Chapter 168 - Thank you (next coming soon)

Hello my lovely readers! I am sorry for how long I dissapeared for but my life has completely changed and I had to abandon my writing to focus on not losing my mind.

About 3 months ago, in a week's time, the person I thought was my destined partner announced that we were over and moved far away, I had to move back home, had to start back up at my job full time, and had to deal with my emotions from the sudden shift.

To be completely honest, I lost all hope in everything. I couldn't believe in love anymore, I couldn't imagine facing my reality, and wanted to dissapear. I tried my best to write a few more chapters, but it took me days upon days just to write a few sentences.

I realized I was no longer the writer you have come to know. I'm ashamed to admit, but I actually thought of ending the story with Will as abandoned, hurt, and depressed as I am. I quickly realized that is not a story I want to write nor publish.

I have written a tragic story full of twists and turns that does cover some of the harsh realities people, including myself and people I know, have actually faced (well not exactly as we don't live in the same reality as this story). But there is an underlying message of determination, strength, and love prevailing even through hellish times.

It took me a while to even think of opening this app as it brought me to tears. I couldn't think of anything to write and even the kind words I finally read made my guilt and depression worsen. Once I read your kind, loving words in a clearer, healthier head space, I felt the love I lost from my ex and it came from all of you. The last thing I want is to let this community down. Now, it may be sad to say, but you lovely creatures are the only people who see the true me and have ever accepted my deep, dark, but imaginative writing style.

Something I prided myself on was always delivering chapters quickly without (hopefully) lessening its quality. I can no longer guarantee when chapters will be published at this time, but I will do my best to publish them as quickly as I can.

I am now in the process of learning to love myself and moving forward from this sudden change. I know this process will be long, difficult, and painful but I hope to be able to return with the same strength and resilience you have known in the beginning.

Today, I am finally going to begin the process of writing for the first time in months and hope that it is a quality piece that can somewhat make up for my absence. I promise to try to publish a chapter within the next few days.

I truly love and appreciate all of you amazing creatures and hope to continue this story to a beautiful ending that you can love.

❤K.B.❤