31 And, you don't even like me

Huang Qiuyan runs through the forest with a complicated feeling in her heart. She's scared of Fu Sheng. Before she was scared of him because he nearly killed her, she is scared of him because of his effect on her. If she stays beside him, he will gobble her up.

She's afraid of losing her mind the most. Her free will. Lust or whatever it is, she wants to be her own person. She has lived her whole life under the shadow of her twin brother and doing what her mother wanted. She went on countless dates and lowered herself to a level where she would accept anything as long as she could get married. She went through near-death experiences many times. After turning into a monster, her family only cared about marriage and a man for her to rely on.

Huang Qiuyan halts and sobs silently. She's upset. It feels like she's falling into the clutches of a man who would not leave anything of her to exist. She wants freedom from people who always try to control her. Her mother. Her brother. Fu Sheng. She doesn't want to be with them. She wants to be with someone who can make her happy.

[System: Dear Host, if those are your true wishes, I will help you gladly. Please don't cry.]

She ignores the System's words. She hates being manipulated by the system too. Why isn't she a smart person?

[System: Dear Host, I only want what's best for you. Your survival is needed for my survival. I am also sad that my host isn't smart.]

"You are also useless." Huang Qiuyan huffs. "What's so -"

She suddenly feels a strong pull in the direction she came from. She spins around and starts running.

"What's going on?" She grabs her knees to stop herself. "I don't want to... not again."

[System: Dear Host, your mate is calling you.]

Her feet seem to have a mind of their own. She tries her best to resist, but her will is nothing compared to Fu Sheng's will. She is running through the forest, back to Fu Sheng who is waiting for her leisurely with a calm expression on her face.

She drops to her knees right in front of him. He's standing right where she left him. He steps toward her. She can feel the air tensing around her. She holds her breath in fear and avoids looking at him naturally. He bends down on one knee and lifts her face with his finger.

"You think that you can run away?" Fu Sheng's frosty gaze nearly sends her running again, but an invisible power is holding her still. "You are my true mate. When will you start acting like one?"

Huang Qiuyan has had enough. She gathers the small courage and dares herself to look into his eyes. "I told you that I didn't want to be your mate. I didn't want to complete the bonding. I don't want to be with you. I promise you that I will find a way to break the bond between us."

He raises his sharp brow, amused by her words. This mouse has some courage. She wants to reject the true bond and find a way to break it.

"And, you don't even like me." She continues. "You are feeling that way because of the true bond. It's manipulating our bodies to feel like that. I don't want to be with a man who is scary and treat me like a sex doll."

As her each word hits him, the temperature around them gets colder and colder. Enraged, she forgets who she is talking to.

"You nearly seduced me again. Even now, you forced me to come to you." She grits her teeth. "When we met, you believed me to be an assassin. Before that, you nearly killed me. Why would I ever want to be with a man like you? I want someone who is a gentle, kind, and respectable person."

[System: Dear Host, do you want to die that much?]

[Host: He won't kill me. If I die, he will die too.]

Fu Sheng's long and slender fingers dig into her hair and grip her scalp hard. "You think that true bond is just a joke?"

Huang Qiuyan's bites her lower lip. She wonders if she is wrong. Will he kill her and himself together because of his anger?

They stare at each other. One is shaking like a little rabbit in the jaws of a wolf. The wold is contemplating whether to chew her or swallow her. Several minutes pass. The system is quietly watching and wondering again why his luck is so bad. He quietly goes away to check on the inter-dimensional media and gather some pieces of information.

"You say that I treat you like a doll for pleasure." The wolf laughs lowly. His laughter is dripping with dark ferocity. "Then, I shall continue to make use of you in such a way."

"Noooo!" The rabbit widens her little eyes. "I am sorry. I said it in the wrong way. You don't treat me like that. You are just..."

"Just what?" The wolf has never planned to hold back. He pins the rabbit's shoulders on the ground and watches the change in her expressions with keen interest. Last time, it was the effect of the spell. He wants to know what kind of noises she will make when they are becoming one without any interference of an outsider.

"Just..." The rabbit doesn't know how to answer the wolf's question without offending him. The situation is too dangerous. She will be chewed alive anytime.

"You won't answer me. Then, I must find out in other ways."