Chapter 19

He pulled me against the wall before pulling down my pants and undoing his. I did my best to wrap my arms around his neck as he lifted my leg and rammed into me. I immediately released with a groan and shiver as he paused and looked to me.

"More," I begged as I squeezed myself closer to him. I began crying harder, "it hurts Ash. I want him so bad!"

He picked up my other leg and moved me so that my back was against the wall. He began thrusting as hard as he could while kissing me.

"Tell me when the nausea gets to be too much."

I grabbed his hair and pulled his face closer. "I don't care about the nausea," I cried, "make the pain stop, please!"

He grew larger as I shivered and kissed him harder. "I'm close. I should take it out." I shook my head and pulled him so that our foreheads were against each other. He looked to me with concern, "you're already sick. I don't want to make it worse."

I kissed him and bit his lips slightly, "This body is mine. I won't let him control me." I looked to him as my pheromones reached their peak, "make me yours."

He rammed me as I cried out in pain and pŀėȧsurė. As he released, my body burned as I felt ill. My pheromones calmed down, but my body trembled.

When Asher released me, I stood for a moment before collapsing to the ground. I finally looked to Cam as he stared at me with horror. His eyes were filled with tears as he looked at the state I was in. I was no longer the man he knew.

I doubled over and began throwing up. Asher kneeled beside me, waiting to be told how to help me. I looked to him after throwing up a fifth time.

"Hunter is on his way."

I used every sliver of energy I had to slam my fist on the ground, "he can't see me like this!" I cried as I looked to Asher with anger, "he's all I have!"

Asher's phone rang, "Hello?" He paused to listen, "he said he doesn't want you to come here." He paused again, "come down the alleyway behind the bar." Asher looked to me as I tried to kill him with my gaze. "He said he does't give a damn about your opinion."

I looked to Cam, "get out of here." He looked to me with sadness and confusion. "He may kill you for this and I can't stop him."

"I can't leave you!"

"Asher!" Hunter hollered as I doubled over and fought the urge to throw up again.

"Over here!"

As Hunter turned the corner, tears fell on his face. "Damn it," he hissed as I began crying harder.

"Go away," I cried as he stormed over to me.

"You don't get to tell me what to do this time," he frowned before kneeling in front of me. He pulled my face up so he could see my condition. "Fucking hell," he hissed before embracing me.

I began bawling as I shook harder, "I can't do it!"

"You are not giving up!" He yelled before moving his head to look to our side. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I..." Cam began shaking but put on a brave face, "I had to see him!"

Hunter scowled, "you did this to him! You might love him but you are making it worse! Just leave us alone!"

"Hunt," I whispered and he immediately looked to me, "I need to go to that Alpha. I'm out of time."

Cam looked to me, "Jayden from work is your partner?"

"No, he's Will's destined partner." Cam looked to Asher in horror, "after he screwed him on set, Will has been getting worse."

Cam looked to me, "Jayden hasn't been able to work," he stated, "he got sick on set the day you left!"

"So he knows," Hunter whispered, "did you tell him you found Will?" He demanded in a hiss. I squeezed Hunter closer so he would not attack Cam in a blind rage.

Cam shook his head as he looked to Hunter like he was a rabid dog. "No, I haven't seen him in days. I was asked to go check on him at his house yesterday and he didn't answer the door. His neighbor said he has not been out of there in days."

"Could he have followed you?"

Cam looked to Asher and violently shook his head. "No one knew I was coming here."

Hunter sighed before looking to me, "we will get through this." He kissed my head, "it's my turn to protect you."

I smiled to him sadly as I shook my head, "I lied to you," I squeezed his shirt in my hands, "I'm not okay."

He smiled sadly back, "I know."

I looked to Cam as I lifted from Hunter's ċhėst, "I can't protect you, Cam. I want to, but I can't even protect myself right now." I tried to stop crying but ġrȯȧnėd as I nearly threw up again. I regained composure and looked to him, "I love you," he looked to me with happiness and sadness, "that is why I can't be with you. It might be hard but you need to move on." I gripped Hunter tighter, "I want you to be happy, Cam. If you love me, please find someone who can give you happiness. That is all I want."

Cam stood as his body shook, "but..." I let go of Hunter and held my open arms to Cam. He rushed to me and began crying as he squeezed us together, "I can't be happy if I don't have you!"

I laid my head on top of his, "it feels like that now but you will find someone else. I know you will." I put on a brave face as I lifted his head so that he looked into my eyes, "I think the man for you has been at your side all this time."

He looked to me with shock, "Sean does not think of me like that."

"He has for a long time, Cam. He could give you happiness." I kissed his cheek and he began shaking again, "can you give me your phone?" He quickly rummaged it out and I took it. I typed in my new number. "Text me when you're lonely or need someone to talk to, okay? That way we can still be together." He nodded before hugging me tightly. I finally lost control of my illness and ġrȯȧnėd. He looked to me in horror, "I need to go."

He finally released me as I looked to Hunter. "Let's go home."

Asher came over and helped me up. Suddenly Cam rushed off but returned quickly. He sheepishly handed me the ring he had thrown before walking away. Once he was out of sight I turned and began whaling as I clung to him.

Asher held me silently until I couldn't cry anymore. "I'll take him, Hunter. That way we can take shifts watching him."

He shook his head, "finish up the night. I can bring him home. Meet us there when you're done."

Asher sighed, "alright." He began walking me to the car but stopped when I chuckled slightly.

"Can you at least buŧŧon my pants?"

He laughed before aiding me but looked to me with annoyance as I took the chance and grabbed a cigarette and lit it. "Really?"

