Chapter 751

Sarah once said that she was a defective product.

Since she was born in this world, she has no emotion. She is a incomplete thing that looks like life but is not life.

Yes, in fact, it can be said that she is just a lucky "object" with self-awareness, that's all.

Marca doesn't know how Sarah sees the world over the years. But from the beginning of strangeness to later familiarity, it should not be much different from a child growing up.

At least, it should be on the spiritual level.

But it's hard to imagine how she sees herself

"Wait!"

When Maka pulled the energy of the bewitching monument back into the gem and cut off his magic supply to the rune array, he suddenly thought of a question and couldn't help asking it.

"Speaking of it, why do you want to get emotion?" he said in a puzzled way, "if you have emotion and are hidden for some reason, I can understand it, but..."

"Why?"

Sarah stood in the array, thinking silently for a moment, but then shook her head.

"I don't know. I just think... I want to have emotion," she said in a confused way. "That's what I lack. Isn't it... Normal to want what I don't have?"

"Normal?" Marca looked at her and repeated the word.

"Isn't it?" Sarah stroked her cheek and said softly. "For example, when I think of Phillips, I should be sad... But I don't even understand what sadness is. Even after watching others cry, I don't understand what it should feel."

As she spoke, she seemed to feel the slap that Phillips slapped on her face again. The subtle touch made her unforgettable all her life.

"In this case, I really want to experience it - even for a moment."

However, at this moment, Maka's finger immediately pointed to Sarah.

"Yes, that's it!" he frowned. "What I mentioned just now? Emotion is the appearance of desire, and your desire for emotion itself is not a desire?"

After pointing out the key, Maka recalled and continued: "you know, I lost my emotion for a while. At that time, my thinking mode changed a lot... Seriously, if I had never had emotion, I might not even know what to do at that time!"

Now, that feeling is still terrible.

But Maka clearly remembers that she was not even aware of her fear. Only a sense of disobedience secretly drove him to discover through self-analysis that such a state is likely to be bad.

Therefore, after understanding the current situation, he began to imitate himself as much as possible, and found a reason for himself to move forward.

Otherwise, it was hard for him to imagine what he would be like now.

At this point, he looked at Sarah again.

"And you," he analyzed, "you didn't have any past as a reference from the beginning. How did you find the motivation to move forward in this world?"

"Let alone get emotional." - Marca didn't say this, but what he wanted to express had been passed on to Sarah.

"The power to move forward..."

Sarah tried to think with a puzzling expression. Maka could see that she was quite difficult to understand these things that were very close to the root of the problem.

In fact, if a normal person comes, it is difficult to find an answer to this dialectical discussion.

But for Sarah, this is the key - if she can figure it out, she may be a big step closer to the "emotion" she needs.

As for Marca's position, she actually wants to help Sarah. Because now, Sarah's harvest is completely linked to his research on the soul and the bewitching monument.

Unfortunately, only this step, he can help very little.

"Oh, Sarah," when the other party was thinking silently, Maka seemed to suddenly think of something, "I have another question to ask you... Maybe this question will be easier to answer than just now."

"What?" Sarah raised her eyelids slightly.

"I want to know how you understand your own existence?" Maka asked. "Just as I know that I am a 'human'... The answer may not be accurate, but it is my understanding of myself."

"Me?" Sarah thought. "I've thought about this question many times before. I think... I should be an 'object'... Right?"

Obviously, she is still very uncertain about her answer, but no wonder.

"Really?" Maka nodded. "Look at this -"

As he spoke, he took out a heavy book and threw it at his feet. Then, as he waved his staff, the book immediately expanded.

It can be seen that under Maka's control, the book changes its shape rapidly. In the blink of an eye, it turns from a book into a beautiful irregular material, and constantly refines its outline.

Soon, in the space between them, a girl who was almost indistinguishable from Sarah appeared.

"Look at her," Marca said. "What do you think is the difference between you and her in addition to your self-awareness?"

In fact, it's like ordinary people analyzing themselves in a mirror, but the reality created by deformation like Maka is unmatched by looking in a mirror.

Previously, in the defense against the dark arts class, Snape's Bogart training course also made Sarah encounter a similar situation. But now, in the case of purposeful self-examination, the effect must be much more significant.

When Sarah was as like as two peas in her eyes, Marca was watching her every change. This might be the best time to find a breakthrough.

However, if he could know what happened when Sarah faced Bogart, there might be no need to make so much trouble

"No..."

Just for a moment, Sarah unconsciously stepped back as if she felt something incomprehensible.

"I... I don't understand," she took a deep breath and then took another half step back, as if she wanted to stay away from something extremely similar to herself. "I feel... Very uncomfortable. I don't want to see her. Can you take her away?"

"Is that true?"

While nodding secretly, Maka waved her staff again to turn the "doll" much like Sarah back into a book.

In fact, when he saw Sarah's performance, he understood that Sarah didn't really have no emotion. Because when she sees an object that seems to be the same as herself, she will feel different because of the subtle differences between the other party and herself.

And that strange feeling is undoubtedly a touch of fear.

"Sarah," after thinking about it, Maka couldn't help smiling, "I have to congratulate you first. It turns out that although the experiment failed, my guess seems to be wrong... Well, or at least it's incomplete."

He paused and then said, "you may not lack emotion, but... Your emotional change is too weak compared with ordinary people."

"I have feelings?"

Sarah blinked, then lowered her eyes and looked at her hands, as if looking for a sense of reality. On Marca's side, she seemed confused and relieved, and there was more comfort in her heart.

After reaching this conclusion, Maka herself is actually a little disappointed.

Because he had thought that if Sarah really had no feelings, he might take this opportunity to let Sarah prove another conjecture for him.

And that guess involves the power source of the bewitching monument.

Yes, he has decided to take the next test of royna Ravenclaw.

However, if his conjecture is confirmed, it will not be him who really controls the monument of bewitchment - but Sarah in front of him.

As for Marka himself, he will try to be the only one who can control Sarah, just as he tried to control the alienated eight eyed spider.

If Sarah can not do what he wants to live peacefully after gaining emotion, he will not interfere in anything of Sarah. Otherwise, he will assume his share of responsibility.

However, even Maka didn't think in advance that Sarah actually has normal emotions.

However, her feelings are very weak.

"... in this way, will Ravenclaw's test have to be put on hold?" on this thought, Maka, who was more or less hesitant about this matter, shook her head, "that's good..."

"Professor McLean?"

Seeing that Maka seemed to be thinking about something, Sarah suddenly called him after waiting for a while.

"Oh," said Maka, after reorganizing her mood, "in short, today's attempt is here first... In fact, we have gained a lot, haven't we?"

Through a little understanding just now, Sarah has also felt some very subtle doubts. Reminded by Maka, she summarized those doubts and made herself aware of them - maybe it really belongs to her emotional trace.

"Yes," Sarah nodded. "Thank you, Professor McLean."

When Maka heard the speech, she didn't say anything polite like "you're welcome". Although his harvest is far from what he expected, it doesn't mean that there is nothing at all.

But

"The stone of bewitchment... Do you really want me to come by myself?"