she flicked my forehead with her sharp nail and laughed, "As expected, still empty. There is no brain in you."

Lady Merse's silver mask glinted as the moonlight showered her figure. She had a different aura than Milord, when Milord was showered by the moonlight, he looked like an ethereal goddess. But Lady Merse? She looked like a witch, a phantom ready to devour you.

I glared at her, the anger in my heart couldn't be contained anymore. I struggled and pushed all the shadow guards around me. I dashed towards Lady Merse and prepared another punch.

And yet again, five shadow guards appeared and restrained me.

"You never learn, don't you?" Lady Merse sighed, "You are still the same bitch that I know, well, maybe worse. Because instead of killing you as I ordered, that executor back then sold you to another slave wagon instead. Did you do something to him? Did you shake your a.s.s so he would spare you?"

Lady Merse laughed, whenever she saw me in this hopeless state, she laughed happily.

"That girl… what did you do to her?" I asked again.

"I told you already, I killed her," Lady Merse grinned, "What? Do you have any feelings for her? Maybe because you both are disgusting s.e.x slaves?"

"SHE IS A SISTER FOR ME!" I raged as I struggled again, but this time, Lady Merse's shadow guard injected a poison to paralyze me, just like that time when the Crown Prince sent his subordinate to stop me. "I WILL KILL YOU! YOU WITCH! I WILL KILL YOU!" I fumed and I tried to move my body, I tried to resist the poison to no avail.

"Tch, I thought you are a changed man. I'm going to forgive you if you can serve Aster well, but turns out, you are still the same dumb kid," Lady Merse sneered, "That girl is not dead. She is alive in a small village, I gave her freedom when Wirgard was too heartbroken after your departure."

I was shocked to hear that. I stared at Lady Merse who didn't seem to care much about me. She scoffed and continued, "I don't kill without reason. I ordered a torture and execution for you because you influenced Wirgard too much, he became a s.e.x addict with you."

"T—Then, what is this about?! Why are you lying to me!" At the moment, I had a thought that Lady Merse was actually not a bad woman at all. Which was definitely not true, a monster like her didn't have any conscience at all.

'There is no way she is a kind woman! After the tortures she did to me and she tried to portray herself as innocent? No way in hell!'

"Because I want to test if you can actually protect Aster or not. Maybe, maybe at one moment, I thought you can be a good servant for Aster. But you disappointed me before, and still disappoint me now."

"You are rash, crude, stupid, and didn't have any logic. You think with your stupid emotion. Aster will die under your protection."

Lady Merse was looking at me with both pity and contempt, "I know that Aster has a very high opinion about you, maybe he already fell in love with you. Just like what you did to Wirgard, you also charmed Aster with your innocent dumb look."

"What will you do next? Asked Aster to be with you forever, just like what you did to Wirgard? You begged him to divorce me after you f.u.c.k with him every day, you begged him to make you a normal citizen or even more, to be his legal partner. You may be able to fool him and Aster, but you can't fool me."

I gritted my teeth, I couldn't refute her back because what she said was true. At some point, I was sold to General Wirgard Thana as a s.e.x slave, turned out he was gay and couldn't even have s.e.x with a woman. He was a gentle man and soon our entanglement involved emotion.

'I… I did it because I thought he could save my life! I never have any feelings for him, unlike with Milord…'

Lady Merse was staring at me, she sighed and turned her back against me. She was looking at the moon outside, "Did you know? That night, I was pregnant with his child. When my water broke, I was alone in my room and screamed, calling for help. What did Wirgard do? He said he just had a wonderful s.e.x with his Little Deer and didn't want you to be disturbed with my screaming. Thus, he locked me inside the room and my baby died."

I could hear her voice tremble as she continued, "When you heard the news, I still remember your indifferent look. Because you think that you are already Wirgard's favorite, you didn't see me as the mistress of Arion. You even tell Wirgard that I disturbed you with my frantic screaming."

I cooled down and stared at her with stinging pain in my heart. Her back looked so lonely, but Lady Merse still stood straight.

