Chapter 35 - Just wanted to stop the blood

My lips are bleeding.

"You monster." I seize him by his collar. "How dare you."

He suddenly leans forward and sucks the cut on her lower lip gently. A weird feeling bursts into my belly. I want to push him away and slap his face, but my body is not cooperating. His eyes are closed. His hands are on my waist. I should kick him between his legs and make him a eunuch. I should bite him back on the lips as revenge. There are so many things that I should do to him right now.

He doesn't have the scent of blood like Li Jun, but he feels the same at this moment. I don't know what I am thinking. Why I am comparing them? Whether they smell or feel the same, what does that got to do with me? Li Jun has killed people. Kang Si An will kill me. Both of them are dangerous.

He ceases his actions and reveals his green eyes. He is close enough that I can see his dilated pupils. He doesn't move away from me. I should push him away now. Why aren't my arms working? Am I paralyzed after being kissed by him like this? Is this some sort of timekeeper's trick?

"Your lips were bleeding... I am sorry... just wanted to stop the blood... " He coughs and turns away from me. His ears are turning pink. I put my hands on my ċhėst. My heart is beating so fast that I am afraid it will break out of my body. The pleasant and yet unpleasant feeling from my belly is flooding through my blood.

He peeks at me. "It doesn't mean anything. Don't look at me like that."

It might not mean anything to you, but I am afraid that it is beginning to mean something to me. I do my best to pick up the pieces of my fallen brain. "Don't do that again. If I am bleeding, you should call a doctor. Don't forget that you were the one who made me bleed."

Kang Si An looks away, guilty. "That's because... don't challenge me from now on. I don't know who this Li Jun is, but you can't see him until our contract is over. I don't want to have complications."

If he only knew who this Li Jun is...

"I am going back home." I don't want to see him. I don't want to feel uncomfortable like this. Kang Si An is bad for my life.

"Wait." He blocks my way. "I will take you. Your shoulder's wound isn't healed yet."

"It's fine." I don't look at him. It's becoming awkward between us. Where is my courage when I need it?

"You don't have the money to buy a ticket." He reminds me again. "Don't be stubborn. Since you are my fake girlfriend, it's only natural that I will take care of you. Manager Jeong will kill me if I am not sincere toward bearing my punishments and fixing my mistakes."

"..." It hurts when I purse my lips together. This guy is calling me his mistake and punishment at the same time.

I reluctantly follow him. I haven't lost my self-respect or pride. I have a goal. I have to find those crystals and more information about those timekeepers. Kang Si An is the key. I have to get him to sleep.

In the car, we don't talk. He is wearing sunglasses. I can't read his eyes. I decide to look out of the window. I didn't go back early this time. I don't feel it coming either. Am I finally back to my correct time or I am the temporary guest? The time that I have lost in the past is deducted from my present like a debt. Who do I owe this debt to? I didn't choose this.

I don't want to wander in time. I want to be at home. Whether it's past or the present, I want to find a place in time. At this rate, I won't have a life.

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She looks depressed. If she is feeling wronged, she should slap him. She shouldn't show that long face.

She is probably mad at him for doing that to her. He feels more guilty. He doesn't like seeing wounds on her body. Why did he lose his temper? Then, why did he kiss her again like that? Who kisses someone to stop the lip from bleeding? The reason sounds more ridiculous than his actions. He is sure that he has lost his ability to think objectively.

But, who is this Li Jun? She called that name when she was drugged. She called that name when she was stabbed. He must be an important person. Is she in love with Li Jun?

Unacceptable. During the term of the contract, she can't date or fall in love with anyone.

"Hey!"

She turns her head and looks at him with sad eyes. The words, that he wanted to say, are drowned in his throat. He wants to give her a hug and asks her what's wrong. At the same time, he knows that it got something to do with him.

"Don't make that face." He pushes the break. "Listen, for the last fifteen days, you were flirting with me shamelessly. You stole kisses from me countless times. You tried to sleep with me on my bed. You told me that you wanted a serious relationship with me. Now, you are saying that you like someone else."

She shrugs her shoulders and leans on the window glass, looking more depressed.

"I don't like you, but we are already in a situation. If you get involved with someone else and the media get any clue, it will create more problems for me. I want to deal with this quietly until that damn contract is over."

No answer.

"Hey, Kwon Kyuri, speak something. Am I speaking to a wall?"

He hears her sigh. "Kang Si An, I am tired of wandering. I might be your temporary punishment and mistake, but you are the final ending of my endless wandering. I don't know how to change that."