Rigorous, self-discipline, demeanor.
It is often the first impression of other people on Shi Qingci.
Day after day, year after year, boring and boring life, in the extreme solemnity and self-discipline to an incredible level, there has never been a deviation.
Until that day.
It should have been an ordinary first aid. The mood was completely calm and indifferent. There was no worry, no anxiety and nothing.
And that pair of eyes that couldn't crash into the line of sight broke all this calm.
Before that,
Shi Qingci never knew that a person's eyes could capture people's soul to this extent. They were bright, but too cold.
That was the first meeting.
It broke the calm that had remained silent for several years, and the palpitation of a moment.
He put his hand on the girl's heart and could feel the heartbeat under his fingertips.
At that moment,
It seems to overlap with the heartbeat of his sudden loss of frequency.
He wants her.
This is Shi Qingci's first idea of facing dyed white.
He has always been the most clear about what he wants and what purpose he wants.
For 20 years,
This is the first time that Shi Qingci raised the mood of breaking all the barriers of indifference in the bottom of his heart.
He wants her.
It must be her.
From the first encounter, the first glance.
Love has been planned for a long time.
Step by step approach, just right measure.
The original step-by-step plan can't resist the cold possessiveness in my heart.
Elegant and elegant.
It is often the impression of outsiders on him.
But only Shi Qingci knows it.
Not at all.
It was just a perfect disguise.
Weariness, indifference, darkness and indifference coexist.
When I was young,
Shi Qingci had a cat. He kept it carefully for two years and didn't touch anyone.
In fact, I don't like it very much. It's just a habit to do your best.
But then,
The cat ran away and followed a little boy. He looked very happy.
Later,
The cat is dead.
Don't think,
He dismembered it.
Unusual and even morbid possessiveness.
Shi Qingci can be calm and rational aware of his problems, which is very different from the people in the world.
And such possessiveness,
After the dust laden years have passed, because the heart rate has lost its propriety, because all the emotions you like are completely poured into one person.
He wants her.
She is his.
If it weren't for that cruise ship capsizing, ranbai owed Jiang Yuyan a life.
Maybe Shi Qingci will really do something.
He is cold and indifferent by nature. He doesn't care about morality, nor is he bound by this secular concept. He has no concept at all, only his own way of doing things.
And now the only thing I care about,
Only dyed white.
The tsunami surging silently in my heart wrapped the dangerous dark side, cruel and cold-blooded.
Make him do something in advance that has been planned for a long time since the first meeting.
Lock people in.
It completely belongs to him.
Her world can only be him.
Extreme and morbid thoughts, uncontrollable possessiveness.
Before that, Shi Qingci had made all preparations, including perfectly erasing all traces of girls in the world.
Thousands and thousands of times, planning for a long time.
For a long time,
But in the end, it was in the girl's eyes and words.
be utterly routed.
He never wanted to hurt her.
He just wants her.
In this world,
He won't hurt anyone.
How could she doubt that
How can I.
For Shi Qing Ci,
Dyed white is totally different from the cat he raised.
Even if he was angry and angry again, and the dark side of his heart could not be overturned, he would not be willing to take any action.
Even if you want to,
He can give her his life directly.
What a morbid feeling.
Probably no one will accept it.
So she really doesn't accept it.
At the moment of witnessing the girl's thin figure in a coma, the whole world seemed to fall apart and break up in front of her.
Damn it.
The only panic and heartbeat in Shi Qingci's life are dyed white. There is only one.
He finally chose to admit defeat.
He backed down.
He bowed his head.
He gave in.
Just because of dyeing white.
That's it.
He is the girl's attending doctor. No one knows more about the girl's body than Shi Qingci except to whiten herself.
Even in the day-to-day treatment, still can not resist the deterioration of the disease.
a year.
Only one year.
The heart source cannot be found,
You'll die.
really
Shi Qingci has never been so square and disorderly. It has lost all its calmness and demeanor. It has always been elegant, calm and self-contained, and broken in an instant.
What to do.
How half.
During that time,
complete darkness.
Shi Qingci exhausted all resources and contacts, and even contacted people walking on the gray edge by any means.
By all means, it is only for one's life.
But it didn't help.
can't find.
How can I not find it.
As the year approached, the girl's body failed day after day until it was impossible to leave the hospital and she had to rely on treatment to maintain her life.
No one will know the mood of Qingci at that time.
He even pushed off all the work in the hospital and spent all his time on dyeing white. Sometimes he would watch the girl for days without sleep.
No one knows how scared he is.
That's better than his life.
No one knows how much Qing CI hates.
Hate himself,
incapable of action.
Hate himself,
Why not panda blood.
If he were, all this would be solved.
What a crazy mood.
No one knows.
Countless days and nights, night stars, that round of light first quarter moon has gone farther and farther. It does not change the clear wind and bones to smoke and burn the quiet and blurred night.
The cold pond crosses the crane shadow, and the cold moon buries the flower soul. When this bleak and sad poem flashed in my mind, a kind of deep sorrow hit me.
His girl,
That season of apricot blossom and spring rain will never be buried in the cruel and broken withered glory of life and death.
Shi Qingci was finally used by all means, but it was the only way.
He knew that Jiang Yuyan was panda blood very early in that operation.
But this is the card.
Clear words will not be used until necessary.
It has nothing to do with any moral bottom line, just because he knows that ranbai can't afford it.
But now
There's no way.
There's no time.
Only Jiang Yuyan.
Only Jiang Yuyan can save ranbai.
So he calmly and carefully calculated the conversation in the office. Every word, every minute, was calculated countless times.
He knows that Jiang Yuyan likes dyeing white.
He knew what choice Jiang Yuyan would make.
Very despicable and extreme means.
He never denied it.
No matter how many choices he is given, he will still choose to do so.
He doesn't care about anything, no matter how mean or despicable, as long as he lives in dyed white.
Keep him alive.
Ranbai can't afford it. It doesn't matter. He'll take it.
Everything is solved by him. The girl just needs to be as clean as water.
After making this decision, Shi Qingci never intended to tell ranbai.