Chapter 99 - Just let me see her

Kang Si An's heart stops multiple times during the surgery. His body is brutally wounded. He has lost a lot of blood. It is a miracle that he is still alive. His consciousness comes and leaves his body.

The news that actor Kang Si An got into a life-threatening accident is all over the country. The drama has been canceled. Kang Si An's fans pray for him every day. His friends have visited. His mother and younger brother are here. Even Ki Mi Ran dared to visit him for publicity.

He can't move or speak because of the wounds on his bodies. He keeps looking for one person. She does not appear before his eyes for once.

The touch of death has broken the seal on the memories stuffed inside his soul. He remembers everything - all the lifetimes and their promises before and after she turned back time. He even remembers all the things that the timekeeper had done to her.

The memories flood through his brain. For days, he couldn't think properly. It's confusing at first. It becomes clear to him eventually who Kyuri is to him.

He killed her with these hands once. He hurt her again that night.

As Li Jun, he might have died for her once. She changed everything to save him and give him a new life. Because of him, she suffered for more than a thousand years. What did he do to her? Nothing. He only gave her pain over and over again. The reason behind her suffering is him.

It was him who told her to find him after changing the past. It was him who told her to make him fall for her. When she came to him, he did those horrible things to her.

He told her once that his soul would remember even if his heart forgot. But, he couldn't remember her when she came. She loved him so much. She watched over him for such a long time. She gave up everything of her for him.

It's too late to remember. She won't forgive him. She already told him that she would never see him again. Even if he dies, she won't come to see him.

When he can bȧrėly move his body, Kang Si An rips the IV from his hand and walks out in the hospital clothes. He takes a taxi to the apartment first. As he has expected, she isn't there. The apartment has been sold already.

He leaves the city right away. He remembers where her parents' home is. It hurts to walk. The blood is leaking out of his bandages. It's already dark when he reaches her home. He couldn't care less. There is only one person who matters. He knocks the door of her house.

Her brother raises his brow when he sees a half-dead man in the hospital clothes. The man is bȧrėly standing, shaking due to the chill in the air. "Who are you?"

He wonders if he should call an ambulance. The man looks like he will die at their doorstep.

"Kyuri." Kang Si An tries to push him away. "Where is she?"

"Who are you?" He grabs his shoulder to stop him. Ever since Thomas Park's visit, her brother has been cautious. His sister left two weeks ago to pursue a new career. When she returned, she kept crying in her room. They thought that she was disheartened because she couldn't do well in the acting career. They tried to soothe her, but she wouldn't stop crying.

Looking at this man, he has a hunch. Her sister's pain is not due to her failure. She isn't the type who would cry over failing in her career.

"Please let me see her." Kang Si An looks inside and sees her mother comes out of the kitchen with a confused face. Her father is also there. But, Kyuri is not there.

"I asked who are you." Her brother won't pity anyone when it comes to his sister's welfare. "Tell me now."

"I am..." Who is he to her? Li Jun? Kang Si An? He had so many names. However, it's Kang Si An who hurt her the most. "Kang Si An... tell her that it's me. Tell her that I remember..."

"Stay here." Her brother glares at him. "Father, see that he doesn't come inside the house. This man is highly suspicious."

Her father wordlessly gets up and takes the position at the door. Kang Si An isn't even invited inside the house. Whether he is bleeding or dying, he has to see her.

Kyuri's mother notices the blood dripping from his clothes. She gasps.

"You are bleeding."

Kyuri's father grimaces at him. "Did you run away from the hospital?"

Kang Si An reveals a pained smile. "I am fine. Just let me see her."

Her mother purses her lips. How does her daughter know this man? The relationship between this man and her daughter can't be simple.

Upstairs, her brother knocks her room. She opens it and looks at him. "I don't want to see him."

"He told me that he remembers." Her brother frowns a bit. The man did look desperate. "Who is he? What does he remember?"

"He is someone I don't want to see," She tells him coldly. "Tell him to recall my last promise that I made to him that night."

She closes the door and walks to her bed. She can hear all the voices. She lies down on the bed and stares at the ceiling quietly. Her heart hurts. There is nothing left of her to give him. Her pride, her body, her love... he has taken everything at once and crushed it with his feet. She doesn't feel like living or dying. That night, he damaged something inside her. It doesn't matter anymore whether he remembers or not. She isn't someone who will forgive. She will keep her words. He won't ever see her again.

"She won't see you." Her brother comes running downstairs. "She told me to tell you that you should remember the promise she made to you that night."

Kang Si An collapses on the spot. His stitches are broken. He is suffocating, not because of the physical pain. The promise that she made that night...

'I promise you this. No matter what happens in the future, whether you die or live, whether you beg me on your knees, whether you cry for me to come back, whether you remember or not, I will never ever forgive you for doing this to me, Kang Si An. You won't be able to see me ever again even in the afterlife.'

She won't see him. Then, it's better than he dies here.

"Ki Hyun, call the ambulance." Kyuri's father yells. "He is going to die."

"No." He grips the door handle and stands up. "Don't call anyone. I won't leave until she comes to see me. I will wait for her."

He slowly walks outside and sits down on his knees in front of her house. The pain in his body is nothing compared to what he inflicted on her. He keeps his eyes on the window on the first floor of the house. The lights are on. The curtains are drawn.

"Kyuri," He calls her name, wondering if she can hear.

A dark silhouette appears behind the window. He can recognize it anywhere. "Kyuri, forgive me."

Kyuri leans against the window, listening to his voice. She curses the time crystal to give her high hearing. She doesn't want to hear or see. She doesn't want to get hurt anymore.