I smirked as we continued on, "I'm dying, not dead."

He rolled his eyes, "what a drama queen."

I laughed slightly before groaning, "can you die from too much sėx?"

"You're disgusting," Hunter mumbled from behind us and I laughed. It was all I could do so I wouldn't cry anymore.

I ignored Connor as he stared at us while we went by. I knew I was a wreck and was sure that, when he saw Asher holding on to me so tightly, it made his blood boil. When we got far enough away I turned to Asher as he still helps me walk towards the cars.

"Have you done him yet?"

Asher scoffed, "other than with you, I make it a policy to not sleep with my workers." As we got to the car, Asher helped me in to my seat. He kissed my cheek before shutting the door and I buckled my seat belt.

As hunter began driving home, he gave me a side glance. "You're taking the rest of the week off," he stated and I sighed.

"Who died and made you king?"

Hunter turns me, gave me a dirty glance, and then look back to the road. "Until you start feeling better, I'm in charge. For all of our sakes, let your pride go for a few days and let us take care of you."

I chuckled, "now where's the fun in that?"

His face turns sour, "you do this every time and it pisses me off."

"What are you talking about?"

His hands gripped the steering wheel tighter. "You always start making jokes whenever you're about to lose it. You don't have to put a front up with me. Of anyone, I know you best."

I sighed as I leaned on to the window and looked out it. "It's the only way I can keep my sanity. I'm on the verge of losing it and if I think about it I will." I took a deep breath, "This time, I really don't know if I can recover."

"You recovered from being abandoned. You can surly recover again."

"But I had control of my body then. I can't even control my own body nor my mind. I could make my own choices, but this time it's no use."

"As long as we stick together, we'll find a way through it. But, to make it through it, I need you to be completely open with me." I could feel his desperation, "Don't worry about my feelings or how you might hurt me. I need to know everything in order to keep you safe."

"I can't do that, Hunter."

"Why the hell not?!" he insisted in a growl. "What is so bad you have to hide it for me? You can hide stuff from everyone else but you know I will never leave you!"

"I don't want to relive it," I replied with annoyance. "This is really hard on me and I'm bȧrėly making it through."

"But we can work through it together if I know! Please Will, I'm begging you to let me in."

I sighed, "alright."

"But let's wait till we get back. We should wait until Asher gets there too. With the 3 of us, we will be even stronger and be able to make it through this. He loves you unconditionally and I view him as a brother. I know it's been just the two of us for a long time. But I think it's time to have another person at our sides."

I fought back a groan, "he's going to learn about the darkest parts of our past."

"Well," hunter said with a sigh, "if he can make it through those parts and still stand with us, we can truly trust him." He paused as he seemed to try to muster confidence, "But that also means you need to tell me everything from our past that you have hidden from me. I don't need you shielding me from reality anymore. I can take it, I can handle it."

I laughed before looking to Hunter as he looked to me in a side glance. "If I was still in Alpha, I would a bit you from day one."

"You know I'm not into men," he laughed and I laughed harder.

"I could have changed your mind."

"Well aren't you all high-and-mighty," he laughed as he pulled into the driveway. "Wait there." He came around the car and helps me out of my seat.

He put his arm around me and supported me as we walked up the stairs to my small apartment above the garage.

"We need to get you cleaned up," he stated with a smirk, "you stink off sėx."

I did not fight him as he aided me to get undressed and went into the bathroom. I slowly followed and got into the shower as he sat in the bathroom waiting. I had to think on my feet as I did not want Hunter to know what I had to do.

"Can you go grab me a new towel?"

As I heard him leave the bathroom, I was quick about my work. I rushed to dig everything I could out of my ȧss. I had to cover my mouth in order not to mȯȧn the name I loathed. I quickly finished up the shower as I heard Hunter returning to the bathroom.

I stuck my hand out and he handed me the towel. I quickly dried off and slowly went back to my bedroom. I changed into some new clothes and felt slightly uncomfortable as Hunter stared me down. It was not the way most men looked at me when I dressed as stared with concern rather than excitement.

When I was finished, he brought me out to the small living room outside of my bedroom. He sat me down on the couch before sitting next to me. "Do you want something to eat?"

I shook my head as I leaned it back on the couch. "I'm too nauseous for that." I picked up the remote and put on a random show on the TV. We sat there quietly, in each other's company, for a while before Hunter got up and brought back a beer for me and for him. We quietly sat and watched the show as we drank until the door opened.

Asher stretched his arms as he came in and looked us. "You already started the fun without me?" He joked as we both rolled our eyes. Asher went to the fridge and grabbed himself a beer coming over. He sat in the chair closest to me.

"Asher," Hunter began and Asher suddenly chuckled.

"I feel like I'm going to get a verbal lashing. It's been a while since you talk to me so seriously."

Hunter smiled slightly, "Will and I think that we should divulge everything to you. It has only been the two of us for over 10 years, but I think we can trust you and I think you're an important ally for us."

Asher took a swig of his drink while trying to hide the large smile on his face. "I want to know everything but knew that I should wait until you both were ready."

I looked at him with sorrow, "there has been a lot of bad things that have happened. Not even Hunter knows about everything."

"If you think you can stay and support both of us, you will have to know everything."

"Hunter wants me to tell you both even the worst of my past."

"Well let's start with the present," Hunter insisted as he took my hand in his, "what exactly happened Earlier?"

I sighed, "for it to make sense, I have to tell Ashur about one of the most difficult points in our relationship."

Hunter's face went slightly pale as he realized what I was referring to.

I looked to Asher, "There was a very bad at incident that brought Hunter and I together as comrades for life."