92 Couldn't reshape what has already deformed

i am frustrated. i can't find much on her laptop or her secretary's phone. i found some inappropriate things on her stepfather's phone. he made frequent calls to chisa and someone in the underground world. i found lewd text messages to his mistresses. i made a copy of them. they might come handy in the future. there are some illegal businesses that the stepfather is involved in, but it can't do much to chisa. she knows how to shake her hands off anything that doesn't serve her anymore.

i scratch my head. my eyes hurt. it's been a long time since i sat for this many hours in front of the screen. my father has turned me into a human being who wakes up in the morning and sleeps at the right time in the night. from the hikikomori who wouldn't take a bath for days, i have turned into a woman who can't spend one day without taking a bath. this is frustrating. i make my way to the bathroom to take a quick bath. i dress in a comfy large t-shirt and baggy trousers. the trousers are slightly long. oh, i am wearing kiyohira's clothes. his clothes smell like him. 

this is too frustrating. why did he leave? i wanted to slap him one more time. at work, he has that mizutani feeding him delicious meals. i want to slap him two more times for having pretty assistants when he's already married.

why i am frustrated? i want to beat him. he seems so proud of lying. that jerk! 

i am getting old. i feel so tired. there's so much to do.

my stomach growls, protesting my decision to dig deeper into chisa. when did i eat last? it was before the wedding. 

i change clothes first. as much as i like his comfortable clothes, i don't think that we should be sharing clothes right now. i don't want to wear his clothes and give him the wrong ideas. i am sure that he's thinking of finding ways to make me fall for him and then, seduce me to bed.

"that's right." i fist my hands. "umezaki rie won't fall in love. umezaki rie will kick his arse and send him out of this planet if he disturbs her plan. umezaki rie will look for ways to annul this marriage."

he said that he won't do it with me unless i fall for him.

"tsk!" i open the door. "wanting me to fall for him while being a dishonest asshole who lures women into marriage with a pure smile... i want to beat him more."

right, it's my fault for falling into the trap. i have been a fool.

i can be angry. i need to eat first. there should be something to eat in the kitchen.

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the sweet voice freezes me on the spot. i look behind me and see chisa standing in blue attire. kiyohira's grandmother is standing beside her with a deep disapproving from. i am standing still, unable to walk further or backward, gaping at the woman. 

'rie, have you changed at all?' i hear the girl laughing in my head. 'if you think that you have changed, take a step.'

cold sweats break down on my forehead when she walks toward me. it takes everything in me to lift my foot and walk backward. she stops halfway. "rie san, is something wrong? you look so pale."

i have changed. a backward step is still a step. "thanks for feigning concern for me. if you are curious about my wedding night, i couldn't sleep for a second. kiyohira is quite energetic after some drama at the wedding. he kept telling me how i can easily make him go crazy, unlike certain someone who reminds him of a porcelain cold doll inside the glass container."

she purses her lips. there is a glint in her eyes. i see something breaking on her face. anger? yes, be angry. i want to see how angry you can get. when people are angry, they make mistakes. let me see how you sharpen your perfection with your rage.

"rie, you shameless girl!" grandmother kamiyama barks at me. "you don't even know how to talk in front of the seniors of the family. did your family not teach you anything? oh, i already know. your father couldn't reshape what has already deformed years ago."

"grandmother, don't scold her. she's..." chisa bites her lower lip. "i am sure that she's just jealous of my history with kiyohira. i have already given up on him."

"chisa, i will never accept her as my granddaughter-in-law. she will leave this house. you must not give up on kiyohira. he is temporarily blinded by dirt that glitter." grandmother kamiyama pats chisa's back. "he will come to his senses soon. i am sure of that."

i exhale loudly, keeping my temper. i know that she hates me, but calling me dirty and deformed is a bit much. since she is his grandmother, i won't say anything to her. 

"i heard that she was pregnant before she got married." grandmother kamiyama gives me a side-long glance. "it's good that she lost the child. i wouldn't want our kamiyama family's blood mix with her."

"grandmother kamiyama, it must have been quite traumatic for her." chisa bats her eyes in my direction. "i feel heartbroken that she lost kiyohira's first child. kiyohira's child is also my child."

something breaks inside me. i take long strides toward her and grab her throat.