One is his good classmate and friend, the other is his wife. Does he really not know?
This day Zhuo Feng went to bed very late to get up, looking at his clothes for a long time, I said with a smile that it was Li Ze who helped him to relax.
The cooking aunt, who just bought vegetables, said that she saw a car accident on the road, which made her nearly sick. She is still in a state of shock. Since she came back, she has been talking to me all the time.
I listened carefully, but actually I didn't listen to a word, because my eyes have been put in Zhuo Feng from time to time.
Then the landline rang again.
It was Zhuo Feng who answered it. I watched him put down the phone and looked at me. I knew something was wrong.
I walked over tremblingly, and the phone was put in my ear to feed. There came a meow worried voice, "my aunt said that my father hasn't gone home these two days. I'm worried about you. I couldn't get through before I called to ask. I'm so worried!"
My hands trembled when I listened to meow. To tell you the truth, I was really worried that I would be separated from Zhuo Feng because of some trivial things in my daily life. Now that the children are growing up, I thought everything would be better. But in fact, there are more and more conflicts between me and Zhuo Feng.
Sometimes I wonder, how did we come through these years?
Recently, I often come to realize, is it true that those things happened before?
After my mother died, Feng Fei also disappeared from me. Our children are not close to me now. I just keep Zhuo Feng, thinking that this is the end of my life.
But in recent years, the children left one after another, and I realized that in fact, Zhuo Feng and I had no previous feelings. Even some trivial things can make us quarrel or cold war.
At least, I have children to talk to now.
Meow language is very busy, often fly abroad, even a year to see no one, but her phone will call, but in the face of her relationship at this time, I don't want to say.
Meow language urgent disturb, "Mom, if you don't say, I will push the work to see you now.". Ah In fact, mom, I didn't agree that you remarried with your father earlier. I thought you were better with Uncle Feng. At least uncle Feng is sincere to you. He has a good temper. You haven't quarreled for so long, but he left suddenly. You didn't tell me why. I think you really love my father. Now it seems that father is not your lover. You are not tall when you are together I'm glad that Mom, you might as well divorce now. Living with my father is torture. "
I wiped away the tears from the corner of my eyes and breathed weakly, "son, Feng Fei is dead."
Meow language didn't answer. After a long time, he said, "I know. I knew it for a long time. I thought you didn't know. Uncle Feng left after he was seriously ill and disappeared for a long time. When there was news again, he had cancer and could not be cured. But uncle Feng still wanted you very much. At that time, he asked you to see him. Why didn't you go?"
I was shocked. When did it happen?
Meow Yu added some details, but I didn't know them at all. During that time, Zhuo Feng and I went on holiday together, but I didn't take my phone. He had been carrying his work phone at that time.
I got flustered.
Meow said, "Mom, it's not that I hate my father for abandoning you. It's that I think he's really not your lover. I've chosen the wrong one from the beginning, really. If I were you, even if I was 90 years old, I would divorce. What's more, you are only 39 years old now. "
I was stunned for a long time. I didn't know when meow language had hung up the phone, but my mind echoed the way Feng Fei was when he left. He yelled at me, yelled and drove me away, but I didn't expect that it was all purposeful. In fact, I hated him later, but I had made up with Zhuo Feng, so I didn't think about it any more. I didn't want to end up like this Fruit.
I get up in a hurry and ask where Zhuo Feng is now. I directly hit the car and ran over.
In the face of my questioning, Zhuo Feng only nodded calmly, didn't say anything, and didn't blink.
I ran to him out of control.
It looks as if the whole old man at his desk had hit him behind him.
I haven't noticed that he's old. He's 49 years old. He doesn't look old.
But I can't feel pity at all. I just feel that I hate him slowly and I want to kill him.
After making trouble for so many years, I have no strength to make trouble any more. I even feel that I hate a lot.
Reluctantly holding the table firmly, he said to me, "I have been pursuing you all my life. I want to get you and protect you, but I find it very difficult. I know your heart is with me. Even when you were with Feng Fei, I know you didn't forget me. I didn't give up hope. As long as I get you, I will get rid of people around me at all costs, including him. I didn't go to see you when he was ill, but I made up my mind not to tell him, yes, you can hate me, but at least in this life, you not only have him in your heart, but also love and hate me. Drow, it's not enough that we've tortured each other for so many years. Recently, there have been a lot of contradictions. I thought you were still a child. I didn't expect that you were because of this. How do you want to leave me again? "I shake my head, tears shake out, looking at the man in front of me, I love the man for more than 20 years, it is so terrible.
Before, I only knew that he would be cruel to others. Now, he is the same to himself, me and his children.
He's a real cold-blooded animal.
I growled and slapped him in the face.
"I will not divorce, I will torture you, torture you with the rest of the time."
We had a cold war for five years.
I watched his various reports in the media every day, including entertainment headlines and tricky interviews. I watched his demeanor slowly decline, but I didn't hate him less.
It's just that I lack the motivation and courage to leave. The market is sitting on the graveyard, staring at Feng Fei's photos in a daze, thinking about the past.
On this day, I fell asleep in the graveyard. Maybe it was too sunny in the summer morning. When I woke up, I found that I was covered with a blanket.
In the distance, Feng Fei was looking forward to it.
At this moment, I suddenly felt as if I would never hate him, only, deep love, strong love, stubbornly think that he is the most perfect man in the world, but in fact, this is my illusion, my Zhuofeng is not perfect, even in the past are hateful businessmen, but he loves me, also I love.
I stood up and waved to him, and he laughed.
I think of the night many years ago when he stood under the sign of the roadside station, the light bastard, I was ragged, he waved to me and asked me gently, "who is it?"
(end of the book)