At that time, I thought Lady Merse was just making stories about her miscarriage. I thought she was trying to blame me so she would get rid of me… if this was the whole story…

'So, I am the guilty one here…'

"You know what's the worst?" Lady Merse turned her head and glanced at me, "It's because of you, that Wirgard lost so many of his loyal soldiers. At some point, Duchy of Arion was about to be dissolved because they were ashamed that their honorable general actually abandoned his wife and unborn child for a s.e.x slave."

"I… I…" I stuttered, I wanted to say sorry. But at this point, I already almost killed her three times. I lowered my head and accepted all my sin.

'I only want to survive no matter how. Back then, I thought everything was so simple. As long as I get General Wirgard's heart, then I will live…'

'I didn't know that I hurt her this bad…'

"S.e.x slave are the lowest of the low in Golden Camellia, and your identity was and still a s.e.x slave. You can't erase your past. It didn't matter what happened about Wirgard, because he almost died at this point. But you are going to ruin Aster too? First my husband, now my son? I think of him as my son, and I will protect him."

I raised my head instantly, this one, I didn't hesitate at all, "I WILL NOT HURT HIM!"

Lady Merse was startled with my reply. She was silent for a moment and continued, "Do you know what the public would say when they know that their beloved Grand Duke is charmed by a s.e.x slave? They will not see him as their legit ruler anymore. In Golden Camellia, any man or woman that got caught having emotional entanglement with their s.e.x slave are as good as dead."

'Yes, of course I knew that. I knew the risk if anyone figured my past.'

'But I couldn't leave him…'

'Maybe what she said was right, I am stupid, I only think with emotion…'

'Milord, if you know that... will you sacrifice your position for me? or sacrifice me for your position?'

Lady Merse took something from the small drawer near her bed, a white letter ready to be delivered, "This is the letter to inform Aster about all your past and your entanglement with not only my husband, but also many people in the past. As long as I send this, then Aster will surely kick you out of his life."

"NO!" I yelled frantically, "Please don't! If he really kicked me out of his life, I don't know if I could live!"

"You can always live selling your body like before, I'm sure some sick guys will love to use you again."

"It's not that!" my eyes were unfocused, the thought of Milord kicking me out with disgust in his face almost made me faint out of panic.

"Then give me one reason…" Lady Merse asked.

"I love him!" I said it out loud. "I love him so much, I don't mind dying for him! I won't hurt him! I would rather die than seeing him disappointed in me!"

The tears in my eyes started flowing, "I love him so much, please don't make him hate me. I would do anything. I would kiss your feet if you want to, please don't… I can't lose him…"

Lady Merse was silenced, she walked in front of me until her feet were right in front of my face, "If you really love him, then kiss my feet. Prove that you will kiss the feet of a woman you hate the most rather than letting him see this letter."

Without hesitating, I immediately kissed Lady Merse's feet not only once, but many times. I didn't have disgust in my heart, only fear. I feared Milord's reaction when he read the letter.

Lady Merse was uncomfortable by how obedient I had become after Milord was involved in this conversation, she pulled her feet and said, "I still can't trust you, but I don't want Aster to be saddened either. I will give this letter to my loyal subordinate who lives in this palace, you will not notice which one, but this letter shall be delivered when I know that you have hurt Aster."

"T—Thank you…"

Lady Merse looked uncomfortable, she sat on her bed and ordered her shadow guards to release me, the shadow guard gave me a pill to stop the poison inside my body. As I could finally move my body again, she said, "You may leave now. Remember, I will watch over you."

"…" I nodded and disappeared from her room.

***

'I'm scared if I said it, you will know that I'm so vile and dirty. I ruined many marriages because I just want to live, I make many men fall into a deep pit so I can survive.'

Tears flowed from my eyes again. I held the gold pin that Milord gave to me, 'Milord, I love you as much as I fear you. My love is so thick on you, but my trust on you is so thin.'

'I'm sorry, Milord.'