The answer I gave myself was yes.
He will, absolutely.
A lesson from the past. Xu Jiaojiao.
I'll take a breath.
I know I should be so suspicious of Zhuo Feng. But I can't control it. Just because I saw more of Zhuo Feng's methods and what he had done to me, I pushed Gu Chengfeng away with my own hands, which is enough to explain everything.
I told Anne what I thought in private.
Anne didn't say a word after listening.
I'm in a hurry. Ask her, "Annie. I know I like to think. But I don't think it's too much. Zhuo Feng is very kind to me. I know. I know better than anyone that I shouldn't be so suspicious, right? "
"Drow. I think. Have you been suffocating at home for a long time recently, and you're a bit out of your mind? "
"Ah?" I exclaimed.
"Drow, you don't think too much. I think it's too dark, but nothing good has happened to you recently. Is it convenient for me to go now? I'll accompany you. Is that ok? "
I was stunned. After thinking about it, I agreed.
Annie came back with Lu Shao. Lu Shao took a look at the office I had cleaned up and was startled. Then he put up his thumb and went to work again. I didn't say a few more words.
When Annie came in, she took me into the room and looked at me mysteriously. "Drow, shall I take you to see a psychologist?"
"Yes? I'm ok. I'm not doing well now. I don't have any wishful thinking. I just... "
Don't I have my head in my head?
I was also scared by what I thought before.
Annie touched my forehead, looked at my eyes, and pinched my face. "Zhuo is very unique sometimes, but he's all for you. Why do you think so about him? What's more, Zhuo GE's things have been given to you. Why don't you feel at ease? You feel better if you doubt Zhuo Ge so much? "
I
I'm speechless. Yeah, why should I think of him that way?
"Annie, is there something wrong with me?"
Annie blinked and grabbed her head helplessly. "You wait. I'll call a friend and ask him. He studies psychology."
I watched her nervously, waiting for her phone to get through.
After a while, she called and handed it to me. "My friend said that he was not sure. He gave me a set of questions. Take them and have a look."
I took the phone to have a look, a lot of words, various topics, many of them are strange, but I still seriously answered, and later I will do a good job to her, Annie sent it to the other party, not long after, the other party replied, "a little bit, recently the pressure is too big, usually people will have emotional drip, but for a long time in this drip will produce." Some doubts about their own ideas are not very serious now. Do more psychological counseling. However, this is my opinion. I suggest that it is better to see a psychologist as soon as possible. "
After I read it, I felt a sharp pain in my heart. I didn't recover from those words for a long time.
Annie looked at me anxiously. "Drow, I'll take you to see a psychologist. You can't be bored all day. Zhuo Ge is kind enough to keep you here, but people are all social animals. You can see that small animals will become lonely if they don't contact with the same kind for a long time, especially people. You look OK, but your idea is very pessimistic. It's too different from the drow I used to know. When things happen, you like to think about the bad. Drow, you're too worrying. "
Anne's words made me feel a little shaken. If she hadn't found out my problem, I think I would have trapped myself here. There was no one around. There was only a closed room. There was no sunlight. There was only dark light on my head. It would really make people feel worse.
"Annie, I want to go out for a walk. Go and tell brother Lu for me."
"Don't talk about it. Just go straight away. I'll tell Zhuo about it. He's right to protect you, but he shouldn't limit all your freedom."
I was led by Annie and walked all the way outside. When I got to the downstairs, brother Li was still behind me to remind me whether I should go out by car or not. I said no. I turned my head and saw the huge sunlight coming in front of me. I was so shocked that I felt sick all over. I closed my eyes hard and adapted to the sunshine for a long time.
It's all dawn now?
"Isn't it evening, Anne?"
"You don't know what to do when you walk in the square in July. You don't know what to do when you walk in the square in July."
“…… Oh
Annie stayed with me until very late. Not long after that, Zhuo Feng came back.
He was sweating nervously and glared at my face.
I was seen hairy all over.
"I'm fine." I pushed him with a smile.
"I'll take you to the doctor." He has a hot palm. Hold my hand.
I pointed to the clock, "it's very late. I'm going tomorrow. How did you come back? Did Annie call you?"He nodded, "yes. Take the coat. Let's go now. I know the doctor
I have to pull me. I have to come out with Zhuo Feng. Looking at the pedestrians outside, I yearn very much. In the face of people coming and going, I feel as if I have been separated from others.
I took a deep breath and thought the air was good.
Zhuo Feng has been staring at me nervously. He doesn't say a word, and his lips are all pursed together.
It took a long time for the car to stop. When it arrived at a private psychological clinic, the man in a suit stood up and looked at us with a smile, "Zhuo Ge."
"Well, I'm really sorry to ask you to work overtime so late. I'm really worried." Zhuo Feng's voice is a little wrong, but he still holds my hand firmly.
After sitting down, the doctor looked at me and Zhuo Feng.
"Zhuo, I want to ask us to talk alone."
Zhuo Feng nodded, looked at me, bent down to kiss me, told me, "I'll wait outside, don't be afraid."
I'm not afraid. I'm just a little nervous.
After sitting down, the doctor looked at me, laughed, took out a pen and paper, turned off some dazzling lights around, the surrounding environment was very quiet, he played a very gentle music, and then asked me, "are you nervous?"
With the sound of the music, I am not so nervous, "OK, I was nervous just now, doctor, am I really ill?"
He laughed, did not directly answer me, only told me, "people's heart is actually very strong, not easy to be so sick, but sometimes will get into some dead end, can't walk out, it will make people feel depressed, your heart, must backlog a lot of things?"
I took a breath and said, "it should be. Since I was sensible, I have felt that I exist a lot. In recent years, this idea has been particularly strong."
The conversation was open, and I told all the things in my heart that made me unhappy. I cried and laughed as I said it. It was a long time. I talked for a long time. When Zhuo Feng came in, I still bowed my head and wiped my tears.
He sat next to me, grabbed my hand, put it in his arms.
"Drogo, let's go out and talk."
The doctor got up and went out first.
"Wait for me, don't cry."
Zhuo Feng got up and went with him.
Two tall figures shine on the door, shadow on the ground, pulled by the sun.
I stare at two people's side faces for a long time, Zhuo Feng's eyebrows have not been relaxed, occasionally nodded, very dignified to say a word, and then fell into a quiet droop, after a while, two people have come in, Zhuo Feng smile at me, "let's go!"
I got up, went over, looked at two people and asked them, "am I sick? Mental illness? "
The doctor told me with a smile, "try to relax, think about some happy things, and occasionally go out for a walk, or travel."
Zhuo fengen gave a sound and left with me.
In the car, Zhuo Feng didn't say a word. He just looked out the window. In the silent car, there were only the breathing sounds of me and him. I was a little nervous and asked, "am I ill?"
"It doesn't matter. It's not serious. Let's go home."
That's it. I'm really sick.